Maintaining Sanity in Chronic Conditions

[ndub]

that female energy thing is weird now that you mention it. i feel like i understand women more, and one time my mom took me to costco when i was super high, and i was helping her pick out fake plants, and apparently i picked out the best ones they had on selection cuz we were swamped with other women as we were walking out of the store and everyone was making a big deal about them. sometimes i watch chick flicks too, like a few weekends ago i watched black swan. while it wasn't my favorite movie, i still made the decision to rent it, which i'm sure a lot of guys wouldn't just randomly rent black swan lol.

note: i don't act feminine in any way if you saw me in real life, and i am definitely not attracted to guys, nor do i plan on having a sex change operation any time soon (or ever for that matter lol). while you're friend's case may be one of the extremes, that point that you made is rather interesting about the feminine energy.

It's nothing to be ashamed of. One thing I noticed is that most of the stoners I hung around with were not good with women. There were almost never any around and we never talked about them. Me and rave, probably much like many other chronic smokers, were using weed to fill that void. We were lacking that feminine energy from our lives, either through our parents or from lack of experience with other women. I'm not surprised that weed is tied into depression this way as well - it definitely made me depressed at some points in my life.

 

[hydrochron]

rave & ndub,

The feminine energy you guys are talking and the inability to connect with women seems to be another commonality, I've experienced the same thing, also never had a girlfriend. During my heavy smoking periods, while tripping on certain substances, the feminine feeling was particularly pronounced. I guess there's a benefit to it because it's easier to understand how women normally feel.

ndub,

I don't think that there's a reliable way to tell just by looking at it unless you know the local product that goes around. One way to infer what kind of strain it is would be to look at how people who are already smoking it are acting (in other words, use human guinea pigs). The other way is to try a small dose and judge it by how you feel.

hydrochron,

I do some creative writing too, in the form of poetry, and don't want to give this up entirely because, as you said, creativity blossoms on it. What kind of smoking schedule works best for you? How long do you leave between sessions?

Well what I was saying is that the creativity is alot more "powerful" when the tolerance is low. For me it seems like the creativity will just come and go if i've been smoking alot.

I try to limit my self to every 3 hours. Switching strains also helps do the trick. Most of all though when you stop getting the effects you want, it's important to take a break for a few weeks if not longer.

 

[Muddle]

Yeah basically alot of herbal supplements, fishoil, vitamins, etc and you should be good.

There is an endless list of ones that can help, it goes on and on.

Also I think many people forget to meditate and excercise (such as yoga)

 

[Korn3x]

been smoking again 4 days now. things have been going pretty well i think. i've definitely become much more active, and am playing pick-up basketball games again at my college gym. hittin the weights more frequently too. even motivated myself to study a little harder than normal cuz i knew i was gonna be lightin up later. today i quit a little early, as i just lit up when i knew i should be going over some more study materials. the plan is to maybe do a few look overs b4 i become too high, but we'll see how that turns out lol. besides i can always just do it tomorrow morning by going for the early wake-up (i love doing this. it's my favorite thing to do, even though i know the early wake-up only happens less than 50% of the time, it's so relaxing just telling myself i'll worry about it tomorrow lol).

 

[rave_itsrealfun!!!]

haha ya i used to do that a lot. smoke too much early on, burn out and consider the day complete and i'd have no choice but to continue blazing and ignoring important tasks. I'd be in bed way early and wake up at sunrise. Massive lab report due I haven't started yet, and don't even understand the motions I went through while carrying out the experiment? Plus a physics midterm and the weekly 4 assignments to do? Ahhhh, i'm too high, i'll just watch this nature documentary and forget my troubles. and then get a nice 12 hour sleep. great times. except i'd just end up wake and baking first thing the next day anyway. how the hell i got my degree i'm not exactly sure but luckily there isn't much memory work in physics and that helped.

I was on a rooftop the other day, 30 stories up. I was watching fireworks go off around the city, and there were many planes flying around as well (Canada Day) and the stars were nice. I shared a joint with my bud and had a great time. The high was not at all as I remember it. It was very intense, felt great and was psychedelic in nature. My friend and I found ourselves discussing topics such as why do we exist? Where does all this energy come from and what is the point of it all? Do we exist merely because it is possible for us to exist? However, I have not had the desire to smoke again since. I will not be purchasing marijuana nor will I be smoking with my friends again any time soon. I think once a month may make for a worthwhile and controllable habit, and hey, i'll never have to spend money on pot. I think this thread, among other things has helped me out.

 

[Korn3x]

^^
lol ya that's what happened to me. it was about 7 days ago a good friend of mine smoked me out for old times sake when i went back home for a few days, and next thing you know a few days later i already scored some of my own lol.

my break from it didn't give me as much of tolerance drop as i wanted. i still don't have a huge tolerance, but i miss the more "trippy" aspects that i used to get. maybe its just the strain i got. it's pretty good, but isn't as much of a mental high as i would enjoy. my favorite pot is the kind that really gets you super euphoric, and you're almost twitching from the euphoria if you know what i mean.

oh by the way the early wake-up didn't happen. didnt wake up til 2pm. hittin the books now tho. i just gotta try and off-set my spark-up time to past 9 tonight and i think i'll be standing a lil better. at least we got no school tomorrow, so tomorrow is like another sunday

 

[rave_itsrealfun!!!]

that's my favourite pot as well- bursting euphoria, uncontrollable grin, pretty much on cloud 9 haha.

it's taking an extreme amount of willpower not to buy pot right now, and it's been 2 days since i smoked. i just know where i'm going to end up if i do- chasing that high i had 2 days ago and ending up just burning out and wasting my week. but at the same time, i would be satisfying my urge to go climb a tree outside and smoke a nice joint while perched on a branch. and maybe do some stoned yoga later. and then wake up after a refreshing sleep, have a delicious stoned breakfast and then hit the gym stoned as well...

i've learned my lesson and i'm not buying a bag, enjoying the odd joint is an impossibility for me... i already knew that. always gotta be watching out for the dope monster, i just came dangerously close to becoming a fiend again.

 

[Korn3x]

so i didn't get much studying accomplished today. my adderall didn't finally start working for me til a little bit ago which i'm pissed about. i should be trying to get the most out of it by studying for the next few hours, but then i'll be all bummed out for wasting my night studying (which i really need to get over..). i think i'm just gonna try and kill the adderall by binging on acidic things. think im just gonna drink and smoke some herb now. i'm going to leave reminder notes out trying to remind myself to get to bed on a decent time.

fuck.. my medicine is working good right now too. if the libraries weren't closed this weekend i would have had a productiveday, but whenever i try to study in my apt. i never am very productive, even with adderall. ima have to try and find a random place to study tomorrow. setting 8 alarms, hopefully i won't subconsciously turn them all off in the morning. wish me luck.

good luck in holding out. it's hard man. i just broke down right now and am reaching for the herb. i feel so disappointed in myself though. i was really counting on this weekend to catch up in school. going for the early wake-up though (just typing that takes so much stress off, as i know i can put off all my assignments til tomorrow lol. unfortunately, i never have an "accurate" grasp of how much work this really entails, so tomorrow should be hell.

 

[rave_itsrealfun!!!]

I'm completely convinced now that I cannot control use even infrequently as monthly.

It took 4 full days for my head to clear out and the constant cravings to subside. Luckily I made it through but I came really close to buying an ounce, many times. It was a waste of 4 days. Really not worth it at all...

 

[ndub]

I'm completely convinced now that I cannot control use even infrequently as monthly.

It took 4 full days for my head to clear out and the constant cravings to subside. Luckily I made it through but I came really close to buying an ounce, many times. It was a waste of 4 days. Really not worth it at all...

Im wondering why you decided to smoke in the first place. You were pretty spot on with your analysis in your first post, why did you make such a drastic change in your mind to make that decision?

Also, I don't get as bad cravings as you do after a smoke session. Im curious as to how your mental state was within those 4 days after you smoked. Were you anxious? Apathetic? Did you have any loss of confidence?

 

[DrunkardsDream]

If you don't like getting stoned and don't like what herb does to you or if it makes you anxious, depressed, paranoid or whatever other issues the OP wrote about why smoke it at all?

I happen to enjoy smoking herb and even when I have smoked daily for periods of time I did not have what the OP described happen to me.

I've never ever been angry or seen someone else get angry from smoking herb like the OP wrote about.

 

[rave_itsrealfun!!!]

I smoked cause I was at a Canada day kegger earlier in the day and failed socially interacting with some girls. Seems like it is still an impossibility for me, I'm too far out. I'm never around girls and saw that party as my only opportunity this summer really. Became depressed as fuck and smoking pot is the only thing I know how to ease the pain of that. Oh well, I need to work on being happy alone, cause it's all I'm ever going to be.

For those 4 days, I was pretty depressed and really wanted to buy more pot. I'm sure this had to do with females, and not the aftereffects of the marijuana. I'm through it now and doing well again.

 

[ProducedRaw]

So I got high yesterday after a 2 week break and holy shit did I get high. Still got a bit left which I'm going to finish tonight then I'm going to take another 2 week break.

DrunkardsDream,

I noticed that I had anger issues even when not smoking. I feel a lot calmer today so it's quite possible that I simply have some psychological issues which are causing it and that I was self-medicating with herb to keep it at bay. I'm digging in my brain to see what the real cause is. I have a feeling that it has something to do with my upbringing, there was a lot of arguing and shouting in the house when I was a kid so maybe it rubbed off on me.

 

[ndub]

I smoked cause I was at a Canada day kegger earlier in the day and failed socially interacting with some girls. Seems like it is still an impossibility for me, I'm too far out. I'm never around girls and saw that party as my only opportunity this summer really. Became depressed as fuck and smoking pot is the only thing I know how to ease the pain of that. Oh well, I need to work on being happy alone, cause it's all I'm ever going to be.

For those 4 days, I was pretty depressed and really wanted to buy more pot. I'm sure this had to do with females, and not the aftereffects of the marijuana. I'm through it now and doing well again.

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