I miss that light floaty feeling like walking on air that I got the first few times. It's like you are weightless and it doesn't take any effort to glide around the room. Even the feel of the air against your skin while you move feels so good.
Reading that almost brought a tear to my eye. The experience, especially the talking through jaw clenched mouths really hit home. People's first experience with MDMA have always been extremely glowing, remember that vividly, cause after the first experience, that magic doesn't show up. You might get more and more "fucked-up" on MDMA, you will never reach that first "magical" experience. Once your body and brain have seen the light, so to speak, you won't see it anymore. I've eaten more than my fair share, and more than a few other people's fair share, and you will never catch that initial experience. After like 3-5 times, the magic is gone, and will never return, so cherish it well. Enjoy the memory while it lasts , cause it will never represent itself again.
Using the acronym SWIM is proven to be pointless and a waste of time. And it's fucking annoying but i am glad you didn't use it all through your trip report.