HI there!
So here is my story! I had purchased a product from a vendor (for details please private message) that stated it contained 98% pure MDAI; after waiting several days with anxiety fearing I may be arrested (as unsure as to the true legality of MDAI in my location) the product arrived. I was able to convince my boy (who has only experimented with ETOH) to take part in this experience with me. after having researched and read various people's experiences on MDAI and on this particular product I purchased I felt I was ready for some Sparkle.e. We were working the weekend so we decided to wait for Saturday to roll around so that my boy didn't have to worry about getting up the next day, whereas me I had to but it wasn't til a little later.
The evening came and I of course was attempting to relax myself and ease my mind (listening to music etc.) and having those pre-dosing jitters didn't help. I am definitely not an experienced person and am trying more and more to learn to release myself and let my mind body soul take control minus my own wants. anyways here is somewhat of the timeline:
1925hrs: my boy took the pill first (I unfortunately have NO idea the doses which probably isn't the best... hey I am not that smart ok!). I dosed one after speaking to my sister to let her know what we were doing this evening (so around 1930hrs). we decided to start watching Thor (not the best movie but good color/graphics stuff).
within those first 15 minutes I was feeling "different" and perhaps a placebo affect, but more calm and sort of "buzzed" but nothing of note. The stuff in the film suggested to me it may be intense to watch while going up with this so I suggested that perhaps when we start feeling it we can stop the movie and listen to some music, which usually helps me, or just sit in silence with the cat.
2030hrs: (my time line is not the best) but around an hour and a bit I all of a sudden felt an intense rush, I knew something was happening b/c this was the same feeling I'd had when I used E about 1+ years ago. that intense, things seem to be stopping and my mind and body rushes and it's too much I can't handle it. I told my boy to stop the movie b/cI could feel it and the screen and sounds were too intense at this point. i asked if he was feeling anything and he stated he was unsure (oh I should mention my boy had decided to have about 4oz. of sambuca - he drinks it straight = sips - so I wonder if this alcohol intake had anything to aid with his coming up) [also I would say he is about 5"11 - 250lbs and I'm 5"9 - 200lbs]. I was feeling the anxious feeling and he sat and held my hand. at this point I of course was not speaking (as I find it difficult) I close my eyes and try to breath and tell myself it's part of the experience and as all things end this will too. within what is only a few seconds this feeling passes.
2040hrs: I am speaking and pacing like a mad person! lol. I stood up "I need some music! What should we listen to ... anything in particular? no..ok well let me put some shpongle on...Love it!" I decide to go to the washroom and walking was somewhat unbalanced at first. i couldn't stop talking. so there we sat. me explaining and asking him multiple times if he was feeling anything. him responding continually.. I don't know but I feel good.. and he was quite touchy...he is a touchy guy but more lovedovey at this point.
about 2 hours passed and the intense up came multiple times, each time I would bitch about how I hated it and how I'd "never take this again" "I hate when I feel this part" and then the balance would even out and I was so happy and excited and feeling so incredibly great that I kept mention "Why would they want to make this stuff illegal".
I should also mention here I work with mental ill people (psychiatry) and have done most readings on MDMA, LSD, various other hallucinogens etc that have aided wtih mental illness/substance abuse and find it fascinating and as conspiracy theory as it sounds, feel that the govt truly does not want people to get better and thus has banned this stuff. I remember my first and only MDMA session was so intense and spiritually opening for me I have not gone back to that previous life style. appreciation.
anyways. we sat there and I could tell my boy was getting frisky and wanted to put some "nice movie" on the screen..at this point I was feeling good (~2230hrs) and relaxed. The intense up comings would hit still (which I found odd as the MDMA I had taken in past had stopped = at least I didn't notice it = after about 4 upcoming rushes) it's weird because for me I get these coming ups that are intense and I can't talk and feel like my throats intense and so I drink water and then it passes and my talking is back in pace. here we were watching and I of course was critiquing everything about the girls and guys and he was able to satisfy himself. we talked ...well I talked he listened..but he seemed to be "really listening" lol if that makes sense.
i know (As the next day he was really into the act) that I had been able to retell our whole relationship (start to current) for example how we'd met and the frustration and the feelings I was having at that time and I was surprised as I usually have difficulty recalling that sort of stuff.
anyways at this point we were basically laying side by side on the couch and decided to go to the room and lay and talk - 2330hrs. We got there and started making out around 0001hrs (as I recall seeing the time) it had been quite a few hours and I was still talking and he was wide awake and we ended up laying there for another 2 hours. i didn't think I could fall asleep and get up for 0900hrs. I did fall asleep with the candle lit. woke up and was feeling somewhat tired b/c of the lack of sleep (and I had worked 2 10 hours shifts the other day).
anyways I felt dazed for a better word. in a good way. with a smile on my face and this feeling that things were more enlightened in a way. today is Tuesday - so it's been 3 days basically) I am still feeling somewhat dazed but I don't know if it's because of the run this morning or the late nights at work.
Overall though I'd say this was a wonderful experience. I know many people have stated MDAI is nothing at all like MDMA..which I agree I didn't feel that HUGE activeness but I did definitely keep talking for hours and felt a bond with my boy (and also to people I had texted ...ie. parents, friends.) It would be interesting to determine how it works in a club seen. I also would like to find out how it would work in re: to my anxiety level with the coming ups and perhaps taking some alcohol prior.
Anyways, hope that's helpful. will have to consider purchasing some more before it goes no no in this place!
Blessings
So here is my story! I had purchased a product from a vendor (for details please private message) that stated it contained 98% pure MDAI; after waiting several days with anxiety fearing I may be arrested (as unsure as to the true legality of MDAI in my location) the product arrived. I was able to convince my boy (who has only experimented with ETOH) to take part in this experience with me. after having researched and read various people's experiences on MDAI and on this particular product I purchased I felt I was ready for some Sparkle.e. We were working the weekend so we decided to wait for Saturday to roll around so that my boy didn't have to worry about getting up the next day, whereas me I had to but it wasn't til a little later.
The evening came and I of course was attempting to relax myself and ease my mind (listening to music etc.) and having those pre-dosing jitters didn't help. I am definitely not an experienced person and am trying more and more to learn to release myself and let my mind body soul take control minus my own wants. anyways here is somewhat of the timeline:
1925hrs: my boy took the pill first (I unfortunately have NO idea the doses which probably isn't the best... hey I am not that smart ok!). I dosed one after speaking to my sister to let her know what we were doing this evening (so around 1930hrs). we decided to start watching Thor (not the best movie but good color/graphics stuff).
within those first 15 minutes I was feeling "different" and perhaps a placebo affect, but more calm and sort of "buzzed" but nothing of note. The stuff in the film suggested to me it may be intense to watch while going up with this so I suggested that perhaps when we start feeling it we can stop the movie and listen to some music, which usually helps me, or just sit in silence with the cat.
2030hrs: (my time line is not the best) but around an hour and a bit I all of a sudden felt an intense rush, I knew something was happening b/c this was the same feeling I'd had when I used E about 1+ years ago. that intense, things seem to be stopping and my mind and body rushes and it's too much I can't handle it. I told my boy to stop the movie b/cI could feel it and the screen and sounds were too intense at this point. i asked if he was feeling anything and he stated he was unsure (oh I should mention my boy had decided to have about 4oz. of sambuca - he drinks it straight = sips - so I wonder if this alcohol intake had anything to aid with his coming up) [also I would say he is about 5"11 - 250lbs and I'm 5"9 - 200lbs]. I was feeling the anxious feeling and he sat and held my hand. at this point I of course was not speaking (as I find it difficult) I close my eyes and try to breath and tell myself it's part of the experience and as all things end this will too. within what is only a few seconds this feeling passes.
2040hrs: I am speaking and pacing like a mad person! lol. I stood up "I need some music! What should we listen to ... anything in particular? no..ok well let me put some shpongle on...Love it!" I decide to go to the washroom and walking was somewhat unbalanced at first. i couldn't stop talking. so there we sat. me explaining and asking him multiple times if he was feeling anything. him responding continually.. I don't know but I feel good.. and he was quite touchy...he is a touchy guy but more lovedovey at this point.
about 2 hours passed and the intense up came multiple times, each time I would bitch about how I hated it and how I'd "never take this again" "I hate when I feel this part" and then the balance would even out and I was so happy and excited and feeling so incredibly great that I kept mention "Why would they want to make this stuff illegal".
I should also mention here I work with mental ill people (psychiatry) and have done most readings on MDMA, LSD, various other hallucinogens etc that have aided wtih mental illness/substance abuse and find it fascinating and as conspiracy theory as it sounds, feel that the govt truly does not want people to get better and thus has banned this stuff. I remember my first and only MDMA session was so intense and spiritually opening for me I have not gone back to that previous life style. appreciation.
anyways. we sat there and I could tell my boy was getting frisky and wanted to put some "nice movie" on the screen..at this point I was feeling good (~2230hrs) and relaxed. The intense up comings would hit still (which I found odd as the MDMA I had taken in past had stopped = at least I didn't notice it = after about 4 upcoming rushes) it's weird because for me I get these coming ups that are intense and I can't talk and feel like my throats intense and so I drink water and then it passes and my talking is back in pace. here we were watching and I of course was critiquing everything about the girls and guys and he was able to satisfy himself. we talked ...well I talked he listened..but he seemed to be "really listening" lol if that makes sense.
i know (As the next day he was really into the act) that I had been able to retell our whole relationship (start to current) for example how we'd met and the frustration and the feelings I was having at that time and I was surprised as I usually have difficulty recalling that sort of stuff.
anyways at this point we were basically laying side by side on the couch and decided to go to the room and lay and talk - 2330hrs. We got there and started making out around 0001hrs (as I recall seeing the time) it had been quite a few hours and I was still talking and he was wide awake and we ended up laying there for another 2 hours. i didn't think I could fall asleep and get up for 0900hrs. I did fall asleep with the candle lit. woke up and was feeling somewhat tired b/c of the lack of sleep (and I had worked 2 10 hours shifts the other day).
anyways I felt dazed for a better word. in a good way. with a smile on my face and this feeling that things were more enlightened in a way. today is Tuesday - so it's been 3 days basically) I am still feeling somewhat dazed but I don't know if it's because of the run this morning or the late nights at work.
Overall though I'd say this was a wonderful experience. I know many people have stated MDAI is nothing at all like MDMA..which I agree I didn't feel that HUGE activeness but I did definitely keep talking for hours and felt a bond with my boy (and also to people I had texted ...ie. parents, friends.) It would be interesting to determine how it works in a club seen. I also would like to find out how it would work in re: to my anxiety level with the coming ups and perhaps taking some alcohol prior.
Anyways, hope that's helpful. will have to consider purchasing some more before it goes no no in this place!
Blessings
