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MDMA/Alcohol please advise

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Hey guys I lately I've been over doing it with drinking and rolling. On Saturday night I got 4 molly to myself went home and took them over that night I drank 3 beers as well. my dealer told me it was new stuff she got. I was wired until the next day Sunday didn't sleep I had work that day and knew I wouldn't be able to make it I called a friend for vyvanse to help me get through the shift it was 50mg took it before work (I'm prescribed this strength but haven't taken it in week before this night) barely made it through after work Sunday bought 3 more Molly I don't know why I did this completely stupid idea.

Went home and did it over a few hours I wasn't able to sleep at all I was off for work Monday and slept a few hours during but felt paranoid jittery I figured I would be okay today but I woke up feeling disconnected weird like detached very nervous and panicky and guilty weak no emotions. When it came time to go into work today I couldn't handle it I freaked out I felt social anxiety and a bit of a panic attack very spaced out there was just no way I could function I asked a friend for help and I called a friend to work for me and I left.

Feel horrible that I had to leave the way I did and I've been here in the house laying down slept for 2 hours but don't feel I can sleep I've been worrying don't know what to do been contemplating the ER because I was worried about my heart or health but I know the er wouldn't do much maybe ease my mind or give me something to sleep. I have a jury duty summons tomorrow for 7 in the morning and I'm just completely lost as to what I should do I'm completely embarrassed and I'm freaking out about how long will I be like this I feel empty emotionally and feel pretty scared and alone there's only one other person that knows what's going on with me right now.

I feel pretty shameful especially given my past I'm not sure if I should reach out to other people. I live with my mom and can't tell her she would freak out My plan was to maybe wait until the morning time and go to the ER? I'm very anxious and worried I have to be back to work on Thursday I really don't even think the stuff this chick gave me was MDMA I'm pretty sure of it and after writing this it's kind of come to realization how stupid I've been and dangerous but where do I go from here?
 
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That's the thing about getting molly, you don't know what could possibly have been in that shit besides MDMA - speed, meth, bath salts, whatever. If you're feeling shitty, just go to the ER. This seems to have gone on for several days now, that can't be healthy. Especially since it was "new stuff", it is very possible there was some shit in there that could be very bad if you took too much of it. A girl from my hometown OD-ed from bad molly last summer. It does happen. Please be safe.
 
You took a lot of unknown chemicals and not sleeping just makes you feel worse. It would be useful to buy a test kit so you have a better idea what it is you're ingesting. For tonight keep yourself hydrated and try eating something. Hopefully by morning you will feel better.
 
First off always always test your product OP, I was in the same boat where I didnt test mine and suffered the consequences. But like I always say on my other posts before, you will heal and get better. just do the proper diet exercise etc and you should recover. When it coems to the time line everyone is different but stay away from drugs for now and just recover.
 
Hey guys figured I would post an update. I went to the er this morning they said all the tests came back fine but that there was meth in my system. They pretty just sent me home with nothing I got some sleep but I've been freaking out all day I get nervous around people I always feel like my head is bloated and foggy have a hard time focusing on anything and feel like no emotions I've been really scared because I'm still wondering how long I'm going to be like this and everyone is going to find out maybe I'll have to tell my mom. I called my psychiatrist and set an appointment for the morning I've been mostly isolating myself and having trouble sleeping. Another thing is when I sleep I tend to here some times I hear auditory hallucinations like beeps :/ think I'm just going to come clean with my doc tomorrow because the job I have is a high functioning job no way I can work like this
 
You just took a bunch of meth caps and feel like shit. That's completely normal. Taking 7 of any kind of capsule is a terrible idea. You should also test any unknown powders/capsules so you know exactly what you're taking.

You'll feel better after a couple of days of normal sleep and eating properly again.

EDIT: I'm assuming they were capsules as pills aren't sold as 'Molly'
 
meth is poison IMO and I'm sorry you ingested that shit by mistake.
YOU WILL GET BACK TO NORMAL WITH TIME AND SOBRIETY.

just tell your mom.you can twist it a little bit but give her enough info so she
can be a support for you.you haven't done anything wrong u should b punished for.

with your doc,same thing.honesty but still be careful how u word things.
 
Okay thanks guys for the support hope this fades hanging in and yes they were capsules
 
Yeah, I imagined there had to be some amphetamine/methamphetamine involved, with what your symptoms were, but I'm no doctor, just a failed biology student, hah.

That's kind of the issue with molly...unless you are super positive about your source, or test it yourself, you have no idea what's in it. And you took a lot of it, so it's understandable that bad shit happened :/

I'm glad that you set up that appointment, it should help you work through the issues that led you to take so many caps in such a short period of time. I hope things work out for you, dude.
 
Thanks a lot going to try to seek consoling also I just hope don't screw up my job and everything else.
 
Hey just another update today I am feeling a bit better I have noticed improvements I'm not freaking out though the anxiety is still there I saw my psychiatrist this morning and gave him the prescription for vyvanse he gave me Tuesday back and told him the truth. He didn't prescribe me anything today just told me he wants to wait a few days and that he thinks with withdrawal effects he gave me a doctors note to take some time off. He also mentioned might have to do antidepressants but I'm pretty hesitant about that but for now just waiting.
 
you just have to give it time my friend, drink lots of green tea and get rid of those toins, try to relax, here is a link with lot's of stuff on meditation, including how to's, it could be useful http://www.erowid.org/spirit/meditation/

A-D's take 2-3 weeks to start working by that time you'lll be fine, also, the vyvanse increases anxiety, and if you feel you HAVE to take something to calm down, theres allways the good old harmless "Atarax" (hydroxyzine) which is a non-addictive anti-histamine, and could be usefull for short term anxiety.. in the meantime check out the meditation link ;)

good luck
 
I signed in today to look back and reflect. I ended up losing that job but found another. I got over my anxiety and don't do any drugs barely drink its been 2 years. Thank you all for the support I needee to fall in order for me to wake up. I look back and think wow I can't believe that was me. =)
 
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