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So, for new years eve, me and my friends D and S decided to roll for the first time. The pills we got were MDMA/MDxx. Being my first time I was EXTREMELY nervous to try it, but all of my anxiety was gone as soon as I started coming up.
10:30- we get out the rolls and cut them in half, they come out nice and clean. D and I are a little anxious, but S doesn't seem bothered at all. We decide that we'll wait for our friend J (who sold them to us) to get there.
10:50- J arrives and urges us to take them. He was really excited and assured D and me that there is nothing to worry about. We all take our halves (except for J, who isn't rolling with us). J leaves telling us to take the other half 30 minutes later and we turn on Smiley Face. I'm still really anxious, so I have a cigarette which really helped me relax.
11:20- None of us are having any effects yet. We're feeling a little more optimistic now, so we take the other halves and sit in the kitchen to talk.
11:40- As we're in the kitchen I start to feel really smiley and happy. I look at D's refrigerator and decide to hug it. The coolness feels amazing on my face and I yell at them to hug it too, which they do and are also surprised my how amazing it feels. We get really excited and start laughing and smiling feeling very euphoric.
12:00- By now, I'm feeling amazing. I'm pretty sure I'm peaking. We all scream happy new year and start texting long lost friends to tell them we hope they're having a good new years. The word "fuck" starts to seem too negative, so we stop saying it. Hate makes no sense, only love. I walk around the house hugging D's walls, couch, and his cat. I start to tell S what a great friend she is. I feel very concerned about her well-being, and feeding off of her happiness.
12:30- J comes back over with his friend A and when he sees our smiles he instantly gives us all a big hug. He's sad that he can't roll with us and asks D if he has any weed. D goes into his room and comes out sadly to tell J that he left it at a friend's house. So, I get out my pipe and my last bowl and tell J he can have it with a smile on my face. Knowing it's my last, he says he feels bad, but I assure him that I don't care, wanting him to be happy. Now, I can't understand what I was so worried about. We sit down on the couch and talk a little. I rant on to J about how thankful I am for him giving us this experience. "It's not even like you sold us drugs! It's like you sold us happiness!". S decides that she wants to put her head on something cold so we all go into the kitchen and she and D put their heads into the freezer. I rest my head on the counter and notice my eyes jerking a little.
1:00- D, S, J, A, and I all go into D's room and sit on his bed. We look in the mirror and laugh at the size of our pupils. We sit and talk for a long time (with huge smiles on our faces the whole time
), and even though I don't know J or A that well and I'm very shy, I'm eager to make conversation with them. D sort of just lays down and goes sort of out of it and S and I talk to J and A non-stop. I start to come down a little, but then I come up again gradually. S starts to notice some jaw clenching so she goes into the living room to get some gum. As J, A, and I wait for her to get back, we start to hear her singing along to the music really loud. We laugh and I go hug her and bring her back to the room (I feel the need to always be by S because she is my closest friend ever). We go to the room and continue talking until J and A decide they should head off and we all share in a group hug.
2:00- We venture back into the living room and turn on some music. I wasn't really feeling the need for techno music at the time, which I assumed was going to happen. Instead we turned on M83, MGMT, the Kite Flying Society, and Animal Collective. Mostly just music that made us feel happy. D wanted to listen to music and dance, but S and I weren't feeling it and wanted to talk, so D turned on his iPod and started texting.
3:00- We all start to wind down now and just sit in a circle on the floor and start to talk about life. This is where we start to feel very spiritual. We start talking about our New Year's resolutions and how we want to start being nicer to everyone because everyone deserves happiness. I start to come down a lot. We talk about a lot of religious stuff, the directions of our lives, and hopes for our future, etc. It's the most deep conversations I've ever had. I have no filter on my talking. Every single thought that crosses my head seems to come out of my mouth and make perfect sense.
4:00- Astonished that it's so late, we make a huge bed on the floor in the living room and turn on Alice in Wonderland. We talk a lot. I feel exhausted but too excited to sleep. D and S also have trouble sleeping. So they go into the kitchen for a cigarette. They lay back down and around 5, I fall asleep.
Around 10:40, D wakes me up and I'm extremely out of it. I don't remember falling asleep. I wake up S and we get ready to go home feeling a bit of an after glow. We all talk a little and D and S both say that they didn't get to sleep until around 7.
Altogether, I had a great experience and a lot more happened than I'm able to explain. We ended up smoking like 11 cigarettes each, which was funny to me because I rarely smoke. I also had no problem with peeing and neither did S (is that a boy thing?) or jaw clenching, but I also was chewing gum the whole entire time, even before we started rolling. In my opinion, everyone in their lives should try ecstasy once so they can experience that kind of happiness and peace with the world. I was surprised because I expected that I was going to want to dance/rave/etc. but all I really wanted to do was talk and make friends and be happy. I was glad that it wasn't a total mind-fuck, though. I was able to enjoy the drug and be totally coherent. :D
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10:30- we get out the rolls and cut them in half, they come out nice and clean. D and I are a little anxious, but S doesn't seem bothered at all. We decide that we'll wait for our friend J (who sold them to us) to get there.
10:50- J arrives and urges us to take them. He was really excited and assured D and me that there is nothing to worry about. We all take our halves (except for J, who isn't rolling with us). J leaves telling us to take the other half 30 minutes later and we turn on Smiley Face. I'm still really anxious, so I have a cigarette which really helped me relax.
11:20- None of us are having any effects yet. We're feeling a little more optimistic now, so we take the other halves and sit in the kitchen to talk.
11:40- As we're in the kitchen I start to feel really smiley and happy. I look at D's refrigerator and decide to hug it. The coolness feels amazing on my face and I yell at them to hug it too, which they do and are also surprised my how amazing it feels. We get really excited and start laughing and smiling feeling very euphoric.
12:00- By now, I'm feeling amazing. I'm pretty sure I'm peaking. We all scream happy new year and start texting long lost friends to tell them we hope they're having a good new years. The word "fuck" starts to seem too negative, so we stop saying it. Hate makes no sense, only love. I walk around the house hugging D's walls, couch, and his cat. I start to tell S what a great friend she is. I feel very concerned about her well-being, and feeding off of her happiness.
12:30- J comes back over with his friend A and when he sees our smiles he instantly gives us all a big hug. He's sad that he can't roll with us and asks D if he has any weed. D goes into his room and comes out sadly to tell J that he left it at a friend's house. So, I get out my pipe and my last bowl and tell J he can have it with a smile on my face. Knowing it's my last, he says he feels bad, but I assure him that I don't care, wanting him to be happy. Now, I can't understand what I was so worried about. We sit down on the couch and talk a little. I rant on to J about how thankful I am for him giving us this experience. "It's not even like you sold us drugs! It's like you sold us happiness!". S decides that she wants to put her head on something cold so we all go into the kitchen and she and D put their heads into the freezer. I rest my head on the counter and notice my eyes jerking a little.
1:00- D, S, J, A, and I all go into D's room and sit on his bed. We look in the mirror and laugh at the size of our pupils. We sit and talk for a long time (with huge smiles on our faces the whole time
), and even though I don't know J or A that well and I'm very shy, I'm eager to make conversation with them. D sort of just lays down and goes sort of out of it and S and I talk to J and A non-stop. I start to come down a little, but then I come up again gradually. S starts to notice some jaw clenching so she goes into the living room to get some gum. As J, A, and I wait for her to get back, we start to hear her singing along to the music really loud. We laugh and I go hug her and bring her back to the room (I feel the need to always be by S because she is my closest friend ever). We go to the room and continue talking until J and A decide they should head off and we all share in a group hug. 2:00- We venture back into the living room and turn on some music. I wasn't really feeling the need for techno music at the time, which I assumed was going to happen. Instead we turned on M83, MGMT, the Kite Flying Society, and Animal Collective. Mostly just music that made us feel happy. D wanted to listen to music and dance, but S and I weren't feeling it and wanted to talk, so D turned on his iPod and started texting.
3:00- We all start to wind down now and just sit in a circle on the floor and start to talk about life. This is where we start to feel very spiritual. We start talking about our New Year's resolutions and how we want to start being nicer to everyone because everyone deserves happiness. I start to come down a lot. We talk about a lot of religious stuff, the directions of our lives, and hopes for our future, etc. It's the most deep conversations I've ever had. I have no filter on my talking. Every single thought that crosses my head seems to come out of my mouth and make perfect sense.
4:00- Astonished that it's so late, we make a huge bed on the floor in the living room and turn on Alice in Wonderland. We talk a lot. I feel exhausted but too excited to sleep. D and S also have trouble sleeping. So they go into the kitchen for a cigarette. They lay back down and around 5, I fall asleep.
Around 10:40, D wakes me up and I'm extremely out of it. I don't remember falling asleep. I wake up S and we get ready to go home feeling a bit of an after glow. We all talk a little and D and S both say that they didn't get to sleep until around 7.
Altogether, I had a great experience and a lot more happened than I'm able to explain. We ended up smoking like 11 cigarettes each, which was funny to me because I rarely smoke. I also had no problem with peeing and neither did S (is that a boy thing?) or jaw clenching, but I also was chewing gum the whole entire time, even before we started rolling. In my opinion, everyone in their lives should try ecstasy once so they can experience that kind of happiness and peace with the world. I was surprised because I expected that I was going to want to dance/rave/etc. but all I really wanted to do was talk and make friends and be happy. I was glad that it wasn't a total mind-fuck, though. I was able to enjoy the drug and be totally coherent. :D
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