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Does anyone else expierence flashbacks to childhood memories while under the influence of MDMA? i feel like it opens doors into my past and im able to remember things that i had long forgotten about. sometimes its like im there again at that exact moment when i was little expierencing it all over again.

lets say if i want to remember when i first started playing baseball when i was 5. i just think back to that time and befor you know it my brain is being flooded with memories from than, memories i thought never existed. the happiest moments of my child hood are played in my head again. its like im a kid again feeling all the emotions i did at the time. i feel like my brain recorded every little detail in that moment and when i access this memory i feel every detail that was experienced at the time. i follow my memories and remember a part of my child hood that i forgot about. reminds me of who i was.

when im sober like now i have trouble pulling these memories up, there's missing pieces and some are combined with others, its only through MDMA im able to do this.

anyone else experieince this? or do you think MDMA is tricking me to believe that i am acessing these forgotten memories and creating my own?
 
I've had similar experiences- I always described MDMA to give me a "birds eye view" of my life- I'm not down here in the tick of it anymore, I'm above it, and I can analyze it from a clear view- my past, present, and future. I don't know the scientific reason why, but I do know it brings up real memories, good and bad.
 
I'm not sure that I remember lost memories but I love reminiscing the past while on mdma. I love looking at old photographs and showing others pictures and talking about my life. I also like hearing about other peoples lives as well.

Is there any way for you to verify that these memories are true? Maybe by talking to a parent or other close friend who you would have been around at that time?

Also, if you have trouble remembering when you are sober you should keep some sort of journal or notebook that you can jot down notes for when you are rolling to recall or think about again once you are sober.
 
purplefirefly said:
Is there any way for you to verify that these memories are true? Maybe by talking to a parent or other close friend who you would have been around at that time?
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yes and no. ive talk to some of my old friends about the memories i have with them and most times they dont know what im talking about untill i explain it to them, then there like "wow how do you remember that?" and other times they cant recall them, making me wonder if its true or not but i like to believe it is.

i havent had the right oppurtunity to talk to my parents yet but when i go home this summer i plan on finding out more.

purplefirefly said:
Also, if you have trouble remembering when you are sober you should keep some sort of journal or notebook that you can jot down notes for when you are rolling to recall or think about again once you are sober.
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great idea! ill be sure to do this
 
I think there's something going on that facilitates this, at least in some people. I notice it especially when i roll with longtime friends. We can remember even the most minute details at times and talk endlessly about things we've done. Sometimes it seems like there so many recalled memories, it feels like my heads going to explode before I can tell everything. In contrast, when I'm sober I can still remember many things, but they seem more like generalities. The same 10 minute conversation topic when sober can expand to hours long when on MDMA and would be many times more interesting.
 
Yeah, happy thoughts and memories always surface when I'm sitting there, letting my mind wander. I think of things that normally wouldn't come to mind unless I am meditating deeply.
 
I have had the same experience. It is wonderful to relive the feeling of the memory while rolling <3
 
MDMA always makes me feel like a kid to some extent. Not sure I ever got flashbacks to old memories, though. Maybe to the feeling itself, but that was the extent of it.
 
wow yes!

I remeber LOTs from my childhood! LOTS more than most with out X but ....
I thought this was strang.....
I had this amazing memorie of my mom handing me icecream after she told me i couldn't have any...she was just picking but i was Soooo Sad and then when she turned around with it and smiled I was LIKE "WOOOOOWWWWW" that was a true X feeling!!! I knew what i was wearing and were we were and everything... I have never had that memorie befor so i asked mom about it and she remebered it.... The place we were was special and she told me even more about the day....
SOAMAZING
 
I have found that the emotional impact of the memory can be recalled much better. Also I can look back at the memory as if it was in 3D and see how it was for other people at the time.
 
timmm said:
I remember things too, example I play in a park at swingsets while rolling, the feeling I get is like ''Wow that's exactly how it felt the first time''

I find that every action you take while rolling is as 'fresh' as it was the first time
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Hmm.. this would imply that MDMA would have the same novelty refreshing characteristics as psychedelics do. If we could make everything feel novel all the time, we would cure boredom =D Imagine how awesome THAT would be.

Oh, it should be noted that when i first saw this topic I thought it was saying to discuss your childhood memories of rolling. lmao
 
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