sheepish486
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First Time MDMA Trip: wow.
My first time taking mdma was...awesome.
I was in Taiwan at a nightclub, and my friend was taking ecstasy that night, and i was considering it, but was kind of afraid because i had never taken any other drug before, including marijuana. I decided to buy a pill and keep it until i felt like a good time had come to take it. After a couple weeks another friend, whom was very experienced in drug matters, invited me to go with him to MoS a new nightclub in Taipei. He said the dj would be playing some really good hardhouse and trance, and he was going to take ecstasy that night too.
I went with him and he said we should wait to make sure the hardhouse isnt too intense, and it was fine, so around 1:30am we took half the pill. Only half because we had heard the E in taiwan is incredibly strong and pure. after 20 minutes we didnt feel anything so we took the second half. i wrapped it in a tissue to prevent the taste from getting on my toungue but a little did anyway. The taste soon went away though. When i made my way back to the dancefloor the first half started to hit me, and i had an urge to reach out and touch this mans head, but the ecstasy hadnt fully overtaken me yet and i reasoned with myself that i shouldnt do that.
then i felt this strange friendlyness to everyone on the dance floor and then all of a sudden i felt this huge mental wooosh and my arms wanted to hug someone then. luckily my friend came through the crowd and i figured he must have just felt it too and he gave me a huge huge hug. i needed pressure on my skin, a lot of pressure. and then he said this music is awesome! and that went into my brain weird and i started swaying and throwing my self all around and i wasnt aware that i was bumping people, so he stopped me and said, you are hitting people, try to stay in one spot and let the music go through you.
Everything i was directed to do i just did at an extreme, so i felt like i was the music and started flowing all around like water, so he told me i need to balance all this out, not give in to the drug, but not resist it either, and this helped me get back to a manageable state. then he said why dont we go sit down, and i felt like right then i had to find a place to sit, so i dragged him out of the crowd and my grip on his arm was so tight that he had to pry my fingers off, but i didnt realise anything that was going on around me, i just new i had to sit somewhere.
at this point the drug was incredibly intense and i figured the second half had hit by now. there were stairs going up to a second level, where there was places to sit, so i ran up them, but it wasnt running, it was more like floating up them, but fast...kind of like...zzzziiipp. and i went down again and up again and started to go down again but my friend stopped me and told me i could run down the hallway, just dont bump into people.
My mentality right then was like a child and i was overjoyed that i was allowed to run in this place and i ran incredibly fast and weaving in and out of people like nothing, and i got to the end and remembered to wait for my friend, and there was a man standing there and i leaned on him and then started to trail my hand all along his shuolder because i thought it was a beautiful shoulder, the best shoulder i had ever seen, and he turned around and looked at me strangely and i said 'hello' but my speech came out very slow. and he said hey how are you and i started to tell him how incredibly good this drug felt, how amazing it was, thinking that everyone in this place knew how i felt, and that they were all my friends.
then my friend came over and explained how it was my first time and the guy nodded and seemed to understand. then my friend said he had to go the bathroom and i was to wait right there. and i pinned myself against the wall, and didnt move at all, making it almost a game to see how long i could stay on my toes against the wall then i got side tracked by someone who was walking by and i followed them but then my friend came out of the bathroom and walked with me and all fo a sudden everyone around me slowed down, into the slowest slow motion, and i sped up, walking faster than humanly possible i felt, and i wanted to go thier speed to see what it felt like, and slowed all the way down and everyone else sped up into fast forward.
then i felt almost a jerk on my brain and everything got back to normal. i sat down in a corner with my friend and asked him to sit on my legs because i needed pressure on my skin and he did. we sat for a while and talked and had sort of that Ecstasy bond people talk about. I felt like i had to convey my innermost self to him, but couldnt because right then i realised that the innermost self is just your spirit, your actual self, so it turned out it was almost like telepathic conveyance of feeling and not words.
I also resolved a lot of big things that had been bothering me, even some i had not realised. at one point i started to feel extreme sadness because i thought i had lost my real self to the drug, and i would never come back, which i heard is rare on an MDMA trip. but it only lasted a few seconds. after that i went to dance and looked up at the lights, and they were swirling around like chemicals in a puddle. after that i lost track of time and around 5:30 in the morning i realised i had come down and only traces were left.
i just felt completely renewed and refreshed and like the world was the best place i could be. i saw a kid sitting on the ground near the dj booth and i pulled him up and said 'hey! this music is awesome! dance! there were only about 60 people left in the place by then, and the Dj started to play some of the best end of the night coming down music he could have.
we danced for maybe an hour more, and made friends with a lot of really neat people, and then left the club and it was dawn and the sky was this gray pink color, and the air was the perfect temperature, and i felt right then that that was one of the best nights of my life and i knew it had altered my mind in a really good way. we waited for the bus and reviewed the night and discussed everything, and just sat and admired how all the colors of the morning blended incredibly well, and how happy we were at that moment.
its been almost five months since then and i havent done any drug since, but i think about it all the time, and i want to feel that way again.
ii have gone home to my country and am slowly meeting people who have done ecstasy, but they say mine must have been really stong, becaues all they get is a good feeling, none of the speed up slow down stuff. the pills in taiwan i found out are extrememly pure because in china the gangs take thier drugs incredibly seriously, and taiwan gets them straight from the mainland.
so anyway, five months later i realise that E has changed my whole outlook on life, i still feel like no one really has bad intentions, and if they do i have a sense of empathy i never felt before, i look at people in a whole new way.
i wish e was legal, or that everyone would take it and feel like i did.
its a great drug....
My first time taking mdma was...awesome.
I was in Taiwan at a nightclub, and my friend was taking ecstasy that night, and i was considering it, but was kind of afraid because i had never taken any other drug before, including marijuana. I decided to buy a pill and keep it until i felt like a good time had come to take it. After a couple weeks another friend, whom was very experienced in drug matters, invited me to go with him to MoS a new nightclub in Taipei. He said the dj would be playing some really good hardhouse and trance, and he was going to take ecstasy that night too.
I went with him and he said we should wait to make sure the hardhouse isnt too intense, and it was fine, so around 1:30am we took half the pill. Only half because we had heard the E in taiwan is incredibly strong and pure. after 20 minutes we didnt feel anything so we took the second half. i wrapped it in a tissue to prevent the taste from getting on my toungue but a little did anyway. The taste soon went away though. When i made my way back to the dancefloor the first half started to hit me, and i had an urge to reach out and touch this mans head, but the ecstasy hadnt fully overtaken me yet and i reasoned with myself that i shouldnt do that.
then i felt this strange friendlyness to everyone on the dance floor and then all of a sudden i felt this huge mental wooosh and my arms wanted to hug someone then. luckily my friend came through the crowd and i figured he must have just felt it too and he gave me a huge huge hug. i needed pressure on my skin, a lot of pressure. and then he said this music is awesome! and that went into my brain weird and i started swaying and throwing my self all around and i wasnt aware that i was bumping people, so he stopped me and said, you are hitting people, try to stay in one spot and let the music go through you.
Everything i was directed to do i just did at an extreme, so i felt like i was the music and started flowing all around like water, so he told me i need to balance all this out, not give in to the drug, but not resist it either, and this helped me get back to a manageable state. then he said why dont we go sit down, and i felt like right then i had to find a place to sit, so i dragged him out of the crowd and my grip on his arm was so tight that he had to pry my fingers off, but i didnt realise anything that was going on around me, i just new i had to sit somewhere.
at this point the drug was incredibly intense and i figured the second half had hit by now. there were stairs going up to a second level, where there was places to sit, so i ran up them, but it wasnt running, it was more like floating up them, but fast...kind of like...zzzziiipp. and i went down again and up again and started to go down again but my friend stopped me and told me i could run down the hallway, just dont bump into people.
My mentality right then was like a child and i was overjoyed that i was allowed to run in this place and i ran incredibly fast and weaving in and out of people like nothing, and i got to the end and remembered to wait for my friend, and there was a man standing there and i leaned on him and then started to trail my hand all along his shuolder because i thought it was a beautiful shoulder, the best shoulder i had ever seen, and he turned around and looked at me strangely and i said 'hello' but my speech came out very slow. and he said hey how are you and i started to tell him how incredibly good this drug felt, how amazing it was, thinking that everyone in this place knew how i felt, and that they were all my friends.
then my friend came over and explained how it was my first time and the guy nodded and seemed to understand. then my friend said he had to go the bathroom and i was to wait right there. and i pinned myself against the wall, and didnt move at all, making it almost a game to see how long i could stay on my toes against the wall then i got side tracked by someone who was walking by and i followed them but then my friend came out of the bathroom and walked with me and all fo a sudden everyone around me slowed down, into the slowest slow motion, and i sped up, walking faster than humanly possible i felt, and i wanted to go thier speed to see what it felt like, and slowed all the way down and everyone else sped up into fast forward.
then i felt almost a jerk on my brain and everything got back to normal. i sat down in a corner with my friend and asked him to sit on my legs because i needed pressure on my skin and he did. we sat for a while and talked and had sort of that Ecstasy bond people talk about. I felt like i had to convey my innermost self to him, but couldnt because right then i realised that the innermost self is just your spirit, your actual self, so it turned out it was almost like telepathic conveyance of feeling and not words.
I also resolved a lot of big things that had been bothering me, even some i had not realised. at one point i started to feel extreme sadness because i thought i had lost my real self to the drug, and i would never come back, which i heard is rare on an MDMA trip. but it only lasted a few seconds. after that i went to dance and looked up at the lights, and they were swirling around like chemicals in a puddle. after that i lost track of time and around 5:30 in the morning i realised i had come down and only traces were left.
i just felt completely renewed and refreshed and like the world was the best place i could be. i saw a kid sitting on the ground near the dj booth and i pulled him up and said 'hey! this music is awesome! dance! there were only about 60 people left in the place by then, and the Dj started to play some of the best end of the night coming down music he could have.
we danced for maybe an hour more, and made friends with a lot of really neat people, and then left the club and it was dawn and the sky was this gray pink color, and the air was the perfect temperature, and i felt right then that that was one of the best nights of my life and i knew it had altered my mind in a really good way. we waited for the bus and reviewed the night and discussed everything, and just sat and admired how all the colors of the morning blended incredibly well, and how happy we were at that moment.
its been almost five months since then and i havent done any drug since, but i think about it all the time, and i want to feel that way again.
ii have gone home to my country and am slowly meeting people who have done ecstasy, but they say mine must have been really stong, becaues all they get is a good feeling, none of the speed up slow down stuff. the pills in taiwan i found out are extrememly pure because in china the gangs take thier drugs incredibly seriously, and taiwan gets them straight from the mainland.
so anyway, five months later i realise that E has changed my whole outlook on life, i still feel like no one really has bad intentions, and if they do i have a sense of empathy i never felt before, i look at people in a whole new way.
i wish e was legal, or that everyone would take it and feel like i did.
its a great drug....
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, I'm just going to step in and chuck in some paragraphs (especially since I haven't got my glasses with me and it all ends up becoming a nice grey smoodge on this end)
