Benefits of death
Greenlighter
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- May 23, 2017
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I have been feeling depressed for the past year and it has recently gotten worse so i began seeking medical help and i was put on lorazepam, Zoloft, and xanax, and clexa. celexa and xanax seems to only make my panic attacks slightly less violent but i still get them and the feeling that i'm gonna die happening8- 15 times a day and it has been taking a toll on me. The celexa helps with my mood slightly but i always get the nagging pain of the flashbacks to my abuse as a younger child. I have trouble sleeping and fall asleep around 7am in the morning despite going to bed at around 11 pm then i sleep for at most 2 and 1/2 hours sometimes i cant sleep for 2 days straight and i eventually faint, and luckily haven't hit my head yet. No sleeping meds have helped me yet. The anxiety makes everything more difficult and hard to deal with. Smoking has been my realease because i cant calm down without it. I am trying not to drink because my grandma from my moms side and grandpa from my dad's side both died due to their alcohol addiction. i have been trying to resist suicide as much as i can because my dad really only have eachother and he would be crushed if anyhting happened to me. He was so worried when were where talking about my mom and his dad and i had a mental break down and panic attack and started punching a woodden post to blow off some steam and messed the post and might have broken my hand not sure yet it happened last night. I am going to a counselor and a licensed psychiatrist soon. Do you guys have any recommendations? How did you deal with it? How long will this last?
Edit: sorry if i did something wrong in my text i apologize i am new to this site
Edit: sorry if i did something wrong in my text i apologize i am new to this site