Eh... It has been a boring couple of months.
I'm doing my best at this sobriety thing at the moment. Got some time clean, doesn't feel like I can handle it the rest of my life, definite no-go on never taking MDMA again.
Just got finished with a stint in jail/rehab between December-March. I am so damn tired of jail.
On a more positive note, I finally started getting back in the swing of trying to look for girls to hook up with and date. I've been hanging with this girl quite a bit lately, since I got home from rehab. She has kind of been teasing me around, but this Thursday, the 8th, we ended up having some great sex (I think it was pretty great at least). It was the first sex I have had not blown out on dope in a long long time. And more-so the first sex I've had in-general in the past 7-8 months. It was a good feeling. We went at it for about an hour, then I just had to pass out, it was late and I wasn't about to get off.
Sorry if that is too much information.
This is my life. 50% Smiles and 50% disappointment at the moment. Maybe this is a good equilibrium.
Post again soon bluelight.
I'm doing my best at this sobriety thing at the moment. Got some time clean, doesn't feel like I can handle it the rest of my life, definite no-go on never taking MDMA again.
Just got finished with a stint in jail/rehab between December-March. I am so damn tired of jail.
On a more positive note, I finally started getting back in the swing of trying to look for girls to hook up with and date. I've been hanging with this girl quite a bit lately, since I got home from rehab. She has kind of been teasing me around, but this Thursday, the 8th, we ended up having some great sex (I think it was pretty great at least). It was the first sex I have had not blown out on dope in a long long time. And more-so the first sex I've had in-general in the past 7-8 months. It was a good feeling. We went at it for about an hour, then I just had to pass out, it was late and I wasn't about to get off.
Sorry if that is too much information.
This is my life. 50% Smiles and 50% disappointment at the moment. Maybe this is a good equilibrium.
Post again soon bluelight.
I wouldn't say 50/50 is bad at all, things could be a lot worse for sure. I look forward to reading more from you here!