This is the report of my first MDMA experience. I wrote it a few years ago. I sent it to erowid but I don't think it's up there. Anyway I stumbled on it today and thought I'd post it here:
For me and my two friends R and M, this would be our first experience with MDMA.
Prior to this we had only really done alcohol and marijuana. Personally I don't really like alcohol. Although I love cannabis, I don't find it much of a party drug because it makes me tired and anti-social.
Looking for an enjoyable night at a new years party, it looked like the answer was MDMA.
I didn't want to try it for the first time at a party, so about 2 weeks before new years I got a couple of my friends together to give this new drug a shot.
I picked up 4 pills for $40. I didn't have a testing kit at the time, but pillreports said these pills should be some really good MDMA.
The 3 of us got together at R's house because his parents were out. I could tell all of us were a bit hesitant on doing a so called "harder drug".
We decided we'd just do half to get a feel for it. We cut the pills in half and took half a pill each at 9:00PM.
We then sat on the couch watching UFC. My anxiety really started to kick in, and the excitement of a new drug made me shake throughout my whole body.
I had to go out for a cigarette. The cig really helped and we continued to watch TV.
After about 25 minutes after injestion I could already feel the initial effects of the drug.
I felt a mild pleasurable feeling all over my body. It was very relaxing and enjoyable, and from then on I calmed down because I knew I had nothing to fear.
Although I was enjoying this, I kept asking myself "there's no way this can be it".
T+ 45 minutes and I could feel it very gradually intensifying. I felt like there was a point I wanted to reach but I couldn't achieve it.
I suggested taking another half pill each. R and M had yet to feel anything, so they agreed.
T+ 50 minutes and we now had a full pill in us each. I was excited. R and M seemed quite disappointed because they had still yet to feel anything.
They said they wanted to go smoke a joint, but I refused as I didn't want the effects to be masked.
T+ 60 minutes and we're all back in front of the TV. All of a sudden it hits me like a brick.
I immediately peak in a matter of seconds. It was a fucking blast off and holy shit... I feel amazing and I can't keep my mouth shut.
M says he feels some initial effects. R says he feels nothing and goes downstairs on the computer.
T+ 75 mins and M has come up. We sit there talking about everything. We're no longer interested in the TV, but we both have this feeling that we must leave it on.
R comes up, laughs at us and says our pupils our huge. Although, he has still yet to feel anything. He's kind of pissed off and goes back downstairs.
T+ 90 mins R comes upstairs and says "man... I'm feelin good". Me and M laugh at him. M and I continue to converse but R just sits there with a big smile on his face.
We decide to turn some techno on. R really enjoyed the music and almost got up to dance. Me and M seemed to have a similar roll, as both of us said we'd rather just talk than listen to the music.
T+ 100 mins. I manage to let a light piss out. We've all been drinking a lot of water in the last little while. I look in the mirror and cannot believe th size of my pupils.
I notice something else though. A huge smile on my face. It's not the kind of smile like I just heard something funny, or I found some money or anything like that.
It's the smile of true happyness. Something I haven't seen in a long time. I'm just so damn happy to be alive. I almost cry in happyness I'm so happy... Waves of euphoira flow throughout my body.
I am absolutely full of empathy as well. I cannot stop thinking about how much I love my friends, my family, love everything. That's it, I just love everything.
I cannot figure out how people go on with their days while wars are being fought with people dying meaninglessly all the time. I no longer understand war or any violence for that matter. Such a waste of life.
T+ 2 hours. R says he wants to go outside and walk around a bit. I take one step outside and quickly abolish the idea. It's wayyyy to cold. M agrees with me.
R seems kind of disappointed but I said there's no way I could do it (it was -25C outside).
R gets his ipod and sits there enjoying himself.
T+ 3 hours and I can feel a comedown. I'm really tempted to take the last pill, but decide to save it for new years incase I can't find anymore.
It's hard to remember much of the roll, except just sitting there, talking, feeling great and drinking water.
R says his parents are going to be coming home soon, so we go to the basement incase they came in and notice our pupils.
I really did not enjoy the basement. It was uncomfortable and cold.
T+ 4 hours. R's parents finally came home and went to bed. We go upstairs and I cannot stop pissing for the life of me. I literally pissed 8 times within 20 minutes.
For some reason this didn't happen to R or M.
T+ 5 hours. Although we all feel fine from the gradual comedown, we decide to smoke a couple bowls to help us sleep.
We then hit the sack and my mind goes crazy thinking about all the things I just experienced.
I wake up quite a few times in the night covered in sweat. I didn't sleep too well. I was awake at 9AM (about 5 hours of sleep).
To my suprise my pupils were still huge. The MDMA hangover is hard to explain. I felt weak, kind of tired but good at the same time.
I sat infront of the TV and ate some crackers.
M came down soon after and said he had the worst sleep of his life.
R came down later on and said he slept like a baby.
This drug clearly affects people differently.
Even though the night was just a few guys sitting around a TV, I have to say up to that point it was one of the best nights of my life.
I then did MDMA again on new years and that was no doubt the best night of my life.
I now do MDMA on special occasions, maybe 3-4 times a year.
It opens my mind to areas unimaginable, and to this day remains my drug of choice.
I would also like to add that I have gotten these same pills again, tested them with Marquis and they are indeed MDMA.
PLUR
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For me and my two friends R and M, this would be our first experience with MDMA.
Prior to this we had only really done alcohol and marijuana. Personally I don't really like alcohol. Although I love cannabis, I don't find it much of a party drug because it makes me tired and anti-social.
Looking for an enjoyable night at a new years party, it looked like the answer was MDMA.
I didn't want to try it for the first time at a party, so about 2 weeks before new years I got a couple of my friends together to give this new drug a shot.
I picked up 4 pills for $40. I didn't have a testing kit at the time, but pillreports said these pills should be some really good MDMA.
The 3 of us got together at R's house because his parents were out. I could tell all of us were a bit hesitant on doing a so called "harder drug".
We decided we'd just do half to get a feel for it. We cut the pills in half and took half a pill each at 9:00PM.
We then sat on the couch watching UFC. My anxiety really started to kick in, and the excitement of a new drug made me shake throughout my whole body.
I had to go out for a cigarette. The cig really helped and we continued to watch TV.
After about 25 minutes after injestion I could already feel the initial effects of the drug.
I felt a mild pleasurable feeling all over my body. It was very relaxing and enjoyable, and from then on I calmed down because I knew I had nothing to fear.
Although I was enjoying this, I kept asking myself "there's no way this can be it".
T+ 45 minutes and I could feel it very gradually intensifying. I felt like there was a point I wanted to reach but I couldn't achieve it.
I suggested taking another half pill each. R and M had yet to feel anything, so they agreed.
T+ 50 minutes and we now had a full pill in us each. I was excited. R and M seemed quite disappointed because they had still yet to feel anything.
They said they wanted to go smoke a joint, but I refused as I didn't want the effects to be masked.
T+ 60 minutes and we're all back in front of the TV. All of a sudden it hits me like a brick.
I immediately peak in a matter of seconds. It was a fucking blast off and holy shit... I feel amazing and I can't keep my mouth shut.
M says he feels some initial effects. R says he feels nothing and goes downstairs on the computer.
T+ 75 mins and M has come up. We sit there talking about everything. We're no longer interested in the TV, but we both have this feeling that we must leave it on.
R comes up, laughs at us and says our pupils our huge. Although, he has still yet to feel anything. He's kind of pissed off and goes back downstairs.
T+ 90 mins R comes upstairs and says "man... I'm feelin good". Me and M laugh at him. M and I continue to converse but R just sits there with a big smile on his face.
We decide to turn some techno on. R really enjoyed the music and almost got up to dance. Me and M seemed to have a similar roll, as both of us said we'd rather just talk than listen to the music.
T+ 100 mins. I manage to let a light piss out. We've all been drinking a lot of water in the last little while. I look in the mirror and cannot believe th size of my pupils.
I notice something else though. A huge smile on my face. It's not the kind of smile like I just heard something funny, or I found some money or anything like that.
It's the smile of true happyness. Something I haven't seen in a long time. I'm just so damn happy to be alive. I almost cry in happyness I'm so happy... Waves of euphoira flow throughout my body.
I am absolutely full of empathy as well. I cannot stop thinking about how much I love my friends, my family, love everything. That's it, I just love everything.
I cannot figure out how people go on with their days while wars are being fought with people dying meaninglessly all the time. I no longer understand war or any violence for that matter. Such a waste of life.
T+ 2 hours. R says he wants to go outside and walk around a bit. I take one step outside and quickly abolish the idea. It's wayyyy to cold. M agrees with me.
R seems kind of disappointed but I said there's no way I could do it (it was -25C outside).
R gets his ipod and sits there enjoying himself.
T+ 3 hours and I can feel a comedown. I'm really tempted to take the last pill, but decide to save it for new years incase I can't find anymore.
It's hard to remember much of the roll, except just sitting there, talking, feeling great and drinking water.
R says his parents are going to be coming home soon, so we go to the basement incase they came in and notice our pupils.
I really did not enjoy the basement. It was uncomfortable and cold.
T+ 4 hours. R's parents finally came home and went to bed. We go upstairs and I cannot stop pissing for the life of me. I literally pissed 8 times within 20 minutes.
For some reason this didn't happen to R or M.
T+ 5 hours. Although we all feel fine from the gradual comedown, we decide to smoke a couple bowls to help us sleep.
We then hit the sack and my mind goes crazy thinking about all the things I just experienced.
I wake up quite a few times in the night covered in sweat. I didn't sleep too well. I was awake at 9AM (about 5 hours of sleep).
To my suprise my pupils were still huge. The MDMA hangover is hard to explain. I felt weak, kind of tired but good at the same time.
I sat infront of the TV and ate some crackers.
M came down soon after and said he had the worst sleep of his life.
R came down later on and said he slept like a baby.
This drug clearly affects people differently.
Even though the night was just a few guys sitting around a TV, I have to say up to that point it was one of the best nights of my life.
I then did MDMA again on new years and that was no doubt the best night of my life.
I now do MDMA on special occasions, maybe 3-4 times a year.
It opens my mind to areas unimaginable, and to this day remains my drug of choice.
I would also like to add that I have gotten these same pills again, tested them with Marquis and they are indeed MDMA.
PLUR
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