Lots of people enjoy being manic but it gets dangerous when you get "too happy" Like my sister and me both have it, she liked to take Prozac to stay up for days but her doctors won't give it to her anymore. To me the days seem to blend and I'm not taking any medication. Either side of the spectrum takes a toll emotionally, I hate being depressed and crying all the time. True manic episodes don't come that often but when they do, I am restless and can't sleep.
When I get manic my mind just spins and find it hard to concentrate. I'm off meds but if I get money in my pocket I'll spend it on alcohol but it makes me more hyper. Sometimes if I get benzos they calm me down but it doesn't last and I get more aggravated. Bupe didn't do much for me, maybe I expected some sort of buzz that didn't happen. If I ever get some health insurance, mood stabilizers would probably help.
