I tried MDMA for the first time recently. It's great. I want to report my experience as follows.
I took around 100mg but no way to be sure the exact dosage, less than 150 mg for sure, half of a tesla pill. I'm about 150 lbs, a 40ish male.
t+0:
Took it in the morning, 9:35am, because I don't want it to mess up with my sleep schedule.
My stomach was empty because I wanted it to take effect as fast as possible.
After taking it, I just leaned on the sofa, talked to my partner and waited.
t+25:
Started to feel everything around me seemed slightly softer. People around me seemed slightly more tender even when they acted the exact same way as before. Heartbeat slightly increased from normal. My mind was completely clear, not affected at all.
t+35:
Felt very slight tingling in my hands and feet. My mind was still completely clear.
t+45:
My vision and hearing started to be distorted. Only the center of my sight was clear, the rest of my sight was blurry. Even the center of my sight was not as clear as before.
My hearing was very slightly echoey. My mind was still functional but I could feel it slowed down.
My partner came to check on me a couple of times. They were a little against me doing this and complained a little bit. I felt very sorry and said sorry to them sincerely.
t+50:
Started to feel time and space distortion, mainly time distortion.
Space boundary started to be blurry.
My feeling was mainly about time. Time seemed to go by very very slowly, almost stopped.
I felt my hands were cold and my body was so light, almost not exist any more.
My mind went blank from time to time. I was looking at my phone at that time, I was still leaning on my sofa, I put my body weight on my left arm because I was trying to stay awake.
I certainly didn't pass out, because if I passed out, I would lose my balance and find myself lying on the sofa when my consciousness came back. I was in the same arm-supporting position every time my mind came back. But my mind can only recall fractions of the whole time, I can only remember "10:27","10:35","10:52" are the times when I check the clock on my phone. I can remember thinking "is this normal?", "is this what MDMA does", "oh, no, it's wrong, it's not MDMA", "how long it's gonna be like this". All the things I can remember can add up to 5 minutes, tops, I don't remember the rest. I didn't listen to any music or watch any video, was just scrolling the pages and trying to stay awake and act normal, didn't even pay attention to what's on the screen.
t+80:
Shortly after I checked the time "10:52", my partner came in to check on me, and I felt overwhelmingly love and regret towards them. I can't stand up or sit up because of dizziness, so I kissed their knees and legs ( maybe arms too, I don't remember clearly ) and told them multiple times I love them so much, even called them my babe multiple times. I just couldn't control my feelings and actions at that time. I also said how sorry I was for all the mistakes I made. At that moment, I thought I got the good MDMA pill. My heart was filled with love. It was beautiful. It lasted for about 30 minutes, I think. ( I couldn't mark the time very clearly because I was too overwhelmed. It might be better and could last longer if we could make love at that time, but we were not alone. ) My partner brought me some food to keep my blood sugar steady and I finished it.
t+120:
After finishing the food, my mind felt clear again and I stood up and walked around. I felt so energetic and everyone in the house seemed much more lovely to me than usual. I hugged some people.
t+150:
We went out shopping. ( I didn't drive. ) I felt energetic and positive about everything in life. I felt so natural to hold hands with my partner and hug them in public.
t+360:
We came back from shopping. ( I still didn't drive. ) I still felt very energetic all the way to midnight. Did a lot of work that day.
Days after:
After-glow lasted for 4 days, I only felt the after-glow was gone on day 5. So I benefited from MDMA for 5 whole days.
Never had any bad come down of any sort (Maybe because I never danced or anything and I slept as normal). I feel so good and positive all this time. Didn't take anything special. Only thing was my jaw hurts a little because of teeth grinding. Another thing I should mention was I had some bizarre closed-eye visual when I was brushing my teeth on the night of day 0. It was a monster like the swamp thing with a very big yet growing mouth but no arms or legs. It stopped appearing when I opened my eyes or stopped brushing. It seemed to have something to do with the brush stimulating my gum. Not a big deal.
Conclusion:
MDMA is great. It helped me feel that kind and that level of love which I have never felt before. The love is so powerful, so overwhelming. That love feeling still comes back to me sometimes, I'm still benefiting from it.
It seems to me that my love would mainly increase towards people who I already love when I took MDMA. I felt like socializing with strangers and understanding them more, while in the aspect of love, it stayed the same.
Heartbeat only slightly increased ( about 10% ) from normal during the whole time. Breathing became slower and deeper on day 0 and it slowly came back to normal without any problem. Moderate teeth grinding. The dizziness lasted for 70 minutes in total, other times my mind was very clear.
edited by skorpio
I took around 100mg but no way to be sure the exact dosage, less than 150 mg for sure, half of a tesla pill. I'm about 150 lbs, a 40ish male.
t+0:
Took it in the morning, 9:35am, because I don't want it to mess up with my sleep schedule.
My stomach was empty because I wanted it to take effect as fast as possible.
After taking it, I just leaned on the sofa, talked to my partner and waited.
t+25:
Started to feel everything around me seemed slightly softer. People around me seemed slightly more tender even when they acted the exact same way as before. Heartbeat slightly increased from normal. My mind was completely clear, not affected at all.
t+35:
Felt very slight tingling in my hands and feet. My mind was still completely clear.
t+45:
My vision and hearing started to be distorted. Only the center of my sight was clear, the rest of my sight was blurry. Even the center of my sight was not as clear as before.
My hearing was very slightly echoey. My mind was still functional but I could feel it slowed down.
My partner came to check on me a couple of times. They were a little against me doing this and complained a little bit. I felt very sorry and said sorry to them sincerely.
t+50:
Started to feel time and space distortion, mainly time distortion.
Space boundary started to be blurry.
My feeling was mainly about time. Time seemed to go by very very slowly, almost stopped.
I felt my hands were cold and my body was so light, almost not exist any more.
My mind went blank from time to time. I was looking at my phone at that time, I was still leaning on my sofa, I put my body weight on my left arm because I was trying to stay awake.
I certainly didn't pass out, because if I passed out, I would lose my balance and find myself lying on the sofa when my consciousness came back. I was in the same arm-supporting position every time my mind came back. But my mind can only recall fractions of the whole time, I can only remember "10:27","10:35","10:52" are the times when I check the clock on my phone. I can remember thinking "is this normal?", "is this what MDMA does", "oh, no, it's wrong, it's not MDMA", "how long it's gonna be like this". All the things I can remember can add up to 5 minutes, tops, I don't remember the rest. I didn't listen to any music or watch any video, was just scrolling the pages and trying to stay awake and act normal, didn't even pay attention to what's on the screen.
t+80:
Shortly after I checked the time "10:52", my partner came in to check on me, and I felt overwhelmingly love and regret towards them. I can't stand up or sit up because of dizziness, so I kissed their knees and legs ( maybe arms too, I don't remember clearly ) and told them multiple times I love them so much, even called them my babe multiple times. I just couldn't control my feelings and actions at that time. I also said how sorry I was for all the mistakes I made. At that moment, I thought I got the good MDMA pill. My heart was filled with love. It was beautiful. It lasted for about 30 minutes, I think. ( I couldn't mark the time very clearly because I was too overwhelmed. It might be better and could last longer if we could make love at that time, but we were not alone. ) My partner brought me some food to keep my blood sugar steady and I finished it.
t+120:
After finishing the food, my mind felt clear again and I stood up and walked around. I felt so energetic and everyone in the house seemed much more lovely to me than usual. I hugged some people.
t+150:
We went out shopping. ( I didn't drive. ) I felt energetic and positive about everything in life. I felt so natural to hold hands with my partner and hug them in public.
t+360:
We came back from shopping. ( I still didn't drive. ) I still felt very energetic all the way to midnight. Did a lot of work that day.
Days after:
After-glow lasted for 4 days, I only felt the after-glow was gone on day 5. So I benefited from MDMA for 5 whole days.
Never had any bad come down of any sort (Maybe because I never danced or anything and I slept as normal). I feel so good and positive all this time. Didn't take anything special. Only thing was my jaw hurts a little because of teeth grinding. Another thing I should mention was I had some bizarre closed-eye visual when I was brushing my teeth on the night of day 0. It was a monster like the swamp thing with a very big yet growing mouth but no arms or legs. It stopped appearing when I opened my eyes or stopped brushing. It seemed to have something to do with the brush stimulating my gum. Not a big deal.
Conclusion:
MDMA is great. It helped me feel that kind and that level of love which I have never felt before. The love is so powerful, so overwhelming. That love feeling still comes back to me sometimes, I'm still benefiting from it.
It seems to me that my love would mainly increase towards people who I already love when I took MDMA. I felt like socializing with strangers and understanding them more, while in the aspect of love, it stayed the same.
Heartbeat only slightly increased ( about 10% ) from normal during the whole time. Breathing became slower and deeper on day 0 and it slowly came back to normal without any problem. Moderate teeth grinding. The dizziness lasted for 70 minutes in total, other times my mind was very clear.
edited by skorpio
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