Last week, I took MDMA for the first time. We were a group of 5 people taking it in my house. I’m not sure how much I took, but I did in it 3 small doses. Maybe I should only have taken two, but it took a lot longer to kick in on me than on the others, so we decided to spark it up for me.
Suddenly I really felt it… I was sooo happy, and I couldn’t stop smiling. I loved everyone. Went out for a cigarette with my roommates friend and we started kissing… Later we did again, and got more into it. He was nice, asked if he should stay till the next day, and I was thinking that would be fine if he stayed over.
Up in my roommates room, there was this girl, I was talking to her, and we really bonded. Suddenly we started kissing. She started taking off my clothes and wanted to go down on me. I totally forgot about the 3 guys in the room, and we really hit it off. Suddenly all of our clothes was off and I had sex with the girl in the middle of the room with the 3 guys watching. I think they loved it. I didn’t even care they were there or what they thought. Later the guys joined in (but we did not have sex with the guys) and we were all kissing and touching and it was very intense. Me and this other girl were ruling the show, and it was a very intense experience, and I felt that we were so connected and taking care of each other all the time. I think none of us are into girls normally but at the time it just felt right. It went on for several hours.
The mdma started hitting me really hard and I had to focus on my breathing, and on not clenching my jaws too much, and I had this need to be hugged and touched all the time. My eyes literally started rolling, and I almost felt as if my body was floating. When the others started coming down I was still peaking. I remember saying things like “I’ve never felt soo good, this is amazing, I don’t want to come down again like you guys are now…”
The day after I felt completely empty inside though, and I had a hard time concentrating for 3-4 days after. Did anyone else have a similar experience? Just liberating themselves so much in a sexual way? It kinda like turned into an orgy-thing, and I didn’t see that coming at all!
I did have a really good time, but I think I might have taken a bit too much? Would like to do it again some time from now, but if I did it in like a show, I'm not sure whether thats a good idea, if I get so out of the way - I'm just imagining myself making out with everyone, and it might bring me into situations that I would regret later.What are your thought on this? I do remember feeling really happy while it all went on, but now after, I'm becoming moe and more sceptical towards what I was actually doing.
Suddenly I really felt it… I was sooo happy, and I couldn’t stop smiling. I loved everyone. Went out for a cigarette with my roommates friend and we started kissing… Later we did again, and got more into it. He was nice, asked if he should stay till the next day, and I was thinking that would be fine if he stayed over.
Up in my roommates room, there was this girl, I was talking to her, and we really bonded. Suddenly we started kissing. She started taking off my clothes and wanted to go down on me. I totally forgot about the 3 guys in the room, and we really hit it off. Suddenly all of our clothes was off and I had sex with the girl in the middle of the room with the 3 guys watching. I think they loved it. I didn’t even care they were there or what they thought. Later the guys joined in (but we did not have sex with the guys) and we were all kissing and touching and it was very intense. Me and this other girl were ruling the show, and it was a very intense experience, and I felt that we were so connected and taking care of each other all the time. I think none of us are into girls normally but at the time it just felt right. It went on for several hours.
The mdma started hitting me really hard and I had to focus on my breathing, and on not clenching my jaws too much, and I had this need to be hugged and touched all the time. My eyes literally started rolling, and I almost felt as if my body was floating. When the others started coming down I was still peaking. I remember saying things like “I’ve never felt soo good, this is amazing, I don’t want to come down again like you guys are now…”
The day after I felt completely empty inside though, and I had a hard time concentrating for 3-4 days after. Did anyone else have a similar experience? Just liberating themselves so much in a sexual way? It kinda like turned into an orgy-thing, and I didn’t see that coming at all!
I did have a really good time, but I think I might have taken a bit too much? Would like to do it again some time from now, but if I did it in like a show, I'm not sure whether thats a good idea, if I get so out of the way - I'm just imagining myself making out with everyone, and it might bring me into situations that I would regret later.What are your thought on this? I do remember feeling really happy while it all went on, but now after, I'm becoming moe and more sceptical towards what I was actually doing.
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