Mdma changed me for the better

[Ninjetic]

I'd just like to state that yea, mdma is a great therapy tool! I used to be very depressed and mdma just about destroyed my depression by the first time I used it. I used to be utterlly hate filled, damn near hated everything
I can sum this hatred up in one sentence, I hated ravers and all forms of techno music

I find this to be a profound metamorphosis imo
I listen to and looooovvvve all forms of electronica now. And everytime I see a raver on the street I give em a hug I understand where plur comes from, it literally translates to being made of love when rolling
I even made amends with my then arch enemy (he was rolling, I was rolling) I came up to him, everything seemed tense and we both said "You! We must kung fu fight!" and instead we shook hands and began laughing about old times and stupid shit. He apologized for picking on me throughout middle school, and explained that he had a reputation to keep (which meant picking on the redheaded kid) All is forgiven as we haven't had problems since.

Now this whole "blue monday" malarky, the day after the roll...I don't get the side effects.....I just eat food, sleep, and then I'm fine. Maybe I'm hardwired for mdma.....

I'm a more developed person now, I have a better understanding of what it is to be happy, why hatred is pointless, and why so many people love techno and mdma....it really is therapeutic, it has amazing properties and I'm happy to see it being used by the scientific community for ptsd and various other psychological ailments

I haven't done mdma for quite a few years now, and Ive always used in small doses (havent done it more than 10 or 11 times in the past 8 years, the last time being in 2006 I think)

Anyone else have some profound insights they learned with the help of mdma?

 

[nanchan]

I'm happy you had such a great experience with MDMA. As far as the whole not having a comedown thing, it's highly dose dependent and the more you roll the worse the comedown seems to get.

I've never had any specific insights from MDMA, but I am a much more positive and less cynical person than I used to be.

 

[Legerity]

Great to hear that you have benefited from this substance.

I also find MDMA to be amazingly therapeutic. I now feel deeper connections with people, more acceptance toward myself, and have become a more loving person.

MDMA doesn't do everything itself...I found for me I also have to do a lot of "inner" work without the substance or else the benefits to not transfer into my daily life. But it's been well worth the efforts.

 

[MaggieCA]

The most useful part of MDMA for me is that it takes down all of my normal 'filters'. Well, most of them. My partner teases me about the fact that I'm still ridiculously shy, even when rolling.

At some point during my first roll ever, I saw a recent photo of myself. I'd been really sick anorexia-wise for quite awhile at that point, but had never been able to actually see how bad I was, it always seemed like all my friends were just overreacting. With my filters taken down, I was able to see that i was in serious trouble, and the people in my life weren't overreacting. It also helped remind me what happyness actually felt like, in a somewhat extreme manner.

That was just over two years ago. It took me quite awhile and a lot of work (which continues to this day), but I saw at that point that I had to recover, and have managed to do so. MDMA certainly wasn't the only factor, and I've put a ton of hard work into it since that day. But I certainly give it a significant part of the credit for saving my life.

 

[llama112]

MDMA changed me, I think. A lot of my friends see (and appreciate) the difference. But they don't know why . I told a couple of my friends why and they got mad and told me what a bad person I was and shit like that. But they don't realize the benefits that I got from it as much.

I'm just more open and positive. I was always a positive, happy person ... I didn't think I could be any happier but I am (besides the day or two after lol ... but even then I'm okay). But I'm much less judgmental. I am more open and understanding and caring of people. And I don't hate people just because they are "weird" or something. It is just like a change in philosophy. It has been amazing.

The only problem is that I'm realizing I grew up in a critical family. My mom specifically criticizes EVERYONE. So when I'm visiting with my family, they say crazy things that I think is just rude and they don't get that it's rude and mean to someone.

 

[its.euphoric]

Yes ecstasy has made me appreciate love, friends/ family and music and dancing so much more.
There is no way to describe how much I value these things now. It's incredible...

It's like before these things were just part of life and were something nice, but now it's like, it is what makes life worth living and the reason to live.

 

[misteee]

i also agree, mdma helped me become who i always wanted to become.
i am a very happy person, calm, loving and very free to my own mind i think mdma has made me better for now and forever.

dear sasha shulgin, i love you. thanks for helping me find my self and for helping millions of world wide users find them selves too.
love always, misteee