Having a rough day. Was thrown out of flat by room mates. Always thought problem was them but turns out it was me. Ego was to big and always holding on to the past. Funny though, considering what low opinion I have of self. Was not able to change as well when everything else was changing around me. Have a new home now. Dosed Suboxone around 4pm. Felt relaxed for bit. Feeling depressed lately though. Wanted to see girlfriend tonight but she passed out like I did. Woke up to a text message from her apologizing. She is a real sweetheart. Wish i was able to spend more time with her. Makes me cry sometimes. I love her more than life itself.
Need to make four NA meeting in order to stay on Suboxone program. Really not buying the twelve step bullshit. People at meeting tell me to put faith in God. I ask them where God was when I was pumping bitter sweet liquid into my veins, or what kind of God creates such a substance. Will post for a little bit and then sleep. Work in a few hours. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.
Need to make four NA meeting in order to stay on Suboxone program. Really not buying the twelve step bullshit. People at meeting tell me to put faith in God. I ask them where God was when I was pumping bitter sweet liquid into my veins, or what kind of God creates such a substance. Will post for a little bit and then sleep. Work in a few hours. Hopefully tomorrow will be better.
