MDMA brought up weird deepset issues to light?

[t01234]

Hey everyone, sorry that my first post isn't something more constructive, but anyway:

A while back I took some MDMA orally, and during the high I kept on "jumping" to parts of my past (like I would be there for a split second - almost like microsleeping except for memories.) Anyway, what concerned me is, I had this friend back in school, and I did have a pretty screwed up childhood and was alone blah blah blah, but I kind of realised that this person wasn't real, that my mind made him up. I jumped back to a part of my past involving him and it became extremely clear that he was an imaginary friend that i actually thought was there. At first I thought the MDMA was just making me think that but even now I have a lot of logical reasons that he was infact a figment of my imagination. It's fucked up and I'm kind of worried. Thoughts? I've heard of MDMA bringing up deepset issues, but not like this

 

[down508]

hmmmm. how old were you at the time of your relationship with your imaginary friend? mdma is a powerful therapeutic tool that allows people to revisit past events and if done properly (under the care of a psychologist), come to terms with them and process them.

you mentioned you were alone a lot as a child. it is possible your mind made this person up (either real time or in your memories) to cope with being alone. I wouldn't look to far into it, especially on your own. a therapist would be able to help you out a lot more than we can on here. I think you should be grateful for the friend, real or otherwise. there are some things in this world we can't explain, I don't know if you have any spiritual beliefs, but to me it sounds like your friend could have been some type of guardian angel who was looking after you when no one else would. your mind shut him out of your memories but the fact that you remembered him while on mdma and not sober might mean that you aren't supposed to remember.

having an imaginary friend is common in small children, my little sister had one named Dobby when she was a toddler. she isn't a schizofrenic now, tormented by hallucenations, she's one of the most down to earth kids you will ever meet.

 

[Exstazy]

MDMA lets you remember stuff from your past is it lets you think really clearly for some reason... Its not unormal to have an imaginary friend in my opinion..
I remember a lot from my past as well on MDMA, real easy too. I remember tripping on shrooms I could see flashes of my past, but I think i suppressed parts of that trip.

This isnt worse than what you make of it yourself imo

 

[t01234]

Thank you all for your answers, it has given me a lot more insight. I've tried to not think about it too much until I consult a professional, I've been intending to go into therapy anyway so I guess I'll save it til then!

 

[Boupstarnm]

Are you sure this person is imaginary?

During some heavy use of MDMA/LSD I had similar experiences. I'd think 'oh shit I've just been talkin to an imaginary person' and eventually I'd get the balls to ask my friends. 'Hey is that person real?'

Lol. Every time i came across as nuts, and every time the person was real. But I was so paranoid that I'd create these scenarios in my head to make my beliefs true. I thought I was going total "Fight Club".

Then fast forward 3-4 years. I don't abuse MDMA or psychedelics and I can finally laugh at this. But it was about 4-6 months of me being basically nuts.

Hang in there and lay off the drugs for a lil bit maybe.

 

[MrSpeedyG]

Set and setting could have played a part in this too? Where abouts where you when rolling?

And yeah its nothing unusual, can happen on MDMA (old memories relived) and is actually how its used in PTSD to treat it