man you haven't lived the hard life yet

yeah it sucks...

that's when you gotta pay for your own food, your own gas, your own cell phone bill, your own clothes, and then I get a car, and then on top of that, gotta pay insurance, and on top of that, gotta pay rent, and utilities, and now I'm broke to the point that I can't eat anything but Top Ramen because that's all I can afford.

 

that'll pass. You're a fuckin' SMART dude so I'm certain easier solutions are in your immediate future.

Responsibility IS a pain in the balls though I hate it but enjoy it at the same time.

 

One thing that always works for me is to take a hard look at life around you and realise those Ramen are a whole lot better than the stir fried road kill most of the world dreams about finding. The other day I felt a bit down. I then watched a documentary on Youtube from al Jazeera English. On their "Witness" series they have these fabulously depressing films. The one I watched was about my nation of residence, the Philippines. The misery here can blow your mind. They did a piece on the old Cebu City Jail, and the kids locked up there. Here 9 year olds do time in adult prisons and you can imagine the life they have. One kid? He was as articulate as it gets, super intelligent. The oldest child of 2 drunks, his father chained him up and dropped him off at a police station at age 10 for daring to steal a can of sardines after not eating for 3 days. Yet, the can was for his younger siblings. Not much makes me blink but by the end of that documentary I was crying like a bitch, actually planned to adopt the boy. Then the filmaker was interviewed and revealed he had been killed. Still, tens of thousands just like him here, all around me...So, the moral? Ramen aint so bad, not bad at all though it certainly may seem as if it is.

 

Indeed. Responsibilities can suck, but we need to remember that if we have a roof over our heads, a bit of food in the cupboard and an actual bank account with more than a buck or two in it, then we are in the top 1.5 % of wealth people in the world.

But I feel you. I hate thinking about money. What I've done is automate as many of my payments as I can, so all that I have to do is pay off one central bill a month. Works pretty well as long as I don't buy stupid shit that I don't need. Which I'm getting better at...

 

I feel your pain. Add 2 kids to the mix, and you'll be in the same boat as me. It's hard now but it'll all be worth it. Being independent is an amazing feeling, even if it's rocky at the beginning.