• Find All Reports by Search Term
    Find Reports
    Find Tagged Reports by Substance
    Substance Category
    Specific Substance
    Find Reports
  • Trip Reports Moderator: Cheshire_Kat

MDMA, Cannabis, Cocaine, Amphetamines - Experienced - A Bad X-perience

Pwhor mate, you went hard.
Keep it real, keep partying, keep having fun, but remember, everything in moderation :D
 
firstly,
joseph... well done for being able to look back on the experence and think about it... the line where it all goes wrong is when you look back on a time like that, and say "ah fuck it.... someone cut me another line"
i went through a stage of really caneing it... i would go out every weekend, and do 5-9 pills (mdma/mda), a gram of Speed and a gram of ket, sometimes more.....ie acid.
yea i was having a whale of a time, i was really enjoying my weekends, but my week life became a nightmare.... i cried, i was never happy... one night i fucked up properly, i had to be taken home by my friends. that was the turning point.... made me look at things, now i go out once maybe twice a month, and never do anymore than 2-3 pills... so i am still using.... but i am soooooo much happier.... my life is good now... im happy.
dont listen to the people that are flaming you, if your best friend told you that you were going to far, chances are you wouldnt listen, because if you are anything like me, you need to do that "self discovery" you have discoverd you line, you wont cross it again, i doubt you will ever get close to it again, you can now truly appreciate drugs. (not ment to be patronising)
everyone at somepoint in there drug lives will take it to an extreme, some sadly wont make it. but many like yourself, have done it, and you should be proud of yourself, not for the fuck up.... but cos you saw it, and asked for help..
hope things are cool with you now..
party on! :o )
Tone
 
I've been through similar things.
I think last year alone I probably had at least 150 pills.
There was one time when I bought 30 Orange HQ's. I gobbled them up in two weeks.
Another time 3 months later I bought 50 of those green & golds (blue caps with thick blue liquid inside) & I gobbled them up in less than 3 weeks.
You've probably seen my pillreports recently. I've had at least 30 pills in the past month, about 20 grams of mushies, some coke and lots of weed.
I'm not proud my drug taking. It's a big waste of money & no doubt dangerous too. I can't wait until MDMA loses it's magic for me.
But the problem with drugs is that you may become an obsessive compulsive user (I prefer to use that term rather than addicted) & even if you know that you need to take a break to lose the tolerance, sometimes it's incredibly hard to resist temptation to keep popping.
My advice would be to pick up old hobbies & form new ones that might help to get your mind off drugs. It wont get your mind off drugs completely but it certainly helps.
Make music or take up digital art - I got into these just by reading magazines, it's not as difficult as you think and it's very rewarding.
Play computer games - the XBOX is pretty good, Gamecube will be good. This is also addictive but safer for you than drugs. You do get a rush playing games.
Get into a sport - any physical activity that pumps adrenaline is good and may help to make you feel better. I'm 26 & I'm still riding a skateboard - it's heaps fun, though. i'll quit when Tony does. I'm shite though.
Even just taking a walk with a friend every evening & talking is good therapy.
Or perhaps you should try rekindle relationships with your family & friends. You'll be surprised how much out of touch you have gotten. Don't be afraid to show your emotions.
Ask a friend to go sight-seeing with you - visit Botanical Gardens, Art Galleries, musseums, beaches, you get the picture.
Somebody suggested Yoga - that's good too - I've been watching Yoga TV every morning, very attractive women on the show.
Vitamins to help you feel better are B-Complex, Ginseng, Fruits & Veges. Try and avoid caffeine.
Also avoid TV. Especially the news. A lot of it is depressing, staged, or complete bullshit. Comedy is o.k. though or feel good movies.
Self-help books are actually helpful too. I've been reading a self-esteem therapy book and it's working wonders.
Read the bible. Even if you are an atheist - knowing the bible will help to confirm that - supposedly even the devil knows every passage "of by heart". It was cool for Samuel L. Jackson. I've read about 20 pages so far. It's actually pretty violent & at the very least one of the best & longest fairy tales ever written by men. There aren't any women writers in it is there? Correct me if I'm wrong.
Maybe do something good for your community - this is probably the most effective way to make you feel good about yourself - feel like a hero!!!
Write a story.
Write a script, a poem, try everything you can think of that you haven't given a go yet. There's more to life than just drugs.
Make sure you don't miss out on anything that life has to offer.
One thing is for sure - when you do get out of this stage of your life - you are going to be a much more stronger & intelligent person.
Oh I forgot one more suggestion:
Kung Fu : I did about 7 years of Wing Chun, it's very simple & effective. I don't do it anymore as I never get into fights. Look this up if you can as it is probably the best form of self-defence there is & you will feel like superman. Don't let the fact that it was invented by a woman prevent you from giving it a go.
PLUR.
 
"Hey, Mantronic's really great!!"
"But my style is much....Better!"
Sai, Sai, Sai, Sai, Sai, Sai, Sai, Sai.
Bonsai, sai, sai.
Remember that wicked track.
You know whats fun too:
Going eveywhere with a video camera and taping everything. Insects, plants, girls in bikinis, whaever you want. This may help to change your perspective in life. Well, duh!! He, he.
 
pinger said:
I would have thought the bad trip had more to do with you hoovering huge quantities of various drugs, and not dealing with the underlying problems and issues of your life. If you are not happy when you start taking drugs, doing more and avoiding them aint a solution....
I agree with this comment. In the description of your experience, you describe taking more drugs because you had negative thoughts. You need to at least comedown and recover from one drug experience before the next (which means sometimes feeling negative, but going through those thoughts and coming out the other side feeling good). It sounds like you were just trying to put off the comedown, so when you finally did come down it was a doozy! Now you know that if you don't want to feel like that you need to cut down (at the very least). It definitely sounds like you were low on serotonin, which you cannot avoid if you take e more often than once every 2 weeks or so (most people recommend longer).
If I were you, I would seriously look into my motives for abusing drugs, because it seems to be negatively effecting your life. And it sounds like you do use drugs to avoid dealing with negative thoughts/feelings.
Click to expand...
 
Originally posted by MorbidAngel:
It's stress, and honestly lack of sleep.
That will happen to me if I go for more than 2 days with no sleep. Except it gets scarier...like I feel like im 'fake', like im in a dream and not really 'there'. It sucks, I hate it, and after it happened 3 times, i figured out it was from not sleeping. Ever since then I make SURE I sleep, and Ive been fine.
Edward Norton in "Fight Club": When you can't sleep, nothing seems real.
Click to expand...
 
I haven't had an eccy for a few days and I'm now starting to feel great too.
Though, I never really noticed how down I felt before.
I still would recommend some of my suggestions though as it is fun. The one about videotaping girls at the beach - make sure you use a zoom. I wouldn't want you to get hurt.
 
You must log in or register to reply here.
Top