MDMA + weed -- Experienced -- Introspection at home
So is this thing here called beltane and I went to it and took a pill, but it ended and i hadn't got much... it was 12pm
I didn't want to rely on pills outside but I didn't want to waste the 1 pill I had already taken so I went home and decided to use it as an opportunity to take it by myself.
I began by listening to music but realised this was stupid as that just tries to recreate a club enviroment - I should be exploring the other possiblities of being alone.
Anyway I just started lying down in bed. And as I lied there I had a revelation - my talent is not concepts but people.
And it explained so much, it was like all my talents made sense, I could see I am an evolutionary animal and my combination of elements has led to me being good with understanding motivations. And it explained why I have friends who always seem more clever than me and I noticed that I see the way people think as common sense much more than a lot of others.
At the time I got many ideas, like I have to quit my computer science corse, have to see if I can get into psychology.
When I accepted that I was here to help other people more than anything else, it "felt" completely right and perfect .
And at the time, it felt like I could understand what I was put on this earth for.
Let me clarify, I didn't start believing in god.
I felt like I could understand the evolution that had gone into making me, and the exact strengths that had been created in the evolution.
And therefore I understood the exact personality my evolution had led me to and who i am meant to be.
Well, when I was tripping it seemed that way
I think it was based at least a bit on truth as well... But I'm gonna think about things for a couple of months before making any decisions
In analysis I recommend everyone try doing it by themselves/ not in a club or listening to music. I think that when I am in a club and do it I am not completely sure exactly what feelings are coming from the drug (tho I dont think this way on the drug). Doing it at home has provided me with a much better idea of what exactly the drug does to your emotions and mood.
It was a very interesting and excellent experience and I'll do it again some day.
[Edit: I changed the original thread title (MDMA & weed (at home)) so it would comply with forum guidelines. -C22]
[ 05 May 2002: Message edited by: Catch-22 ]
So is this thing here called beltane and I went to it and took a pill, but it ended and i hadn't got much... it was 12pm
I didn't want to rely on pills outside but I didn't want to waste the 1 pill I had already taken so I went home and decided to use it as an opportunity to take it by myself.
I began by listening to music but realised this was stupid as that just tries to recreate a club enviroment - I should be exploring the other possiblities of being alone.
Anyway I just started lying down in bed. And as I lied there I had a revelation - my talent is not concepts but people.
And it explained so much, it was like all my talents made sense, I could see I am an evolutionary animal and my combination of elements has led to me being good with understanding motivations. And it explained why I have friends who always seem more clever than me and I noticed that I see the way people think as common sense much more than a lot of others.
At the time I got many ideas, like I have to quit my computer science corse, have to see if I can get into psychology.
When I accepted that I was here to help other people more than anything else, it "felt" completely right and perfect .
And at the time, it felt like I could understand what I was put on this earth for.
Let me clarify, I didn't start believing in god.
I felt like I could understand the evolution that had gone into making me, and the exact strengths that had been created in the evolution.
And therefore I understood the exact personality my evolution had led me to and who i am meant to be.
Well, when I was tripping it seemed that way
I think it was based at least a bit on truth as well... But I'm gonna think about things for a couple of months before making any decisions
In analysis I recommend everyone try doing it by themselves/ not in a club or listening to music. I think that when I am in a club and do it I am not completely sure exactly what feelings are coming from the drug (tho I dont think this way on the drug). Doing it at home has provided me with a much better idea of what exactly the drug does to your emotions and mood.
It was a very interesting and excellent experience and I'll do it again some day.
[Edit: I changed the original thread title (MDMA & weed (at home)) so it would comply with forum guidelines. -C22]
[ 05 May 2002: Message edited by: Catch-22 ]
