Seattle_Stranger
Bluelighter
It's probably safe to say that most drug users who research their drugs on the internet, and many in turn sign up for HR forums like this, for what reason? As a safety precaution, to be educated on how the drugs will affect us and how to protect ourselves from damage. Most of us act upon the information we find, and take actions to protect our bodies from harm while using these drugs. One thing that is easy to over look, though, is the psychological effect drugs can have on a person's life, no matter how careful they're being.
Personally, I love drugs, I only began smoking weed habitually about 2.5 years ago, and dabbling in other things in less, so it's all pretty new to me. It's a fascinating world, and I'm enjoying my adventures here, and also taking just about every safety precaution I can. I don't take anything addicting often enough to become dependent, I space out my usages, take vitamins and neuro-protective methods when using hard stuff, and most of all I stay extremely informed about everything I do. However, no matter what I do, ever since I started dabbling with drugs, I could feel a psychological dependency developing over time to drugs themselves. Just as any other fun-as-hell hobby would, snowboarding, auto-x, playing music, if you love it enough, you're going to think about it all the time. Normally, it wouldn't be so bad to think about your hobby all the time, but when I think about drugs all the time, it takes it's toll on my mood. Now, I notice that drugs are on my mind way, way more than I'd like. All I want to do is read about them, try new ones, explore alternate states of consciousness, and when I have drugs in my possession, it's insanely hard for me to not obsess over the fact that they're there until I take them. I'm losing/have lost excitement for many other things in life, and while I can still get into things, enjoy them, have fun, I always come back around full circle to wanting drugs again. I don't obsess over other things like I used to, like my car. I used to think about my car as much as I now think about drugs. I also would now rather spend my money on a steady flow of weed than save it for upgrades for the car. Same goes for my music passion. I often find little interest in playing music. Also, my girlfriend notices my weakening excitement for her and our 4.5 year relationship.
Now, I'm at the point where the thought of life completely without drugs scares the piss out of me. It sounds sooooo boring and mundane. At least when i'm bored now, I can smoke a bowl! Or on those really long boring days, or evenings after hard work, or stressful days, I can sit down with a cup of kratom tea and put my body and mind at ease for a while!! And on those nights out with friends, what the hell beats a few caps of molly between you and some buddies!! To think that I went so long through life without this convenience baffles me. I DO NOT WANT TO THINK LIKE THIS.
So my question is, how do any of you maintain a relationship with drugs while not losing excitement for other things in life? The obvious answer is you can't, I should probably stop taking drugs altogether and move on with my life. The less obvious answer is to do less drugs and make it a point to focus on other things in my life that I know I enjoy, and enjoy them sober, and often.
I'm a ~healthy 25 year old, great house, great job, great car, great girlfriend, friends, family, money, etc.. I'm in a great life, and i can honestly say drugs have made major positive contributions to my life, however I also feel like they're taking many away too. Aside from the obvious answers, what do you guys do to maintain the forbidden romance that is alternate states of mind?
Thanks, and please don't flame me. I feel like a discussion will help.
Personally, I love drugs, I only began smoking weed habitually about 2.5 years ago, and dabbling in other things in less, so it's all pretty new to me. It's a fascinating world, and I'm enjoying my adventures here, and also taking just about every safety precaution I can. I don't take anything addicting often enough to become dependent, I space out my usages, take vitamins and neuro-protective methods when using hard stuff, and most of all I stay extremely informed about everything I do. However, no matter what I do, ever since I started dabbling with drugs, I could feel a psychological dependency developing over time to drugs themselves. Just as any other fun-as-hell hobby would, snowboarding, auto-x, playing music, if you love it enough, you're going to think about it all the time. Normally, it wouldn't be so bad to think about your hobby all the time, but when I think about drugs all the time, it takes it's toll on my mood. Now, I notice that drugs are on my mind way, way more than I'd like. All I want to do is read about them, try new ones, explore alternate states of consciousness, and when I have drugs in my possession, it's insanely hard for me to not obsess over the fact that they're there until I take them. I'm losing/have lost excitement for many other things in life, and while I can still get into things, enjoy them, have fun, I always come back around full circle to wanting drugs again. I don't obsess over other things like I used to, like my car. I used to think about my car as much as I now think about drugs. I also would now rather spend my money on a steady flow of weed than save it for upgrades for the car. Same goes for my music passion. I often find little interest in playing music. Also, my girlfriend notices my weakening excitement for her and our 4.5 year relationship.
Now, I'm at the point where the thought of life completely without drugs scares the piss out of me. It sounds sooooo boring and mundane. At least when i'm bored now, I can smoke a bowl! Or on those really long boring days, or evenings after hard work, or stressful days, I can sit down with a cup of kratom tea and put my body and mind at ease for a while!! And on those nights out with friends, what the hell beats a few caps of molly between you and some buddies!! To think that I went so long through life without this convenience baffles me. I DO NOT WANT TO THINK LIKE THIS.
So my question is, how do any of you maintain a relationship with drugs while not losing excitement for other things in life? The obvious answer is you can't, I should probably stop taking drugs altogether and move on with my life. The less obvious answer is to do less drugs and make it a point to focus on other things in my life that I know I enjoy, and enjoy them sober, and often.
I'm a ~healthy 25 year old, great house, great job, great car, great girlfriend, friends, family, money, etc.. I'm in a great life, and i can honestly say drugs have made major positive contributions to my life, however I also feel like they're taking many away too. Aside from the obvious answers, what do you guys do to maintain the forbidden romance that is alternate states of mind?
Thanks, and please don't flame me. I feel like a discussion will help.
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