MDMA: A Love Affair

Ecstasy was one of those substances I told myself I would never try, in high school. Freshman year of high school I was offered some by the principle's son and was pretty tempted to try it, but well aware of many of the horror stories that were purported by it from the media. I refrained that night and Reflecting back I wish I had tried it then, because trying it later led me to a plethora of other things as well, many that did me no good.

Route of Administration:
Oral, Insuffalation
Appearance of Drug: Various colored stamped pills, white crystal powder
Length of Drug: 5-8 hours
Memorable Songs on Drug:
Chemical Brothers: Do It Again
Motorcycle: as the rush comes (extended mix)
Daft Punk: One More Time
Drug Scores: 4-10 /10

I Finally tried Ecstasy at 19 with 2 close friends. The first roll was amazing, I was surprised by the fact that I never felt overwhelmed by it in the way I had with hallucinogens, yet it still maintained a significant change in cognitive thinking which I found quite psychedelic. Through E I was introduced to the rave culture, and my first time rolling at a rave was up there with the first roll. I have had many rolls over the past 5 years and many say there first few are the best, I can't say that's been the same case with me. I've had some of my best rolls up until last year. Different enviornments, different people, different music, and different pills all adds some undefinable enigma to the Ecstasy experience.

Music is necessary for me on Ecstasy. Electronic music usually goes best but I can listen to certain rock as well. On some rolls the music just feels as if it flows through my being and into my soul. Other times it has a less spiritual feeling and is just all about getting down to the funky beats. On the comedown the music usually shifts to slower electronica or introspective softer rock, marijuana is great at this stage. But, one of the worst things about E is I've used Ketamine, Salvia, Nitrous and GBL to fend off the comedown as well. One can easily end up trying 3 different substances in an evening with ecstasy, one of it's traps.

I've used it at parties, used it in small groups, and used it by myself each experience lending itself to a different aspect of the experience. It is probably the most versatile drug there is.

Personal Pros
Introduced me to new people
Found new music
Discovered and worked on personal issues
Enjoy Dancing
-Euphoric
-Stimulates Creative Thinking
-Positive Mood Push

Personal Negatives
Probably become more closed off after experience
Use other drugs with it
-Comedown
-Short Term Memory Loss
-Grinding Teeth
 
See, I never got comedowns off MDMA until I started using it more often. I'd actually get a really great afterglow for a couple of days. Once I started crashing though... ugh.

The thing that still bugs me is that my word recall seems to be more or less permanently damaged. A few times a day I'll really struggle to think of a word. Often just some mundane word, or occasionally name. It generally only takes a minute or two to get it, but it is still frustrating as hell, and makes me look like a space case. It's been about 2-3 years since I've last taken any MDXX, and probably at least 5 since I've used it regularly.
 
I comisserate with you re: damage to word recall. I haven't done ecstasy nearly so much as you have, but have done it more frequently. Blockage of just the right word leaves me groping for the lightning bug in place of the lightning, as Twain put it.
 
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