zebrideluxe
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i will start straight away:
just: maybe the topic should read "alcohol +mdma" but i think the alcohol wasnt that important for my trip.
me and a friend, lets call him pille, were visiting another friend of us, mr.zombie, in stockholm. he fixed us tickets for a boat cruise from stockholm to turku and we went there the 3rd day we were in sweden. everything seemed perfect for a nice party, me and my friend were pretty released being in holidays, the dj line-up was very fine aswell, featering famous trance and techno artists. we had some trouble to pass the security guards, since i was one year too young. but we managed to come in, and the fact that we seemed kind of lucky in this situation, made us even more happy and ready to party. we were in a room together with another guy, lets call him jimbo. the boat took like 2000 people on like 9 decks with 3 dancefloors.
first we walked around the ship for some time, checked the dancefloors etc. since i had my camera with me, we took the camera with us most of the time, so i got everything on tape. we started to drink some vodka, with soda - that we bought in the taxfree shop on board - at like 10 o clock i think. the first dj started at 11 o clock, and we went to the dancefloor at 11:30 i think. danced some, went back to the room. etc. we changed the floors from time to time. we entered the techno floor at 2-3 o clock or something. i met a girl there, and danced with her for quite some time. pille was around too, and at some time i told him something like "i will kiss around with that girl in a second" and like i had total control over her, it happened like i told my friend. i think my friend mr.zombie left us at some point, because when he got back at like 3:30 he claimed to have some pills. pille joined him to the room. i said i'd join them later and stayed with the girl. my plan was to bring her to the room too, but she didnt want to stop dancing, so i left her at 4 o clock, taking her room number.
when i went to the room, mr.zombie pille and jimbo were in the room.
pille told me that mr.zombie had just given him a 30minutes introduction into e. me and pille were going to take the pills. i think we had 4pills. we decided to take 1 pill then, splitted the other two to take them later. after i took the pill, mr.zombie told me not to analyze myself, but i found it hard not to do that, though i managed straight after talking about something i dont remember. my face felt like there were fingers tipping on it. i showed it to pille and he agreed saying he had the same feeling. we got out of the room. me and pille stood to the ashtray and talked about being in sweden, talkin english all the time etc. at this time the e kicked in for me, not for pille as he told me that it kicked in for him when we were at the dancefloor. i felt like i knew everything he felt, our talk felt so very deep and i was so euphoric about it. i knew what he felt when saying a word, i really felt near to him in a very intense way. we headed for the trance dance floor straight after. the feeling of loving everyone and everything and the euphoria took over my mind. calling e the "hug drug" is understandable for me now.
from the dancefloor, i only remember people and light. the impression of being part of something. it felt like everything melted together, the light, the people, the music and me. an euphoric mixture from light people and music. it was unbelievable. i dont really know how long we danced there. time ceased to exist abit. i think we took one half of a pill each there.
we returned to the room at about 5, where we talked abit about how we were feeling, i dont really remember that too clearly, but i watched it on tape, so i know how it was "objectively"- quite different from my subjective memories though. both of us look very happy, smiling all the time, talking euphoric about our feelings. we took the second half of the pills, and pille and mr.zombie massaged me for some time. awesome, i never felt my body like that. i watched that on tape and its really unbelievable how my face tells the watcher how much i enjoy the situation. then we headed for the techno dancefloor. both of us, pille and me, forgot about that. but mr zombie filmed at the techno floor.
at about 6 i think the main two dancefloors closed and we headed for the loungefloor. after two hours of intense dancing, i still couldnt stop my feet. .i met the girl from before again. i dont remember that exact situation though. i danced with her, and i felt like being in love. like you imagine real love. i know that must sound very crazy, but its still the best way to describe my feelings. she wasnt able to talk too fluent anymore she told me, so we mostly communicated with our bodies. that really suited me well, as it turned out to be a very intense way of communcation. very clear infact, not bound to those strict words, and very free also. she told me that she was going to her room to smoke hash, since she was coming down from the lsd she took before. i didnt want to join, because i wasnt sure if it wouldnt be too much for my body. i danced, and she returned. dancing with her was unbelievable. every move that brought us together made me feel very released, and every move into the other direction left me very thrilled. she asked me if i wanted lsd too. i said no again, since i thought it'd be too much for my body. we used tigerbalm every now and then. it cooled down my whole body and gave me the most intense bodyfeeling i
ever experienced. at some point i must have told pille that i was going to fuck her right now. i dont remember it, but pille told me about it the next day. and i went to her room. more lsd for her there. though, there was her
brother and some other girl. her brother gave me poppers - which killed my memories for the next minutes. we returned to the dancefloor. on the way she asked me if its okay that she takes lsd and i dont. i said im on e and therefore dont want lsd. she told me she mixed xtc with lsd amphetamines and hash. i dont know if she ment the situation we were in, or other trips she experienced. i didnt care really - just wanted to dance again. we returned to the lounge floor and danced and danced. she payed me like 5-6 bottles of water, while she was drinking cider. at some point me and that girl sat down at a window and started kissing around, after that just sitting next to eachother touching eachother. that situation was really peaceful, and after some time she said she was going to bed. i didnt want to go with her really, since i didnt feel like fucking anymore, so i did let her go. i felt released in a way.
i wanted to share the beautiful situation with pille too.
i returned to the dancefloor and danced with pille. that was like 10-11 o clock. we played a computergame then, that we found in some corridor near to that dancefloor. that kind of computergame where you really got a chair and a steering wheel. a driving game that turned out really thrilling. we kind of came down from our trip but we still werent tired so we walked around the ship, the corridors, looking for partying people and then headed for the sun deck. it was awesome. it was like feeling the sun for the first time. you could see islands the ship passed by, while the wind refreshed my skin. the wind wasnt cold at all for us and the sun was really warming us. a very intense situation, i probably will never forget. after that, we went to bed. i fell asleep like 10minutes after lying down. first we thought there was some speed mixed into the pills because we really couldnt stop moving for 8hours, but after falling asleep so fast i doubt it.
i think the thing with e is, that it gets you into a mood where you dont fear anything anymore, because you're so euphoric. meaning you dont have to use your memories as a armor against your experiences, i think that explains why i felt like seeing the sun for the first time, kissing for the first time. infact i never thought of my past (excluding the last 5hours maybe) while tripping. i think that makes the trip so unbelievable. you experience many things "for the first time". at some point somebody told me to look out of the window of the ship. when i did, i was so impressed, i couldnt look away. "nature showed me her full beauty" it seemed. its undescribable. i think "experiencing things for the first time" expresses my feelings best. a very interesting parallel to this: the whole goal of the life of zen-buddhist monks is to achieve that state of mind, where you dont have to use your memory anymore, but take the present as it is - just as you do on e. so there's one question left, as me and pille figured it out: what do you wanna be? monk or junkie? no, im just kidding now. i think everything is way more complex, these thoughts just came to my mind and seemed interesting, so i wanted to share them. i hope you enjoyed reading. i know that everything is abit messed up. but its like that in my brain too. so atleast, its authentic.
just: maybe the topic should read "alcohol +mdma" but i think the alcohol wasnt that important for my trip.
me and a friend, lets call him pille, were visiting another friend of us, mr.zombie, in stockholm. he fixed us tickets for a boat cruise from stockholm to turku and we went there the 3rd day we were in sweden. everything seemed perfect for a nice party, me and my friend were pretty released being in holidays, the dj line-up was very fine aswell, featering famous trance and techno artists. we had some trouble to pass the security guards, since i was one year too young. but we managed to come in, and the fact that we seemed kind of lucky in this situation, made us even more happy and ready to party. we were in a room together with another guy, lets call him jimbo. the boat took like 2000 people on like 9 decks with 3 dancefloors.
first we walked around the ship for some time, checked the dancefloors etc. since i had my camera with me, we took the camera with us most of the time, so i got everything on tape. we started to drink some vodka, with soda - that we bought in the taxfree shop on board - at like 10 o clock i think. the first dj started at 11 o clock, and we went to the dancefloor at 11:30 i think. danced some, went back to the room. etc. we changed the floors from time to time. we entered the techno floor at 2-3 o clock or something. i met a girl there, and danced with her for quite some time. pille was around too, and at some time i told him something like "i will kiss around with that girl in a second" and like i had total control over her, it happened like i told my friend. i think my friend mr.zombie left us at some point, because when he got back at like 3:30 he claimed to have some pills. pille joined him to the room. i said i'd join them later and stayed with the girl. my plan was to bring her to the room too, but she didnt want to stop dancing, so i left her at 4 o clock, taking her room number.
when i went to the room, mr.zombie pille and jimbo were in the room.
pille told me that mr.zombie had just given him a 30minutes introduction into e. me and pille were going to take the pills. i think we had 4pills. we decided to take 1 pill then, splitted the other two to take them later. after i took the pill, mr.zombie told me not to analyze myself, but i found it hard not to do that, though i managed straight after talking about something i dont remember. my face felt like there were fingers tipping on it. i showed it to pille and he agreed saying he had the same feeling. we got out of the room. me and pille stood to the ashtray and talked about being in sweden, talkin english all the time etc. at this time the e kicked in for me, not for pille as he told me that it kicked in for him when we were at the dancefloor. i felt like i knew everything he felt, our talk felt so very deep and i was so euphoric about it. i knew what he felt when saying a word, i really felt near to him in a very intense way. we headed for the trance dance floor straight after. the feeling of loving everyone and everything and the euphoria took over my mind. calling e the "hug drug" is understandable for me now.
from the dancefloor, i only remember people and light. the impression of being part of something. it felt like everything melted together, the light, the people, the music and me. an euphoric mixture from light people and music. it was unbelievable. i dont really know how long we danced there. time ceased to exist abit. i think we took one half of a pill each there.
we returned to the room at about 5, where we talked abit about how we were feeling, i dont really remember that too clearly, but i watched it on tape, so i know how it was "objectively"- quite different from my subjective memories though. both of us look very happy, smiling all the time, talking euphoric about our feelings. we took the second half of the pills, and pille and mr.zombie massaged me for some time. awesome, i never felt my body like that. i watched that on tape and its really unbelievable how my face tells the watcher how much i enjoy the situation. then we headed for the techno dancefloor. both of us, pille and me, forgot about that. but mr zombie filmed at the techno floor.
at about 6 i think the main two dancefloors closed and we headed for the loungefloor. after two hours of intense dancing, i still couldnt stop my feet. .i met the girl from before again. i dont remember that exact situation though. i danced with her, and i felt like being in love. like you imagine real love. i know that must sound very crazy, but its still the best way to describe my feelings. she wasnt able to talk too fluent anymore she told me, so we mostly communicated with our bodies. that really suited me well, as it turned out to be a very intense way of communcation. very clear infact, not bound to those strict words, and very free also. she told me that she was going to her room to smoke hash, since she was coming down from the lsd she took before. i didnt want to join, because i wasnt sure if it wouldnt be too much for my body. i danced, and she returned. dancing with her was unbelievable. every move that brought us together made me feel very released, and every move into the other direction left me very thrilled. she asked me if i wanted lsd too. i said no again, since i thought it'd be too much for my body. we used tigerbalm every now and then. it cooled down my whole body and gave me the most intense bodyfeeling i
ever experienced. at some point i must have told pille that i was going to fuck her right now. i dont remember it, but pille told me about it the next day. and i went to her room. more lsd for her there. though, there was her
brother and some other girl. her brother gave me poppers - which killed my memories for the next minutes. we returned to the dancefloor. on the way she asked me if its okay that she takes lsd and i dont. i said im on e and therefore dont want lsd. she told me she mixed xtc with lsd amphetamines and hash. i dont know if she ment the situation we were in, or other trips she experienced. i didnt care really - just wanted to dance again. we returned to the lounge floor and danced and danced. she payed me like 5-6 bottles of water, while she was drinking cider. at some point me and that girl sat down at a window and started kissing around, after that just sitting next to eachother touching eachother. that situation was really peaceful, and after some time she said she was going to bed. i didnt want to go with her really, since i didnt feel like fucking anymore, so i did let her go. i felt released in a way.
i wanted to share the beautiful situation with pille too.
i returned to the dancefloor and danced with pille. that was like 10-11 o clock. we played a computergame then, that we found in some corridor near to that dancefloor. that kind of computergame where you really got a chair and a steering wheel. a driving game that turned out really thrilling. we kind of came down from our trip but we still werent tired so we walked around the ship, the corridors, looking for partying people and then headed for the sun deck. it was awesome. it was like feeling the sun for the first time. you could see islands the ship passed by, while the wind refreshed my skin. the wind wasnt cold at all for us and the sun was really warming us. a very intense situation, i probably will never forget. after that, we went to bed. i fell asleep like 10minutes after lying down. first we thought there was some speed mixed into the pills because we really couldnt stop moving for 8hours, but after falling asleep so fast i doubt it.
i think the thing with e is, that it gets you into a mood where you dont fear anything anymore, because you're so euphoric. meaning you dont have to use your memories as a armor against your experiences, i think that explains why i felt like seeing the sun for the first time, kissing for the first time. infact i never thought of my past (excluding the last 5hours maybe) while tripping. i think that makes the trip so unbelievable. you experience many things "for the first time". at some point somebody told me to look out of the window of the ship. when i did, i was so impressed, i couldnt look away. "nature showed me her full beauty" it seemed. its undescribable. i think "experiencing things for the first time" expresses my feelings best. a very interesting parallel to this: the whole goal of the life of zen-buddhist monks is to achieve that state of mind, where you dont have to use your memory anymore, but take the present as it is - just as you do on e. so there's one question left, as me and pille figured it out: what do you wanna be? monk or junkie? no, im just kidding now. i think everything is way more complex, these thoughts just came to my mind and seemed interesting, so i wanted to share them. i hope you enjoyed reading. i know that everything is abit messed up. but its like that in my brain too. so atleast, its authentic.
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