Ciosrataecz
Greenlighter
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- May 8, 2013
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Hey so I am a 21 y.o male, 5'6" 180lb working a physically demanding job, and do jiu jitsu once a week.
I've been experimenting with mdma for years now, I guess around 4 years. I've always been on the search for the best Molly I could find. It wasn't till this year that I was able to get my hands on a test kit & luckily found a source with near pure mdma, it passed the test with flying colours. That's when I realized I probably never really done real mdma, everything I had been sold was probably bunk, or some sketchy research chemicals. Thinking I had a high tolerance, I tried it on my own to see what I could expect for the upcoming rave. It was if it was my first time ever doing it! I knew I scored the jackpot, 95% of the ppl in the city's mdma users couldn't get a hold of this stuff! So I stocked up & decided to convert my friends into ravers, with proper education on dosage and harm reduction. They absolutely fell in love with mdma!!! Multiple times they would tell me that is was literally the best time they had ever had in there life. One problem thou...I didn't feel that way. I would get just as fucked up as them, I think even more. We went to go see above & beyond on their world tour, they had snuck some caps from the hotel without telling me @ the last rave we were at and made the mistake of redosing which ended up in a very painfully depressing work week for them afterwards. So this time I scaled the proper amount, so: 1st dose @ 90mg 2nd dose (no more than 1 hour later) 50mg. On our way to the venue we all had our first cap. I get really bad nausea, so we had to get out of the cab in the middle of traffic so I could run to an alley and puke my guts out. By then I was I was rolling balls harder than all of them! Everyone in the group had only done mdma once before, I was the only seasoned user & it was hitting me so hard as if I were a 120lb 18 y.o girl ! So now we're on this journey trying to beat traffic on foot & my friends reminds to take the second cap, to go thru with my word. I really didn't want to, I felt waaaaay too fucked. I rarely have any y.o.l.o moments, I care about the consequences too much, but my friend managed to convince me to take it, when I did I tried not to worry, if they saw me have a bad reaction to it then I would most surely kill the good vibes. Fast forward to when we're actually inside, walking around getting familiar to the ppl & place. So at this point my friends are having the time of their lives, smiling, laughing, dancing. Although I felt good, they tell me now that I was like a mime, blank stare, & whenever they would make a comment about something I would give very lil feedback. Why was this happening to me!? I was as fucked or more than them yet I wasn't even smiling or laughing. If I'm not getting the same seratonin release as them, then how does the mdma make me feel so high? I remember at one point I thought I was waaaay to high, I tried so hard to keep my shit together, I didn't want to scare my friends. I know for a fact it was mdma I ingested, my friends, & the test results are proof. I just want to know, is there 2 parts to the high? 1 seratonin, what's the other? Cuz they obviously feel the seratonin part. It's seemed like a had a lower tolerance than them even though they've only done it once before, me - probably 40+ (not proud) it's something I haven't been able to understand, if someone could please explain.
I've been experimenting with mdma for years now, I guess around 4 years. I've always been on the search for the best Molly I could find. It wasn't till this year that I was able to get my hands on a test kit & luckily found a source with near pure mdma, it passed the test with flying colours. That's when I realized I probably never really done real mdma, everything I had been sold was probably bunk, or some sketchy research chemicals. Thinking I had a high tolerance, I tried it on my own to see what I could expect for the upcoming rave. It was if it was my first time ever doing it! I knew I scored the jackpot, 95% of the ppl in the city's mdma users couldn't get a hold of this stuff! So I stocked up & decided to convert my friends into ravers, with proper education on dosage and harm reduction. They absolutely fell in love with mdma!!! Multiple times they would tell me that is was literally the best time they had ever had in there life. One problem thou...I didn't feel that way. I would get just as fucked up as them, I think even more. We went to go see above & beyond on their world tour, they had snuck some caps from the hotel without telling me @ the last rave we were at and made the mistake of redosing which ended up in a very painfully depressing work week for them afterwards. So this time I scaled the proper amount, so: 1st dose @ 90mg 2nd dose (no more than 1 hour later) 50mg. On our way to the venue we all had our first cap. I get really bad nausea, so we had to get out of the cab in the middle of traffic so I could run to an alley and puke my guts out. By then I was I was rolling balls harder than all of them! Everyone in the group had only done mdma once before, I was the only seasoned user & it was hitting me so hard as if I were a 120lb 18 y.o girl ! So now we're on this journey trying to beat traffic on foot & my friends reminds to take the second cap, to go thru with my word. I really didn't want to, I felt waaaaay too fucked. I rarely have any y.o.l.o moments, I care about the consequences too much, but my friend managed to convince me to take it, when I did I tried not to worry, if they saw me have a bad reaction to it then I would most surely kill the good vibes. Fast forward to when we're actually inside, walking around getting familiar to the ppl & place. So at this point my friends are having the time of their lives, smiling, laughing, dancing. Although I felt good, they tell me now that I was like a mime, blank stare, & whenever they would make a comment about something I would give very lil feedback. Why was this happening to me!? I was as fucked or more than them yet I wasn't even smiling or laughing. If I'm not getting the same seratonin release as them, then how does the mdma make me feel so high? I remember at one point I thought I was waaaay to high, I tried so hard to keep my shit together, I didn't want to scare my friends. I know for a fact it was mdma I ingested, my friends, & the test results are proof. I just want to know, is there 2 parts to the high? 1 seratonin, what's the other? Cuz they obviously feel the seratonin part. It's seemed like a had a lower tolerance than them even though they've only done it once before, me - probably 40+ (not proud) it's something I haven't been able to understand, if someone could please explain.
