Pyro
Bluelighter
Please excuse the typos aand what not. My keyboard is really fucked up right now. I wrote a lot of this with my eyes closed, just tapping away at the keyboard.
Don't think any of this is personal to me. I made it all up. I tapped into an insane wavelength of depressed carelessness. It is a work, it is not me.
*above is your warning*
You are just like me. I know you. We walk the same and think the same. We are connected by the air around us. Inside of the darkness there is a speckle of light invented by your memory, insighted by a moment gone by. Have you forgotten who you used to be? Hvae you lost bse with the world around you and every thought and emotion you ever had? Should we be sad for you? Excited? Is there sex and blood? Is there shit and piss inside your heart whenever you fall, and wine and fruit whenever you are alive? Do you look at the devil without a care in this entire world?
One morning I woke up to realize that I wasn't who I used to be. You can't go back after it all... you don't want to. No matter how badly you want for the freedom you had as a child, you can never get it back. Not by any chemical mean, not by any spiritual mean. It is lost forever, so stop looking behind you when you walk.
Burn all your bridges and slit your arms every chance you get. It is only painful the first few times, until you realize that rebirth is worth the suffering experience through death. Rebirth. Do you remember? Do you remember dying? I do. I remember waking up too, being born again within myself. I looked at the world and I almost lost myself. I almost cried in front of everyone and I almost took to the sea to find that lost world. Lost World. Did you fuck it all off too?
I remember looking at the world with my re-born eyes and being empty and paralyzed. I became stale and static and did not love, and did not hate. I was stone. I was the tree and the mountian. Somewhere a glaicer gained another half inch in the struggle to regain the earth, but it's too little too late. The pores on my skin became leaves and reached for the moisture in the air. I gave up on humanity, and society, and culture, and wisdom, and knowledge.
They didn't eat an apple, they ate of the tree of knowledge. We have manipulated and candy coated the Bible, taking God's word and trying to speak it with our own tounges, bullshitting it's meaning. Tree of Knowledge. Satan wanted them to have knowledge... knowledge of what? Knowledge that would eventually lead to our demise? Knowledge of the workings of God, his little experiment - abandoned. Satan doesn't care about your happiness, he cares about your death and your anguish and your hate. This is why he showed you the Tree of knowledge.
Fuck knowledge. Know of it to avoid being intertwined in it. What humanity should have more of is wisdom. Do you remember ever having wisdom? Accept who you are, and work with the body and the mind and the earth. Knowledge is worthless, something to take up your mind's capacity, haulting your evolution and your revolution.
Be as one
Be empty
Be alive
Accept who you are
Work with your self
There is an insane twitch to you isn't there? 8Something that happens to your face when you think something evil. A grin, an eyebrow, your cheek... something no one notices. Maybe you are posessed. Maybe you are controlled by demons and devils. Maybe your place is in the Lake of Fire. Maybe God has turned his back on you. Maybe the anit-christ will be someone who is just so fucking sick of it all that he calls himself the anti-christ just so God will have mercy and end this worthless struggle and bullshit existance.
maybe.
Pyro - Tim
Don't think any of this is personal to me. I made it all up. I tapped into an insane wavelength of depressed carelessness. It is a work, it is not me.
*above is your warning*
You are just like me. I know you. We walk the same and think the same. We are connected by the air around us. Inside of the darkness there is a speckle of light invented by your memory, insighted by a moment gone by. Have you forgotten who you used to be? Hvae you lost bse with the world around you and every thought and emotion you ever had? Should we be sad for you? Excited? Is there sex and blood? Is there shit and piss inside your heart whenever you fall, and wine and fruit whenever you are alive? Do you look at the devil without a care in this entire world?
One morning I woke up to realize that I wasn't who I used to be. You can't go back after it all... you don't want to. No matter how badly you want for the freedom you had as a child, you can never get it back. Not by any chemical mean, not by any spiritual mean. It is lost forever, so stop looking behind you when you walk.
Burn all your bridges and slit your arms every chance you get. It is only painful the first few times, until you realize that rebirth is worth the suffering experience through death. Rebirth. Do you remember? Do you remember dying? I do. I remember waking up too, being born again within myself. I looked at the world and I almost lost myself. I almost cried in front of everyone and I almost took to the sea to find that lost world. Lost World. Did you fuck it all off too?
I remember looking at the world with my re-born eyes and being empty and paralyzed. I became stale and static and did not love, and did not hate. I was stone. I was the tree and the mountian. Somewhere a glaicer gained another half inch in the struggle to regain the earth, but it's too little too late. The pores on my skin became leaves and reached for the moisture in the air. I gave up on humanity, and society, and culture, and wisdom, and knowledge.
They didn't eat an apple, they ate of the tree of knowledge. We have manipulated and candy coated the Bible, taking God's word and trying to speak it with our own tounges, bullshitting it's meaning. Tree of Knowledge. Satan wanted them to have knowledge... knowledge of what? Knowledge that would eventually lead to our demise? Knowledge of the workings of God, his little experiment - abandoned. Satan doesn't care about your happiness, he cares about your death and your anguish and your hate. This is why he showed you the Tree of knowledge.
Fuck knowledge. Know of it to avoid being intertwined in it. What humanity should have more of is wisdom. Do you remember ever having wisdom? Accept who you are, and work with the body and the mind and the earth. Knowledge is worthless, something to take up your mind's capacity, haulting your evolution and your revolution.
Be as one
Be empty
Be alive
Accept who you are
Work with your self
There is an insane twitch to you isn't there? 8Something that happens to your face when you think something evil. A grin, an eyebrow, your cheek... something no one notices. Maybe you are posessed. Maybe you are controlled by demons and devils. Maybe your place is in the Lake of Fire. Maybe God has turned his back on you. Maybe the anit-christ will be someone who is just so fucking sick of it all that he calls himself the anti-christ just so God will have mercy and end this worthless struggle and bullshit existance.
maybe.
Pyro - Tim
