Strange thoughts in head as of late. Getting thrown out of flat is bitter sweet. Can express self and live without restraint now. Living under a new roof now, as much as I love old friends I cannot let them know where I am now.
Work was exhausting today. Rearranged store room and unloaded and organized numerous pallets by hand. Got home and passed out. Woke up hour ago to text message from girlfriend. She wanted to let me know how happy I made her. I told her how beautiful she makes life. Really has no clue to the extent I mean that. Makes life really worth it. Might not be here tonight typing this if it was'nt for her. Surely would not be person I am today. Still depressed but now there is glimmer of joy.
Broken as always I was when you came
So lost inside my thoughts where darkness rained
I was afraid for someones touch to feel so right.
But you came out like a ray of sun to melt the ice.
You brought me light
And saved my life
And through my darkest nights
Your loved shined on me
Your love shined on me.
You touched my soul
you gave me hope
And if my world goes cold,
Your love shines on me.
No longer scared to love i feel complete
Your eyes transcend me
Your touch sets me free
There is no safer place for me than in your arms
There is no doubt in my mind you'll keep me safe from harm.
Doctors appointment tomorrow morning. Only two doses of Suboxone left. Have not been doing NA meetings like doctor asked. Do not care if thrown off program. Doctor only does short detox program anyways, no long term maintenance. Have not used heroin in two weeks. Future is still uncertain.
Work was exhausting today. Rearranged store room and unloaded and organized numerous pallets by hand. Got home and passed out. Woke up hour ago to text message from girlfriend. She wanted to let me know how happy I made her. I told her how beautiful she makes life. Really has no clue to the extent I mean that. Makes life really worth it. Might not be here tonight typing this if it was'nt for her. Surely would not be person I am today. Still depressed but now there is glimmer of joy.
Broken as always I was when you came
So lost inside my thoughts where darkness rained
I was afraid for someones touch to feel so right.
But you came out like a ray of sun to melt the ice.
You brought me light
And saved my life
And through my darkest nights
Your loved shined on me
Your love shined on me.
You touched my soul
you gave me hope
And if my world goes cold,
Your love shines on me.
No longer scared to love i feel complete
Your eyes transcend me
Your touch sets me free
There is no safer place for me than in your arms
There is no doubt in my mind you'll keep me safe from harm.
Doctors appointment tomorrow morning. Only two doses of Suboxone left. Have not been doing NA meetings like doctor asked. Do not care if thrown off program. Doctor only does short detox program anyways, no long term maintenance. Have not used heroin in two weeks. Future is still uncertain.