Hi everybody, I've read Bluelight for years and just never bothered to open an account. This is a massive post to go with my "massive" habit lol, so, THERE IS A TL;DR at the bottomI've already UTFSE many times, any I am reaching out for some human contact as much as anything here... I am alone, my girlfriend is half-way around the world and has been for almost 2 weeks, and doesn't know the hole I've dug myself in the past two weeks is deeper than the the ones she's seen me in when she tried to help me get on Suboxone after being on dope before... Ironically, I probably used so much partially because she was gone, I missed her and was bored, she's the light of my life but isn't a drug user, just a really cool chick who sees that the only real problems my use poses is due to the stupid f****** laws, i.e. the money issue and the legality issue.
So, I'm 29, been on and off since teens, and have probably been on the worst 2 week binge of my life (or the best, depending on how you look at it, if I could have a soft landing, which doesn't seem like it is in the cards now). I curse the Gods on this one: any user could get out of jail free, if they just had a bunch of liquid hydrocodone (or other moderately strong opioid) to wean down then take a couple of doses of Suboxone, and, bada bing bada boom, you're cured! I thought I would have another week to get my use down closer to 0.5 grams, but it's just not going to happen that way. I'm not selling my stuff, I'll go to the hospital before I do that.I mainly just want to reach out to others and get some support while I'm alone and about to be very sick, and would especially like to hear from someone who has had a dependence that is in the 2-2.5 grams IV per day of East Coast Powder aka China White.
SO -- I have been on and off IV heroin (East Coast powder), mostly on, for the past 3 months, prior to this most recent 3 months I was on low-dose Suboxone mixed with heroin for several years, often on just 0.5 mg suboxone snorted with weekend use of dope, but with the occasional binge on Opana or dope mixed in on top of the bupe which I took daily. It was 3 months ago that I dropped the buprenorphine completely. For about 2.5 years, the only time that I did not take buprenorphine at a low dose for more than 24 hours was when I tapered off of it for a brief 2 week break 1.5 years ago. I caved in and used despite the fact that i felt perfectly fine, no real PAWS, just my usual semi-depression. Again, I kick myself for not staying off the buprenorphine and not just keeping my heroin use to weekends. I actually "relapsed" (on purpose lol) on the buprenorphine, I used to really enjoy dosing buprenorphine...
Anyways, I had my tolerance down very low only a three weeks ago. I could go 48 hours without a dose of heroin before I needed another. (I would go 24-48 hours, then inject 1 gram, a big strong dose that would give a massive rush and have me nodding, then not dose again until 24-48 hours had elapsed.) Then, I began to dose Suboxone since I wanted to stop heroin, but despite being able to tough it out for 48 hours (and it got the point where it wasn't that tough) I could not fully give up opiates.
BTW -- this is not shitty dope. The fact that I could IV 1 gram after a period of 48 off-use-48 off-use without OD'ing is not a function of the dope being shitty. I know this because of the doses that get beginners ripped around here are 0.1 grams snorted or 0.05 grams IV. Plus, a shot of 0.6 grams kept me rushing even at the end of this binge, and 0.8 had me nodding sometimes a little sometimes more than a little.
Two weeks ago, I got an easy connection and had money, and I stopped Suboxone and began a terrible binge. I began injecting multiple times a day, sometimes 3 or 4 or even 5 times, and using -- for every day of that two weeks -- AT LEAST 1.5 grams and usually 2 or 2.5 grams of very good East Coast powder. I was shooting .6 to 1 gram in a shot. This is also the first time I've been "addicted to the needle" in a long time. I find myself thinking of the smells associated with the needles themselves. I thought my veins were spent years ago on black tar and cocaine, so I didn't really use the needle until the past few months. Now, I realize that I have lots of veins left even though I burnt the traditional ones. You can imagine that this happy information has led me down the road to hell. At least when I was hooked on speed balls, the cocaine sucked up so much money that my dope habi was small, and I left it behind thinking that it really was not possible to continue due to my veins, unless I started hitting the neck or my groin.
Now, I just shot my last .8 grams when I got out of bed at around 12:30 PM. I already felt crappy because I used less yesterday, having shot 1.3 grams early yesterday (Friday) morning and then another .3 grams in the evening! I went from a .8 gram shot holding me COMPLETELY for 24-48 hours to getting sick that quickly, and I am really pissed at myself for going overboard. It's juts that I got a rush every time, it was just too good to "say no" too, and I thought I would have money to afford dope to taper down at the end then move to buprenorphine. So, it's not that I couldn't say no, it's that I had no reason to do so. I had easy access, money, and every reason to expect that I'd have time to reduce my dosage before I switched to Suboxone. I thought I would have more money. I planned spend this coming work week cutting down and only doing .7 to 1 gram of dope per day, which would make switching to Suboxone easier next weekend.
Well -- no such luck. The money just isn't there.
So, as of now, I am waiting 24 hours, and then going to try to start Suboxone. I have done this 3 times before, but during all those transitions, I had been taking MUCH lower doses of heroin to start with.
Despite having several years of using Suboxone and heroin, I do not have a ton of experience switching from one to the other -- I almost always used my Suboxone every single day, albeit at low doses, and was still able to get a very satisfying rush and high from the heroin and Opana. Therefore, I didn't have to undergo the 24 hour wait. In fact, I almost never got genuinely sick -- instead, because I took the buprenorphine every day, if I used heroin or Opana daily for a week or a month, when I stopped using those, I just doubled my buprenorphine and just felt something akin to PAWS rather than any kind of acute withdrawal -- i.e., I'd be depressed and just bummed out and SLEEPY (ha! I had to deal with the terrible torments of SLEEP! lol).
So, I don't know what to expect since this is the first time I had such a huge habit and I am just f***** scared crapless as i have not had this bad of a habit -- albeit for only the past 2-3 weeks has it been this huge, I am told that's all it takes to basically max out your level of dependence -- and I would love to hear from someone out there who has made the transition to Suboxone after this level of dependence.
I would likely be considered to be in good health after a quick physical, but I get very strange symptoms during withdrawal, even from a habit that is nowhere near my 2 grams IV. I get these atypical symptoms around the 48 hour mark even during the chaotic "1 dose per 24-48 hour habit" I had not long ago, most bothersome is that my WRITSTS/HANDS go numb (this is the scariest thing), and my blood pressure goes quite low compared to my normal semi-high blood pressure and I get VERY dizzy upon standing, which makes taking clonidine an exercise in tempting the reaper. And I fear the reaper. I'm afraid that when the dizziness kicks in, and the numb wrists, I'm just going flip out and lose my shit. (I also used to suffer from panic attacks, and occasionally still do, and religiously and properly take clonazepam for this, but the dope sickness, when it's severe, truly scares me... I never used to get the dizziness when I was younger, nor did I get the numb extremities.)
If I get these scary symptoms... I just don't know.
And, every time I switch to Suboxone, even when I've waited 48 hours(!), I get these weird symptoms upon starting the Suboxone -- starting about 10-20 minutes after putting it under my tongue and ending after a few minutes, maybe 10 at the very most, that made me fear that i was getting precipitated withdrawals, and therefore result in precipitated panic (lol). I attribute them to the naloxone, despite the fact that I spit out my saliva during the first day of suboxone use, as it is possible that the naloxone takes effect before the buprenorphine does -- thus the onset of the symptoms would be the naloxone, and the end of those symptoms (feeling of painful heat on skin, anxiety and heart beat increasing) could be due to the buprenorphine finally kicking in just after the low dose of naloxone. But, it's quite possible that it's MOSTLY my own anxieties, or simply the effect of the buprenorphine itself somehow doing more harm than good initially.
But, I have always had my girlfriend for me when I tried to switch to Suboxone this year,something I never had experience with before since my use of Suboxone began about 3 years ago when I was NOT addicted to other opioids. Anyhow, no one hear to hold my hand, or thrust a nipple into my mouth and jerk me off in 10 seconds flat when I feel like I am about to go into precipitated withdrawals.
I know all the guidelines for starting buprenorphine. I know the time to wait. I know the COWS chart. (BTW, going by the COWS chart is horse shit for the record -- given two people on the same drug, conventional opioids like heroin or oxycodone that do not have wildly different pharmacokinetics -- the COWS chart guidelines for buprenorphine initiation would have someone with a more severe physical dependence taking the drug sooner after their last usage, since they would get more severely sick at a given point in time!!! I have never heard anyone make this point and think it is obvious and important!
In any case, I have dosed dupe 24 hours after a moderate final dosage and had some help from the buprenoprhine. I plan on taking 0.5 mgs at the 24 hour mark. As I said, I "only" did 0.8 grams IV at about 12-1 PM EST, so I'm going to just go ahead and bite the bullet and try taking that 0.5 mg dupe at 12:30 EST tomorrow. But, because of the size of my recent habit I don't know a what's going to happen in the 24 hours before i take the bupe b what's going to happen when I take the bupe. I am VERY, VERY afraid I am going to call the paramedics and beg them to give me a large dosage of Fentanyl to end the precipitated withdrawal (I have heard that Fentanyl, unlike heroin, oxy, and even Narcan, actually binds to the receptors more strongly than buprenorphine, I don't know if it's completely true.
I just wish I was in a hospital. I wish I was in a medical detox. I've never had that luxury. All my friends go to rehab every few years it seems. I don't envy the court ordered trips, but I think I might just like to throw in the towel on this one, and take myself to the hospital, or, better yet, call 911 and have them drive me away, service right at the door to take me to some restful peace. (Of course, I'd still prefer a full bank account, that would by me peace for another few weeks, and this time I'd make sure I tapered down to a bona fide measly 0.5 gram habit before I ran out of money.) How beautiful it would be. All the smells of the hospital. Lots of meds to make up for the lack of dope. A bunch of Lyrica -- I bet that would help. Lots of phenobarbital. And, instead of having to battle to get off the buprenorphine, I'd walk out of there truly clean! Truly detoxed! Who knows, they might even get me off the benzos. OMG WHAT A DREAM THAT SOUNDS LIKE RIGHT NOW! And to think, 1.5-2 years ago, I was 14 days off buprenorphine and I hadn't been on benzos for years, because my panic attacks were not quite severe enough to warrant them. Anyways, the only way I can get off work is if I'm actually in the hospital. Home sick won't cut it. And I don't want to be home sick. I want to be hospital sick lol. No one can argue with that. What kind of weirdo am I to dream of a medical detox? Well, that's the thing -- I don't want a detox with nothing but clonidine. But if they truly used their resources, gave Lyrica, maybe gave a single dose of buprenorphine timed and sized properly, they could detox you with almost no major problems, even from a habit of my size... particularly if they used lots of sedatives and that one dose of buprenorphine... I bet they could...
All the times I've quit dope, buprenorphine, methadone, Opana, etc. -- all those times with no help beyond maybe a prescription to a couple of meds which did nothing, except for Zofran. I never puke when sick (or high), so I didn't need it for that purpose. Zofran actually helps withdrawal through its actions on the brain somehow... And anti-histamines (e.g. diphenhydramine [Benadryl, Tylenol PM, Advil PM], hydroxyzine, phenergan, and all over the counter sleep aids other than tryptophan, melatonin, and Valerian] actually aggravate Restless Legs Syndrome MASSIVELY. Taking them is the only time I truly found myself "kicking" dope rather than just "fidgeting my feet and legs" dope lol. And clonidine is out of the question because I get LOW blood pressure when in withdrawal, not high blood pressure... Unfortunately, the Zofran is not available to me unless I head to urgent care, which I am loathe to do, as I do not think that the $300 fee to get some Zofran is worth it, and I doubt they will write for Seroquel and Ambien similar or anything which could make me sleep.
Anyway, now I've typed more than enough about myself, and I put a tl;dr down there, because I know this is too long, but can't help it, this is the way I write.
HELP and be my friend, especially you fiends who have made the switch with similar habits!
tl;dr
I have been on opioids for years, heroin almost exclusively for 3-4 months, and 2-2.5 grams of heroin IV every single day for the past 2 weeks. I was supposed to have money to get me through one more week on a lower dosage of heroin so as to facilitate an easier transition to Suboxone next weekend, but that will not be possible as the money is not there. Now, I have used my last dope as of 12-1 PM EST today (Saturday) and am facing taking a first dose of Suboxone coming off this 2 gram habit tomorrow.
I feel my habit is very large, and may cause me far more trouble than usual when switching to Suboxone. I have panic attacks whenever I switch to suboxone, for one thing, and precipitated withdrawal will almost certainly result in a call to 911. I only managed to not call 911 on at least one occasion when initiating Suboxone -- coming from a much smaller habit -- because I had my girlfriend there, and she is in another country now.
If anyone out there has been on a habit as large as my recent one -- 2-2.5 grams EVERY single day, never feeling ANY sickness which would lower dependence and tolerance, for 2 weeks or longer -- please let know what you experienced when switching to Suboxone.
If anyone out there just wants to talk about my situation, or lend some support or info, please do, especially if you know anything about coming off a habit of this size and switching to buprenorphine.
So, I'm 29, been on and off since teens, and have probably been on the worst 2 week binge of my life (or the best, depending on how you look at it, if I could have a soft landing, which doesn't seem like it is in the cards now). I curse the Gods on this one: any user could get out of jail free, if they just had a bunch of liquid hydrocodone (or other moderately strong opioid) to wean down then take a couple of doses of Suboxone, and, bada bing bada boom, you're cured! I thought I would have another week to get my use down closer to 0.5 grams, but it's just not going to happen that way. I'm not selling my stuff, I'll go to the hospital before I do that.I mainly just want to reach out to others and get some support while I'm alone and about to be very sick, and would especially like to hear from someone who has had a dependence that is in the 2-2.5 grams IV per day of East Coast Powder aka China White.
SO -- I have been on and off IV heroin (East Coast powder), mostly on, for the past 3 months, prior to this most recent 3 months I was on low-dose Suboxone mixed with heroin for several years, often on just 0.5 mg suboxone snorted with weekend use of dope, but with the occasional binge on Opana or dope mixed in on top of the bupe which I took daily. It was 3 months ago that I dropped the buprenorphine completely. For about 2.5 years, the only time that I did not take buprenorphine at a low dose for more than 24 hours was when I tapered off of it for a brief 2 week break 1.5 years ago. I caved in and used despite the fact that i felt perfectly fine, no real PAWS, just my usual semi-depression. Again, I kick myself for not staying off the buprenorphine and not just keeping my heroin use to weekends. I actually "relapsed" (on purpose lol) on the buprenorphine, I used to really enjoy dosing buprenorphine...
Anyways, I had my tolerance down very low only a three weeks ago. I could go 48 hours without a dose of heroin before I needed another. (I would go 24-48 hours, then inject 1 gram, a big strong dose that would give a massive rush and have me nodding, then not dose again until 24-48 hours had elapsed.) Then, I began to dose Suboxone since I wanted to stop heroin, but despite being able to tough it out for 48 hours (and it got the point where it wasn't that tough) I could not fully give up opiates.
BTW -- this is not shitty dope. The fact that I could IV 1 gram after a period of 48 off-use-48 off-use without OD'ing is not a function of the dope being shitty. I know this because of the doses that get beginners ripped around here are 0.1 grams snorted or 0.05 grams IV. Plus, a shot of 0.6 grams kept me rushing even at the end of this binge, and 0.8 had me nodding sometimes a little sometimes more than a little.
Two weeks ago, I got an easy connection and had money, and I stopped Suboxone and began a terrible binge. I began injecting multiple times a day, sometimes 3 or 4 or even 5 times, and using -- for every day of that two weeks -- AT LEAST 1.5 grams and usually 2 or 2.5 grams of very good East Coast powder. I was shooting .6 to 1 gram in a shot. This is also the first time I've been "addicted to the needle" in a long time. I find myself thinking of the smells associated with the needles themselves. I thought my veins were spent years ago on black tar and cocaine, so I didn't really use the needle until the past few months. Now, I realize that I have lots of veins left even though I burnt the traditional ones. You can imagine that this happy information has led me down the road to hell. At least when I was hooked on speed balls, the cocaine sucked up so much money that my dope habi was small, and I left it behind thinking that it really was not possible to continue due to my veins, unless I started hitting the neck or my groin.
Now, I just shot my last .8 grams when I got out of bed at around 12:30 PM. I already felt crappy because I used less yesterday, having shot 1.3 grams early yesterday (Friday) morning and then another .3 grams in the evening! I went from a .8 gram shot holding me COMPLETELY for 24-48 hours to getting sick that quickly, and I am really pissed at myself for going overboard. It's juts that I got a rush every time, it was just too good to "say no" too, and I thought I would have money to afford dope to taper down at the end then move to buprenorphine. So, it's not that I couldn't say no, it's that I had no reason to do so. I had easy access, money, and every reason to expect that I'd have time to reduce my dosage before I switched to Suboxone. I thought I would have more money. I planned spend this coming work week cutting down and only doing .7 to 1 gram of dope per day, which would make switching to Suboxone easier next weekend.
Well -- no such luck. The money just isn't there.
So, as of now, I am waiting 24 hours, and then going to try to start Suboxone. I have done this 3 times before, but during all those transitions, I had been taking MUCH lower doses of heroin to start with.
Despite having several years of using Suboxone and heroin, I do not have a ton of experience switching from one to the other -- I almost always used my Suboxone every single day, albeit at low doses, and was still able to get a very satisfying rush and high from the heroin and Opana. Therefore, I didn't have to undergo the 24 hour wait. In fact, I almost never got genuinely sick -- instead, because I took the buprenorphine every day, if I used heroin or Opana daily for a week or a month, when I stopped using those, I just doubled my buprenorphine and just felt something akin to PAWS rather than any kind of acute withdrawal -- i.e., I'd be depressed and just bummed out and SLEEPY (ha! I had to deal with the terrible torments of SLEEP! lol).
So, I don't know what to expect since this is the first time I had such a huge habit and I am just f***** scared crapless as i have not had this bad of a habit -- albeit for only the past 2-3 weeks has it been this huge, I am told that's all it takes to basically max out your level of dependence -- and I would love to hear from someone out there who has made the transition to Suboxone after this level of dependence.
I would likely be considered to be in good health after a quick physical, but I get very strange symptoms during withdrawal, even from a habit that is nowhere near my 2 grams IV. I get these atypical symptoms around the 48 hour mark even during the chaotic "1 dose per 24-48 hour habit" I had not long ago, most bothersome is that my WRITSTS/HANDS go numb (this is the scariest thing), and my blood pressure goes quite low compared to my normal semi-high blood pressure and I get VERY dizzy upon standing, which makes taking clonidine an exercise in tempting the reaper. And I fear the reaper. I'm afraid that when the dizziness kicks in, and the numb wrists, I'm just going flip out and lose my shit. (I also used to suffer from panic attacks, and occasionally still do, and religiously and properly take clonazepam for this, but the dope sickness, when it's severe, truly scares me... I never used to get the dizziness when I was younger, nor did I get the numb extremities.)
If I get these scary symptoms... I just don't know.
And, every time I switch to Suboxone, even when I've waited 48 hours(!), I get these weird symptoms upon starting the Suboxone -- starting about 10-20 minutes after putting it under my tongue and ending after a few minutes, maybe 10 at the very most, that made me fear that i was getting precipitated withdrawals, and therefore result in precipitated panic (lol). I attribute them to the naloxone, despite the fact that I spit out my saliva during the first day of suboxone use, as it is possible that the naloxone takes effect before the buprenorphine does -- thus the onset of the symptoms would be the naloxone, and the end of those symptoms (feeling of painful heat on skin, anxiety and heart beat increasing) could be due to the buprenorphine finally kicking in just after the low dose of naloxone. But, it's quite possible that it's MOSTLY my own anxieties, or simply the effect of the buprenorphine itself somehow doing more harm than good initially.
But, I have always had my girlfriend for me when I tried to switch to Suboxone this year,something I never had experience with before since my use of Suboxone began about 3 years ago when I was NOT addicted to other opioids. Anyhow, no one hear to hold my hand, or thrust a nipple into my mouth and jerk me off in 10 seconds flat when I feel like I am about to go into precipitated withdrawals.
I know all the guidelines for starting buprenorphine. I know the time to wait. I know the COWS chart. (BTW, going by the COWS chart is horse shit for the record -- given two people on the same drug, conventional opioids like heroin or oxycodone that do not have wildly different pharmacokinetics -- the COWS chart guidelines for buprenorphine initiation would have someone with a more severe physical dependence taking the drug sooner after their last usage, since they would get more severely sick at a given point in time!!! I have never heard anyone make this point and think it is obvious and important!
In any case, I have dosed dupe 24 hours after a moderate final dosage and had some help from the buprenoprhine. I plan on taking 0.5 mgs at the 24 hour mark. As I said, I "only" did 0.8 grams IV at about 12-1 PM EST, so I'm going to just go ahead and bite the bullet and try taking that 0.5 mg dupe at 12:30 EST tomorrow. But, because of the size of my recent habit I don't know a what's going to happen in the 24 hours before i take the bupe b what's going to happen when I take the bupe. I am VERY, VERY afraid I am going to call the paramedics and beg them to give me a large dosage of Fentanyl to end the precipitated withdrawal (I have heard that Fentanyl, unlike heroin, oxy, and even Narcan, actually binds to the receptors more strongly than buprenorphine, I don't know if it's completely true.
I just wish I was in a hospital. I wish I was in a medical detox. I've never had that luxury. All my friends go to rehab every few years it seems. I don't envy the court ordered trips, but I think I might just like to throw in the towel on this one, and take myself to the hospital, or, better yet, call 911 and have them drive me away, service right at the door to take me to some restful peace. (Of course, I'd still prefer a full bank account, that would by me peace for another few weeks, and this time I'd make sure I tapered down to a bona fide measly 0.5 gram habit before I ran out of money.) How beautiful it would be. All the smells of the hospital. Lots of meds to make up for the lack of dope. A bunch of Lyrica -- I bet that would help. Lots of phenobarbital. And, instead of having to battle to get off the buprenorphine, I'd walk out of there truly clean! Truly detoxed! Who knows, they might even get me off the benzos. OMG WHAT A DREAM THAT SOUNDS LIKE RIGHT NOW! And to think, 1.5-2 years ago, I was 14 days off buprenorphine and I hadn't been on benzos for years, because my panic attacks were not quite severe enough to warrant them. Anyways, the only way I can get off work is if I'm actually in the hospital. Home sick won't cut it. And I don't want to be home sick. I want to be hospital sick lol. No one can argue with that. What kind of weirdo am I to dream of a medical detox? Well, that's the thing -- I don't want a detox with nothing but clonidine. But if they truly used their resources, gave Lyrica, maybe gave a single dose of buprenorphine timed and sized properly, they could detox you with almost no major problems, even from a habit of my size... particularly if they used lots of sedatives and that one dose of buprenorphine... I bet they could...
All the times I've quit dope, buprenorphine, methadone, Opana, etc. -- all those times with no help beyond maybe a prescription to a couple of meds which did nothing, except for Zofran. I never puke when sick (or high), so I didn't need it for that purpose. Zofran actually helps withdrawal through its actions on the brain somehow... And anti-histamines (e.g. diphenhydramine [Benadryl, Tylenol PM, Advil PM], hydroxyzine, phenergan, and all over the counter sleep aids other than tryptophan, melatonin, and Valerian] actually aggravate Restless Legs Syndrome MASSIVELY. Taking them is the only time I truly found myself "kicking" dope rather than just "fidgeting my feet and legs" dope lol. And clonidine is out of the question because I get LOW blood pressure when in withdrawal, not high blood pressure... Unfortunately, the Zofran is not available to me unless I head to urgent care, which I am loathe to do, as I do not think that the $300 fee to get some Zofran is worth it, and I doubt they will write for Seroquel and Ambien similar or anything which could make me sleep.
Anyway, now I've typed more than enough about myself, and I put a tl;dr down there, because I know this is too long, but can't help it, this is the way I write.
HELP and be my friend, especially you fiends who have made the switch with similar habits!
tl;dr
I have been on opioids for years, heroin almost exclusively for 3-4 months, and 2-2.5 grams of heroin IV every single day for the past 2 weeks. I was supposed to have money to get me through one more week on a lower dosage of heroin so as to facilitate an easier transition to Suboxone next weekend, but that will not be possible as the money is not there. Now, I have used my last dope as of 12-1 PM EST today (Saturday) and am facing taking a first dose of Suboxone coming off this 2 gram habit tomorrow.
I feel my habit is very large, and may cause me far more trouble than usual when switching to Suboxone. I have panic attacks whenever I switch to suboxone, for one thing, and precipitated withdrawal will almost certainly result in a call to 911. I only managed to not call 911 on at least one occasion when initiating Suboxone -- coming from a much smaller habit -- because I had my girlfriend there, and she is in another country now.
If anyone out there has been on a habit as large as my recent one -- 2-2.5 grams EVERY single day, never feeling ANY sickness which would lower dependence and tolerance, for 2 weeks or longer -- please let know what you experienced when switching to Suboxone.
If anyone out there just wants to talk about my situation, or lend some support or info, please do, especially if you know anything about coming off a habit of this size and switching to buprenorphine.
check out this thread as well, it is awesome 
. for me, promethazne and hydroxyzine have really helped me sleep and take care of nausea. i also took clonidine for anxiety and to stop sweating so much lolol.