"maladaptive daydreaming"

[alternatereality]

anyone heard of this? i never knw it was called that n i dont know thats what i have but for as long as i can remember ive have created elaborate fantacies in which im physically hurt or in which other unrealistic things happen. iknow these fantacies are not realities but they are impactingmy daily life as i find myself going into them more and more like while driving in the car. before these fantasies were contained to bed before i went to sleep. sometimes theyre rape "fantaicies" and i would masturbate while imagining being raped then thrown into a ditch and left to die or something happens like a car crash where im in the hospital on deaths door. these "daydreams" are not plesent, but i cannot seem to stop them and have had them since for as long as i can remember. im not on drugs atm or w/in years.

(move to dark side please)

 

[Alex000]

I would advise looking into psychotherapy if I were you as these daydreams seem to be quite troublesome. I am not sure they warrant drug-therapy, and would suggest extensive psychotherapy first, or if needed a low-dose benzodiazepine in addition to the psychotherapy. I wouldn't try to suppress these daydreams, but instead I would try to understand them and let them run their course. Don't blame yourself for such fantasy or daydreaming, because you are not to blame, just so you know. Possibly use art as an outlet, whether it is journaling, other types of writing (poetry, stories etc.), sketching, painting, sculpting etc. Anything art-involved is good therapy, and really let yourself "go" if you do these things, throw yourself into it, and be true to who you are. Even keeping a journal of your fantasies is a great idea. I would also recommend instituting or continuing healthy and constructive behaviors.

 

[Swimmingdancer]

That is all really good advice, I second it

 

[badfish45]

Certainly psychotherapy. That was sort of a symptom I had for my depression, but not quite the same, as I really didn't get much pleasure out of it. I used to imagine myself just ODing on a drug and how I feel I'd be happier if I was unhappy. I don't have much to say, but Alex000 basically took the words right out of my mouth. I know how hard those thoughts can be to control so psychoanalysis seems like the most effective option.