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May getting and/or staying sober thread v. May flowers

^ thank you Evey <3 you're doing great too

BlueSaffron said:
Today marks a week since I did dope. I got on methadone last friday, and did my last little bit of H the following saturday morning... now here it is Saturday morning again. I've made it through a week, and already dropped down from 30 to 24. Not trying to overdo it, so I'll probably stay at 24 for another whole week before I do another drop.

For now I'm about to drive to the clinic and dose my methadone on an empty stomach (feel like feeling it, so sue me), and come home and eat some delish overnight oats I made last night. After that it'll be cleaning up the apartment, jobsearching, and rewatching Sopranos season 1.
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That's awesome! Congrats on your first week and keep up the great work! :)
 
YBC said:
Thanks Captain and Evey! Still have the runs, anxiety, anhedonia etc... I hope it all clears up soon, still feels like my life is on hold... But at least I'm clean, wouldn't want to go back for anything!
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I'm confused, YBC, didn't you say you were off methadone etc for six months? I don't understand why you would still be experience withdrawal symptoms now. Shouldn't they have cleared up by now? If I've missed something here and am being ignorant I'm really sorry. I hope you feel better soon.

Evey
 
9 days off the horse. On the road back up the mountain.
Bout a 6 month run this time. I was preparing for it. Loperamide got me through the wds. Life's getting easier. The money saved is obvious and I'm starting to get out and do things. I know it's early but I've been doing this for long enough to believe I will last a while this time.

Stay strong ppl :D
 
Weird... Rewatching Season 1 of the Sopranos is exactly what I did yesterday, too... :) I'm on day #9 coming off Subs. They got me off dope successfully for almost a year now, and I'll always be grateful for that, but it's time to take the final step. I'm feeling pretty great about it, too.
 
SineWaveSoldier said:
9 days off the horse. On the road back up the mountain.
Bout a 6 month run this time. I was preparing for it. Loperamide got me through the wds. Life's getting easier. The money saved is obvious and I'm starting to get out and do things. I know it's early but I've been doing this for long enough to believe I will last a while this time.

Stay strong ppl :D
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Lope is helping me IMMENSELY through this. I know from experience, going off the bupe back in January, that by day 27 I still felt like I'd made zero progress, and I was still so sick and worn down from that much time spent in WD. This time, I'm utilizing lope, and it helps SOOOO much. It's keeping me sane. I also ordered Indonesian kratom, but I've never tried it, in all my years of struggling with dope. So we'll see.
 
60 days clean today! It's been tough at times but I made it this far might as well keep going.
 
Congrats to everyone on their clean time :) SineWaveSoldier, I'm right there with you, 8 days off the horse here. I'm on methadone tho, but a pretty low dose. I can't believe it's been 8 days already... shows that time DOES go by if you stick with it :)
 
CH, do you think your sleep issues are because of withdrawal from suboxone - or related to the PTSD? If you've been having dreams that are not very nice then your subconscious may be stopping you sleeping.

Have you done or breathing / relaxation exercises?

Evey
 
Still clean today! Had a great experience at a Bahai temple. Left feeling really good. Went to a great NA meeting later. I am taking huge comfort in accepting that I just cannot use anymore. I just do not want to keep fighting that bullshit fight with myself. Visiting my folks and spending time with my family dog now. Trying to get the fuckin TV to work lol :D

I have to admit that I have always been attracted to the Bahai faith, but the prohibition from alcohol kept me away. Today while there and feeling good I felt sad I denied myself for so long but really felt like I might have found something for me. The belief system really matches up well with me (all faith are from the same source, earth is one country and mankind its citizens, religion must be held up to same scrunity as science, man must unit and work to end all prejudice etc etc).

One minute we are reading from multi faith scriptures, the next a choir is singing negro spirituals. Amazing.
 
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Eveleivibe said:
CH, do you think your sleep issues are because of withdrawal from suboxone - or related to the PTSD? If you've been having dreams that are not very nice then your subconscious may be stopping you sleeping.

Have you done or breathing / relaxation exercises?

Evey
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If I had to guess

Pre-existing issue with PTSD

I still can't be sure though
 
Eveleivibe said:
I'm confused, YBC, didn't you say you were off methadone etc for six months? I don't understand why you would still be experience withdrawal symptoms now. Shouldn't they have cleared up by now? If I've missed something here and am being ignorant I'm really sorry. I hope you feel better soon.

Evey
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The acutes, except for the runs, are long gone (over the last month my stomach has improved slightly though) Still have some PAWS unfortunately, they can last a long time especially with methadone. I'm sure some of it has to do with relearning to cope with things like stress instead of just taking more opioids.
 
still sober today!

Also, I found when getting off sub I would get "flashes" of physical withdrawal from time to time. This ended in about 3 months later.. but I tapered slowly for 8 months.
 
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