I have always had some sort of depression from a child, tried Ecstasy pills when I was 15 (12 years ago- 2002) I discovered myself and no longer felt depressed after takin 2-3 pills in a night at a club on the weekend every 2 weeks (I done this for about 5 months), and I no longer felt the need to continue as I was cured. I got my life together enrolled in manufacturing engineering, robotics, electronics and CNC lathes. After 2 years into my qualification I felt depressed again and i could not concentrate or sleep again and started smoking herbal cannabis at nights to medicate, this seemed to work for about 3 months but then I found it stopped working and i started smoking with friends (1 or 2 spliffs each) on the 1 hour coach ride to get to my course so I could concentrate, at the time it seemed to help but then stopped so I gave up after about 9 months of smoking about 2.5 grams of herbal cannabis to myself through the day and night) we used to get 4 ounces or 112 grams of green every week between 5 of us (it was very cheap back then) we always had the same green strains in order Monday- Jacks Cleaner, Wednesday-Califonia Orange/ Friday-Skunk 1/ Saturday-Purple Haze. For the next 6 months feeling the same depressed person when I was young so I decide to try out mushrooms with 1 good trip out of 5 attempts and this fails for me so i go back to taking ecstasy pills the same way as before 2 or 3 pills in one night on a weekend every 2 weeks for 6 months and this worked AGAIN! This saved me from dropping out of higher education with a year left on my course and I complete my final exam.
I find a good job with a really impressive salary but unfortunately my depression comes back after 2 years again and I cannot take any drug as we were tested every 2 weeks on a random day so I end up going to see my doctor and getting prescribed citalopram 40mg and for the first 2 weeks it worked but then stopped and my GP increased the dose to a maximum of 60mg a day, I was on these for 8 months and just found them terrible after feeling completely abnormal and major sweating and a weird ( "I feel like a machine!???? Type of feeling", I decide to stop so I gradually decrease the dose until I stop and continue to experience the worst withdrawal feeling of my life I remember thinking what the +*^#$¥*^%*+$¥ could be the worst addiction? "like are these pills worse than coming of a 25 year crystal methamphetamine addiction?". Scared the shit out of me! No more SSRI's for me! I also tried 120mg a day of duloxetine SNRI but this failed too. This withdrawal lasted every day for 6-8 months and this caused me to lose my job.
I try ecstasy again but can't seem to roll or even feel anything even months after stopping any prescribed medication even taking 12 ecstasy pills in 1 night thinking they were just really weak but I had 2 of these sent of for testing and they were found to contain 112mg of MDMA in each pill, I didn't feel nothing! This was really dangerous so I decide not to take any more after that, maybe I'm suffering severe serotonin syndrome from the SSRI and SNRI?
I decide to start smoking herbal cannabis again which I found to be very strange this time and i knew there was something wrong so after a few weeks I decide to send samples off and pay for them to be professionally tested, they found the herbal cannabis to contain high traces of SSRI's- KETAMINE and phencyclidine (PCP) I guess they spray this on in a similar process they use to spray cannabinoids on so called legal herb. So that's it NO MORE STREET CANNABIS for me, they also stated that around 90% of all uk soap hash bars contained at least 1 of these chemicals if not all 3 and 100's more! ( that explained why I hated it and refused to buy it but occasionally bought super polem hash which was extremely good for medicating Due to its high CBD which could have been about 15% and also high CBN - the THC could vary between 12 and 26%.
I decide to stop smoking cannabis off the street completely and decided to only smoke it when I visit Amsterdam where it's controlled, I visit maybe every 3 years since the age of around 17.
I go back to taking ecstasy I have a about 3 sessions of 3 pills a time over a 2 months and I started feeling okay again but then the ecstasy pills hit all time low and the guy in the club "who is the nicest and most understanding person i have ever met said " your lucky to have only just starting hit the new batch of ecstasy pills around because they have been floating around for 2 years and i only get the best i can but theres nothing good around these years not like 2002-2008, now they contain completely different analogues they decide to put a really low dose of MDMA in the pill so it test positive and goes purple without showing any other chemicals like yellow for research chemicals Etc, I know ecstasy pills can usually contain small traces of ketamine and other highly toxic chemicals like PMA and whatever shit, but he says the kids don't care and there's demand so they still sell and people buy so aslong as they are buying them the shit will stay around"
I decide to stop taking ecstasy pills and even MDMA powder because these are so cut up with other rubbish analogues, and I only buy pure MDMA crystal now but it's very hard to get and extremely rare and expensive ( i test it every time with about 5 diffent tests to makes sure it only contains MDMA) again I dose on average about 500mg over the night in one day on a weekend once every 2 weeks for 3 months and again I'm cured! Back to work and I find a job instantly and find to cope really well.
I have tried a few different drugs over the years from SSRI's SNRI's Benzo's antipsycotics to other drugs like ; stimulants , hullicinogens, dissociatives, tryptamines, research chemicals and I only find empathogenic drugs work for me.
This time I get made redundant from my Job find out my mother has been hiding a heavy alcohol addiction for 2 years ( 1 to 2 70cl bottles of vodka a day and I take her to the doctors only to find out she has been hiding her real problem for me "she has MS too!" and then my grandfather passes away and another family member, All this in 2 weeks! Fucking great?
i cannot get MDMA and get offered crack and heroin off a few strangers that see me asking a few people who usually take MDMA, NO THANKS!
Back to see my GP and I get prescribed fluoxetine 60mg been on them for 5 months and no change, I need to get myself together and try to start working again ( I do have the usual rent bills food elec gas and bills to pay)
This time I decide to stay on fluoxetine 60 mg (Prozac) and buy MDMA again and find that I only need to take 600mg for 1 night only for me to cure myself again, I find a job and find the only way to take my deprssion away.
I am currently still employed and everything just seems to work for me so i continue to take MDMA (in crystal form only) one night every 3 months while staying on fluoxetine 60mg a day but skip my dose the day I take it and the following day and then resume as normal. I have heard that taking ecstasy on SSRI can cause serotonin syndrome but I am yet to feel this or couldn't really feel much worse than I was.
GOOD NEWS TOO I have Also quit a 20-25 a day cigarette addiction starting at the age of 14 after 10 years too, I'm now nearly 28 years old and MDMA at around 600mg (equivelant to 3 GOOD PILLS) over 1 night 4 times a year works but I stay on fluoxetine and only skip meds the day and following day of MDMA dosing.
In the top of the best pills I have had were gold bars testing in at 202mg of MDMA, these were around for a very long time, years! These were shipped into the uk destined for Ibiza.
Sorry for the long post, but my answer to depression is MDMA, I wish they cold fast track a way to get it legal now!
, professor David Nutt knows
I find a good job with a really impressive salary but unfortunately my depression comes back after 2 years again and I cannot take any drug as we were tested every 2 weeks on a random day so I end up going to see my doctor and getting prescribed citalopram 40mg and for the first 2 weeks it worked but then stopped and my GP increased the dose to a maximum of 60mg a day, I was on these for 8 months and just found them terrible after feeling completely abnormal and major sweating and a weird ( "I feel like a machine!???? Type of feeling", I decide to stop so I gradually decrease the dose until I stop and continue to experience the worst withdrawal feeling of my life I remember thinking what the +*^#$¥*^%*+$¥ could be the worst addiction? "like are these pills worse than coming of a 25 year crystal methamphetamine addiction?". Scared the shit out of me! No more SSRI's for me! I also tried 120mg a day of duloxetine SNRI but this failed too. This withdrawal lasted every day for 6-8 months and this caused me to lose my job.
I try ecstasy again but can't seem to roll or even feel anything even months after stopping any prescribed medication even taking 12 ecstasy pills in 1 night thinking they were just really weak but I had 2 of these sent of for testing and they were found to contain 112mg of MDMA in each pill, I didn't feel nothing! This was really dangerous so I decide not to take any more after that, maybe I'm suffering severe serotonin syndrome from the SSRI and SNRI?
I decide to start smoking herbal cannabis again which I found to be very strange this time and i knew there was something wrong so after a few weeks I decide to send samples off and pay for them to be professionally tested, they found the herbal cannabis to contain high traces of SSRI's- KETAMINE and phencyclidine (PCP) I guess they spray this on in a similar process they use to spray cannabinoids on so called legal herb. So that's it NO MORE STREET CANNABIS for me, they also stated that around 90% of all uk soap hash bars contained at least 1 of these chemicals if not all 3 and 100's more! ( that explained why I hated it and refused to buy it but occasionally bought super polem hash which was extremely good for medicating Due to its high CBD which could have been about 15% and also high CBN - the THC could vary between 12 and 26%.
I decide to stop smoking cannabis off the street completely and decided to only smoke it when I visit Amsterdam where it's controlled, I visit maybe every 3 years since the age of around 17.
I go back to taking ecstasy I have a about 3 sessions of 3 pills a time over a 2 months and I started feeling okay again but then the ecstasy pills hit all time low and the guy in the club "who is the nicest and most understanding person i have ever met said " your lucky to have only just starting hit the new batch of ecstasy pills around because they have been floating around for 2 years and i only get the best i can but theres nothing good around these years not like 2002-2008, now they contain completely different analogues they decide to put a really low dose of MDMA in the pill so it test positive and goes purple without showing any other chemicals like yellow for research chemicals Etc, I know ecstasy pills can usually contain small traces of ketamine and other highly toxic chemicals like PMA and whatever shit, but he says the kids don't care and there's demand so they still sell and people buy so aslong as they are buying them the shit will stay around"
I decide to stop taking ecstasy pills and even MDMA powder because these are so cut up with other rubbish analogues, and I only buy pure MDMA crystal now but it's very hard to get and extremely rare and expensive ( i test it every time with about 5 diffent tests to makes sure it only contains MDMA) again I dose on average about 500mg over the night in one day on a weekend once every 2 weeks for 3 months and again I'm cured! Back to work and I find a job instantly and find to cope really well.
I have tried a few different drugs over the years from SSRI's SNRI's Benzo's antipsycotics to other drugs like ; stimulants , hullicinogens, dissociatives, tryptamines, research chemicals and I only find empathogenic drugs work for me.
This time I get made redundant from my Job find out my mother has been hiding a heavy alcohol addiction for 2 years ( 1 to 2 70cl bottles of vodka a day and I take her to the doctors only to find out she has been hiding her real problem for me "she has MS too!" and then my grandfather passes away and another family member, All this in 2 weeks! Fucking great?
i cannot get MDMA and get offered crack and heroin off a few strangers that see me asking a few people who usually take MDMA, NO THANKS!
Back to see my GP and I get prescribed fluoxetine 60mg been on them for 5 months and no change, I need to get myself together and try to start working again ( I do have the usual rent bills food elec gas and bills to pay)
This time I decide to stay on fluoxetine 60 mg (Prozac) and buy MDMA again and find that I only need to take 600mg for 1 night only for me to cure myself again, I find a job and find the only way to take my deprssion away.
I am currently still employed and everything just seems to work for me so i continue to take MDMA (in crystal form only) one night every 3 months while staying on fluoxetine 60mg a day but skip my dose the day I take it and the following day and then resume as normal. I have heard that taking ecstasy on SSRI can cause serotonin syndrome but I am yet to feel this or couldn't really feel much worse than I was.
GOOD NEWS TOO I have Also quit a 20-25 a day cigarette addiction starting at the age of 14 after 10 years too, I'm now nearly 28 years old and MDMA at around 600mg (equivelant to 3 GOOD PILLS) over 1 night 4 times a year works but I stay on fluoxetine and only skip meds the day and following day of MDMA dosing.
In the top of the best pills I have had were gold bars testing in at 202mg of MDMA, these were around for a very long time, years! These were shipped into the uk destined for Ibiza.
Sorry for the long post, but my answer to depression is MDMA, I wish they cold fast track a way to get it legal now!
, professor David Nutt knows