snagglepussoner
Bluelighter
I was smoking a long joint between 2 other people - we used extra long papers
It took place yesterday night around 11 i'm generally pretty healthy no meds or vitamins. the day before i finished my first big corona and i smoked 2 bowls with 3 others
- my friends decided to smoke outside in a field under a tree so we were passing that joint around and them being paranoid fucks, thought public safety (college) had stopped too close to us and were starting to come towards us.
- So then they decide to get up and cross a 2 way highway.
- When i stood up i felt like i never did on weed. i felt like i couldn't stand i was all shaking and falling over and i couldn't tell whether i was awake or not. So as they start walking i'm bugging out like damn i never wanted to cross the highway in the daytime netherless at 11pm.
- We had to cross over a fence and i cut my knee and we crossed ok but i was jogging because i don't like to fuck around with cars and streets.
- Now where across the street and were walking into almost complete darkness and i'm seeing everything in slow motion i start looking around and i feel all shaky still so i kneel down trying to wake up because it still all felt like a dream.
- I knew i was wayyyy to high this time it was so weird. I told my friends i was ready to go so then we left and 2 cars passed us and then we crossed the street and i just headed straight for my room.
- In the back of my head i'm thinking that while we crossed the street i could've actually gotten hit by the car,
- and that what i was doing at the moment (which was emptying my pockets and stuff in my room) was not real and i was making it all up in my head.
- At the same time i'm telling myself what i'm doing is way too complex for me to just be thinking it.
- Then i thought maybe when your dead you do remember all this stuff and this is the afterlife, just a bunch of memories of things you knew when you were alive repeating themselves.
-I even felt all my muscles hurting me, especially my shoulders and they started aching so bad i thought they were on fire and i was probably in hell dreaming all of this, and once the dream stopped i would be in hell with all the fire and stuff.
-I had enough by 12:30am and then i get a knock on my door from some of my friends that never come by my room, and i dropped my radio and broke somethings in the process.
-So i'm thinking yooo these ppl never come by i must be out my mind....but they were just drunk and doing their druken walk around thing.
- i felt a little better that they were there so i was still trying to convince myself that i was alive. I called my friend A... because i knew she had had previous drug experiences and then i went to go see her.
-she helped me calm down a bit and gave me some water
then we headed down to a co workers room but that's another story all within itself.
- Eventually i did come down but it wasn't until 2:30 - 3am and evntually i did go to sleep even though i still feared if i went to sleep i wouldn't wake back up again
-I used to love weed but after this trip i'm quitting i couldn't go through what i did again. I really lost my mind i still can't remember all that happened last night
- i really need to call my friend A... that helped me out to tell me how i was acting.
-I scared myslef its nuts all i can hope for now is this notion that i might be dead to go away.
now i 'm just depressed
It took place yesterday night around 11 i'm generally pretty healthy no meds or vitamins. the day before i finished my first big corona and i smoked 2 bowls with 3 others
- my friends decided to smoke outside in a field under a tree so we were passing that joint around and them being paranoid fucks, thought public safety (college) had stopped too close to us and were starting to come towards us.
- So then they decide to get up and cross a 2 way highway.
- When i stood up i felt like i never did on weed. i felt like i couldn't stand i was all shaking and falling over and i couldn't tell whether i was awake or not. So as they start walking i'm bugging out like damn i never wanted to cross the highway in the daytime netherless at 11pm.
- We had to cross over a fence and i cut my knee and we crossed ok but i was jogging because i don't like to fuck around with cars and streets.
- Now where across the street and were walking into almost complete darkness and i'm seeing everything in slow motion i start looking around and i feel all shaky still so i kneel down trying to wake up because it still all felt like a dream.
- I knew i was wayyyy to high this time it was so weird. I told my friends i was ready to go so then we left and 2 cars passed us and then we crossed the street and i just headed straight for my room.
- In the back of my head i'm thinking that while we crossed the street i could've actually gotten hit by the car,
- and that what i was doing at the moment (which was emptying my pockets and stuff in my room) was not real and i was making it all up in my head.
- At the same time i'm telling myself what i'm doing is way too complex for me to just be thinking it.
- Then i thought maybe when your dead you do remember all this stuff and this is the afterlife, just a bunch of memories of things you knew when you were alive repeating themselves.
-I even felt all my muscles hurting me, especially my shoulders and they started aching so bad i thought they were on fire and i was probably in hell dreaming all of this, and once the dream stopped i would be in hell with all the fire and stuff.
-I had enough by 12:30am and then i get a knock on my door from some of my friends that never come by my room, and i dropped my radio and broke somethings in the process.
-So i'm thinking yooo these ppl never come by i must be out my mind....but they were just drunk and doing their druken walk around thing.
- i felt a little better that they were there so i was still trying to convince myself that i was alive. I called my friend A... because i knew she had had previous drug experiences and then i went to go see her.
-she helped me calm down a bit and gave me some water
then we headed down to a co workers room but that's another story all within itself.
- Eventually i did come down but it wasn't until 2:30 - 3am and evntually i did go to sleep even though i still feared if i went to sleep i wouldn't wake back up again
-I used to love weed but after this trip i'm quitting i couldn't go through what i did again. I really lost my mind i still can't remember all that happened last night
- i really need to call my friend A... that helped me out to tell me how i was acting.
-I scared myslef its nuts all i can hope for now is this notion that i might be dead to go away.
now i 'm just depressed
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