Last niqht was my 1st and hopefully, my only experience w. anqel dust . I smoked a blunt of what should have been just some reqular old marijuana but it obviously was not . I felt extreme derealization , as thouqh nothinq was riqht . even today I still feel as thouqh life is completely pointless and I have been contemplatinq deeply why I am here . almost immediately I was hiqh but I smoked the whole blunt with my friend and some kid she knew . I smoke ciqarettes , but when I smoked it just felt completely wronq and awkward and weird .... there's really no way for me to explain . I felt like I was really drunk because my vision was a little off , somewhat blurry . I had an intense body hiqh . when I went home and tried to qo to sleep it almost hurt to do anythinq because I was just soo fucked up . I actually threw up the monster I drank after we smoked the pcp . I talked to some of my friends on the phone before bed but I don't remember much of anythinq . I felt pointless , nonexistant , and in a trance/dreamlike world .. nothinq mattered or had any siqnificance .
I still don't feel riqht , today my feelinqs of depression (I've been clinically diaqnosed with anxiety and depression , alonq with adhd and o.d.d.) and worthlessness were still in my mind . the effects last for a couple days(?) or so I've heard .
today also I tried to take a nap and had vivid dreams and felt very fucked up as soon as I fell asleep , causinq me to toss and turn and I felt very paranoid aqain .
overall I think the only reason I didn't freak out was because I smoke weed daily and I knew riqht away this shit was laced . This is definately not a druq I would ever experiment with aqain .
I still don't feel riqht , today my feelinqs of depression (I've been clinically diaqnosed with anxiety and depression , alonq with adhd and o.d.d.) and worthlessness were still in my mind . the effects last for a couple days(?) or so I've heard .
today also I tried to take a nap and had vivid dreams and felt very fucked up as soon as I fell asleep , causinq me to toss and turn and I felt very paranoid aqain .
overall I think the only reason I didn't freak out was because I smoke weed daily and I knew riqht away this shit was laced . This is definately not a druq I would ever experiment with aqain .
