sparkle_jez
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This was my first true experience with mushrooms, though I have taken many other psychedelics many times in the past.
Sorry if this isn't very good, but I find it really difficult describing my experiences!
But here it is anyway:
T- 5.00 hrs:
The package arrived this morning in a morning glory seed packet (lol very witty of my friend).
I have been anticipating this all day, but am beginning to have second thoughts on whether I should do them tonight for a couple of reasons:
Firstly, because I have a slight hangover still and recently I’ve been getting a lot of anxiety when on psychoactive substances that something is wrong with my body! The hangover may bring this paranoia to life if I shroom.
Secondly, because my brother is going to be home just as I start coming down. I am not sure if I could handle this. It may ruin my trip. But then again, if the peak effects are over I should be ok. I have handled family members whilst still tripping on acid, so I could probably handle this!
But still, I am having second thoughts and I’m wondering if I should just wait until tomorrow where I could have a day trip, wouldn’t be hung over, and would have the whole house to myself!
But I’ve got a feeling that my anticipation is going to get the better of me and I’ll probably end up doing them in 5 hours! LOL
T-+0.00 hrs (8.15pm April 31st)
Well, I have decided to postpone my trip.
I didn’t feel that the setting was right for this, there were too many things that could go wrong. My brother being here, the hangover, and a feeling that I hadn’t prepared enough for this trip were the main factors that lead to this decision!
For once I thought I’d actually listen to the wiser, experienced side of myself! I’m surprised I actually managed to do this and hold back the burning anticipation!!! I’m also very glad.
I’m being so cautious and particular about the set and setting, because this is my first time with mushrooms, and I know from past experience with other psychedelics that set and setting make or break a trip. So I’m aiming for perfection this time. No mistakes this time round (*touchwood*).
T-2.20hrs. (6.38pm May 1st):
Haven’t eaten much today, mainly toast with baked beans and those little sausages….Just having my last ‘meal’ now, which is simply 4 slices of toast! I wanted toast because it’s the lightest thing I could think of!
I am feeling pretty good at the moment. I am just about to investigate the shrooms closer now, just to check that nothing bad has happened to them. That is my only real concern at the moment, that there might be something wrong with them! But I honestly think they are fine, except they smell awful!
Still haven’t decided how to take them. I might try and bomb the lot, but I’m thinking there’s a fair amount of material here, and so it might not be practical!
Well, aside from that my mood is good. I’m certainly looking forward to this. Toady I’ve just been chilling, and now I’m preparing everything. Videos, music, trip toys, pre-rolling joints etc.
7.35pm T-1.25hrs.
Investigated shrooms, and they fucking smell so awful!!
I’ve grinded them down, not quite all into powder, but small granules. I have just tried making a bomb, and the size of it is like a 1/16 of cannabis resin…….There is still about 4/5’s of the grounded up mushroom left!!! I am guessing here, but I reckon there is easily 6 grams here, maybe even a quarter altogether!
So I’m probably going to only take half of this stuff now! Wait, then if I’m feeling nothing, eat the rest!
I have no idea however, how I’m going to bomb all this. I don’t think I can handle that amount of paper in my stomach!! I’m probably going to just drink the rest, might make a tea.
Probably should’ve prepared all this earlier!
8.17pm T-0.13 minutes:
I can’t wait any longer and I’m feeling ready so I’ve decided to take it!
I’ve prepared most of the shrooms in honey. I’m going to wash this down with a cup of normal tea I’ve just made. I’m nervous from excitement!!
Here it goes!
8.41pm T+0.11minutes
I don’t understand this!! I’m already starting to feel this after 11 minutes of taking this! I still have some mushroom tea left, but most the dose was munched in the honey.
My pupils are beginning to dilate!! Though it’s strange because my right pupil is larger than the left.
T+0.16 minutes:
It’s getting difficult to write. I’m noticing halos around objects. Slight tracers whilst I type.
This is beginning to like the first waves of a acid trip!
I’m having the similar feeling of being on a high roller coaster about to zoom down at ridiculously high speed…. On the verge of something spectacular!
Feeling hot, fidgety.
Note: This was the last thing written the whole night, so I’ll try to recall the rest now.
T+0.30minutes:
I feel uncomfortable and fidgety. Anxiety is high. However, I don’t panic or freak out because I know this is normal. However, I do find it difficult to maintain as I begin to get some increased open eye visuals. The open eye visuals are interesting, different to LSD, I notice ‘rainbows’ around my light and around the TV, and I also notice ‘star’ type patterning on certain objects. I notice movement in my peripheral.
I haven’t been able to settle down at this point as I feel that I am perhaps coming up too fast, and I begin to wonder whether I should’ve taken the whole dose. My heart rate is insane, and the thumping pulsates all the way through my body. I begin to feel nauseous but try to ignore it.
T+0.45minutes:
The anxiety has subsided slightly, and the thumping in my chest has subsided. But the nausea is more pronounced. I go down stairs to pee, and resist the urge to puke. On the way to the bathroom, I look in the mirror. The amount of dilation scares me! My pupils are so dilated that my dark brown eyes have disappeared and now I have some sort of black-eyed Martian starring at me!! I find this hilarious. Then I walk back upstairs.
I am finding it difficult to walk at this point, a strange sort of ’drunkenness’ , a ‘giddy’ dizzy feeling which I wasn’t expecting.
The open eye visuals are more pronounced, I begin to get acid-type ‘fractals’ over my deep purple walls. The walls begin to breathe.
I decide to put some music on, and decide on Infected Mushroom (naturally lol), but I find this just becomes far too hectic and adds to the chaos that is ensuing, closed-eye visuals now so intense I can’t keep my eyes closed because it’s too much of a sensory overload!
At this point I think I am beginning to peak…But I am very wrong!
T+1.00hr.
I am now feeling terribly nauseous, which is interfering slightly with my trip. I am now beginning to peak.
I was absolutely blown away by the stunning open eye visuals, they were actually too much for me to handle at this point.
I tried walking down stairs to try and puke, but found that I could barely walk. I had a strange feeling in my head, like a massive pressure at the side son the temples. I supposed this was the drug taking effect on my neurochemistry, because I have had these sensations on high doses of MDMA in the past many ,many times.
This ‘pressure’ however seemed to make me extremely disorientated and dizzy, to the point where I believed I was going to pass out. I felt unable to stay conscious….. MASSIVE sensory overload!
I could barely walk to the toilet, and it took forever to get there, as the walls had began to start to literately melt away, and doorways began to distort and turn on there sides. The door at the end of the hallway suddenly stretched away and I found that I had to walk a good 30 metres to get to it!
As I began to stumble my way to the toilet I looked at my hands, and they were about half the size of my entire body!! Then I had the weirdest sensation I’ve ever had on any psychedelic….I suddenly began to feel like I was actually melting into the ground! That my skin was just flobbing right down into the floor, and the sensation that I was made of a rubbery/liquid!
When I finally got into the toilet, I just didn’t feel I could puke, so I tried standing still to pee.
As I looked down into the toilet bowl, I began to feel as though I was melting into it! I actually believed that my head was inside the toilet bowl but my body and legs were still peeing into the bowl (This is strangely similar to the ketamine effect)!! So I immediately thought; “Fuck! I am peeing over my head!” , So I pull away, hitting the door behind me! This snaps me out of it slightly, though I still have the sensation that I am made of liquid and that parts of my body could fall off or melt into the ground at any moment!
When I finally manage to get back to my bedroom after many hours of trying (probably more like minutes, massive time distortion at this point), I still feel like I’m on the verge of puking.
I lay on my bed, and play some guitar. Strangely enough, this actually calms everything down nicely. It makes me feel less sick, and I find that I can just relax and let my thoughts flow smoothly. Playing guitar is difficult however, due to the crazy tracers, and the fact that it appears there are now 12-strings on my guitar instead of 6! But I manage.
I don’t know how long I was playing guitar on my back, probably about 30 minutes though again, it felt much much longer, and at one point I remember just everything going quiet, dead silent, except for this constant eerie ringing and popping in my ears, and I am staring into space, dreaming, then I look around me, and everything is frozen! The visual patterning on the walls are still there, but they are not moving. This was like a freeze frame of the moment, and it lasted for several seconds. Time itself had stopped! Then everything began to slowly start moving again!!
This was becoming too much for my poor little brain!
T+3.30hrs
I still feel terribly sick, though the effects are beginning to wear off now, the visuals are subsiding. Still getting ‘fractals’ ‘stars’ and ‘rainbows’, but no more melting. I am no longer a liquid either, which I’m sort of happy about! My body feels solid again.
On one hand, I am glad that it appears to be subsiding, because I knew that this was a far too higher dose for me! But on the other hand, I begin to feel really sad that it is all over.
I come down sharply, not slowly like on LSD, but instead a very sudden diminish in effects. I didn’t like this. It seemed that it was all over too soon.
I begin to have a great sense of loss, of that some wonderful gift I had been given had been taken away from me. This reminded me of the first time I ever took MDMA, and the feeling of loss I felt then. This was similar, but had more of ‘realness’ to it. Genuine loss.
T+4.00hrs
Open eye visuals all but gone now, and I’m feeling strangely low, and extremely tired. I go downstairs, and pupil dilation is still very pronounced, but my eyes are extremely read and closed. I feel incredibly dreamy and ‘floaty’.
My stomach doesn’t feel good at all, I’m getting some build up of pressure and some nasty cramps.
I decide now would be a good time to smoke some of my skunk. This helps with the stomach cramps, and makes me feel a bit better in general. It also seems to increase the ‘introspect’.
I decide that this is my favourite part of any trip: The coming down. Putting all the pieces back together gently. Making sense of what just happened. I start to realise that this is probably the most important part of any trip. Psychonaut re-entry!
I start to feel better now, still have a feeling of loss, but also coming to realisations about certain aspects of my life. Trying to work out what the evening meant.
T+6.00hrs
Stomach pains still quite nasty. All noticeable effects gone. So I decide to take some codeine for the stomach and have some light food.
I fall asleep surprisingly quickly.
I wake up twice in the morning, but get back to sleep quickly. Dreams are intense!
First impressions/Conclusion:
Well, I have to say I massively underestimated the power of the mushroom, and I have to say I paid dearly! I had the stupid ignorant attitude that because I managed to handle acid and ketamine on hundreds of occasions, that mushrooms would be nothing!! But alas, the 6+ grams was far FAR too much!! There was so much about mushroom effects that set it apart from LSD, LSA K etc. The visuals were like nothing I’d ever seen on anything else. Mushroom visuals have there own character it seems, with the distinct ‘rainbows’, and the ‘star’ patterning. Very cool!
As for the turning into a liquid, what can I say!? Wow.
The Sacred Mushrooms now have my ultimate respect. I will definitely be experimenting with them in the future. I can see a long and beautiful relationship coming out of all this!
Though next time, I will probably take half this dose, definitely no more than 3.5 grams!
P.S
Does taking mushrooms fresh help at all with the nausea? Was it because I took them dry that I experienced such intense nausea, or was it just because I took too much!?
Your thoughts.
Sorry if this isn't very good, but I find it really difficult describing my experiences!
But here it is anyway:
T- 5.00 hrs:
The package arrived this morning in a morning glory seed packet (lol very witty of my friend).
I have been anticipating this all day, but am beginning to have second thoughts on whether I should do them tonight for a couple of reasons:
Firstly, because I have a slight hangover still and recently I’ve been getting a lot of anxiety when on psychoactive substances that something is wrong with my body! The hangover may bring this paranoia to life if I shroom.
Secondly, because my brother is going to be home just as I start coming down. I am not sure if I could handle this. It may ruin my trip. But then again, if the peak effects are over I should be ok. I have handled family members whilst still tripping on acid, so I could probably handle this!
But still, I am having second thoughts and I’m wondering if I should just wait until tomorrow where I could have a day trip, wouldn’t be hung over, and would have the whole house to myself!
But I’ve got a feeling that my anticipation is going to get the better of me and I’ll probably end up doing them in 5 hours! LOL
T-+0.00 hrs (8.15pm April 31st)
Well, I have decided to postpone my trip.
I didn’t feel that the setting was right for this, there were too many things that could go wrong. My brother being here, the hangover, and a feeling that I hadn’t prepared enough for this trip were the main factors that lead to this decision!
For once I thought I’d actually listen to the wiser, experienced side of myself! I’m surprised I actually managed to do this and hold back the burning anticipation!!! I’m also very glad.
I’m being so cautious and particular about the set and setting, because this is my first time with mushrooms, and I know from past experience with other psychedelics that set and setting make or break a trip. So I’m aiming for perfection this time. No mistakes this time round (*touchwood*).
T-2.20hrs. (6.38pm May 1st):
Haven’t eaten much today, mainly toast with baked beans and those little sausages….Just having my last ‘meal’ now, which is simply 4 slices of toast! I wanted toast because it’s the lightest thing I could think of!
I am feeling pretty good at the moment. I am just about to investigate the shrooms closer now, just to check that nothing bad has happened to them. That is my only real concern at the moment, that there might be something wrong with them! But I honestly think they are fine, except they smell awful!
Still haven’t decided how to take them. I might try and bomb the lot, but I’m thinking there’s a fair amount of material here, and so it might not be practical!
Well, aside from that my mood is good. I’m certainly looking forward to this. Toady I’ve just been chilling, and now I’m preparing everything. Videos, music, trip toys, pre-rolling joints etc.
7.35pm T-1.25hrs.
Investigated shrooms, and they fucking smell so awful!!
I’ve grinded them down, not quite all into powder, but small granules. I have just tried making a bomb, and the size of it is like a 1/16 of cannabis resin…….There is still about 4/5’s of the grounded up mushroom left!!! I am guessing here, but I reckon there is easily 6 grams here, maybe even a quarter altogether!
So I’m probably going to only take half of this stuff now! Wait, then if I’m feeling nothing, eat the rest!
I have no idea however, how I’m going to bomb all this. I don’t think I can handle that amount of paper in my stomach!! I’m probably going to just drink the rest, might make a tea.
Probably should’ve prepared all this earlier!
8.17pm T-0.13 minutes:
I can’t wait any longer and I’m feeling ready so I’ve decided to take it!
I’ve prepared most of the shrooms in honey. I’m going to wash this down with a cup of normal tea I’ve just made. I’m nervous from excitement!!
Here it goes!
8.41pm T+0.11minutes
I don’t understand this!! I’m already starting to feel this after 11 minutes of taking this! I still have some mushroom tea left, but most the dose was munched in the honey.
My pupils are beginning to dilate!! Though it’s strange because my right pupil is larger than the left.
T+0.16 minutes:
It’s getting difficult to write. I’m noticing halos around objects. Slight tracers whilst I type.
This is beginning to like the first waves of a acid trip!
I’m having the similar feeling of being on a high roller coaster about to zoom down at ridiculously high speed…. On the verge of something spectacular!
Feeling hot, fidgety.
Note: This was the last thing written the whole night, so I’ll try to recall the rest now.
T+0.30minutes:
I feel uncomfortable and fidgety. Anxiety is high. However, I don’t panic or freak out because I know this is normal. However, I do find it difficult to maintain as I begin to get some increased open eye visuals. The open eye visuals are interesting, different to LSD, I notice ‘rainbows’ around my light and around the TV, and I also notice ‘star’ type patterning on certain objects. I notice movement in my peripheral.
I haven’t been able to settle down at this point as I feel that I am perhaps coming up too fast, and I begin to wonder whether I should’ve taken the whole dose. My heart rate is insane, and the thumping pulsates all the way through my body. I begin to feel nauseous but try to ignore it.
T+0.45minutes:
The anxiety has subsided slightly, and the thumping in my chest has subsided. But the nausea is more pronounced. I go down stairs to pee, and resist the urge to puke. On the way to the bathroom, I look in the mirror. The amount of dilation scares me! My pupils are so dilated that my dark brown eyes have disappeared and now I have some sort of black-eyed Martian starring at me!! I find this hilarious. Then I walk back upstairs.
I am finding it difficult to walk at this point, a strange sort of ’drunkenness’ , a ‘giddy’ dizzy feeling which I wasn’t expecting.
The open eye visuals are more pronounced, I begin to get acid-type ‘fractals’ over my deep purple walls. The walls begin to breathe.
I decide to put some music on, and decide on Infected Mushroom (naturally lol), but I find this just becomes far too hectic and adds to the chaos that is ensuing, closed-eye visuals now so intense I can’t keep my eyes closed because it’s too much of a sensory overload!
At this point I think I am beginning to peak…But I am very wrong!
T+1.00hr.
I am now feeling terribly nauseous, which is interfering slightly with my trip. I am now beginning to peak.
I was absolutely blown away by the stunning open eye visuals, they were actually too much for me to handle at this point.
I tried walking down stairs to try and puke, but found that I could barely walk. I had a strange feeling in my head, like a massive pressure at the side son the temples. I supposed this was the drug taking effect on my neurochemistry, because I have had these sensations on high doses of MDMA in the past many ,many times.
This ‘pressure’ however seemed to make me extremely disorientated and dizzy, to the point where I believed I was going to pass out. I felt unable to stay conscious….. MASSIVE sensory overload!
I could barely walk to the toilet, and it took forever to get there, as the walls had began to start to literately melt away, and doorways began to distort and turn on there sides. The door at the end of the hallway suddenly stretched away and I found that I had to walk a good 30 metres to get to it!
As I began to stumble my way to the toilet I looked at my hands, and they were about half the size of my entire body!! Then I had the weirdest sensation I’ve ever had on any psychedelic….I suddenly began to feel like I was actually melting into the ground! That my skin was just flobbing right down into the floor, and the sensation that I was made of a rubbery/liquid!
When I finally got into the toilet, I just didn’t feel I could puke, so I tried standing still to pee.
As I looked down into the toilet bowl, I began to feel as though I was melting into it! I actually believed that my head was inside the toilet bowl but my body and legs were still peeing into the bowl (This is strangely similar to the ketamine effect)!! So I immediately thought; “Fuck! I am peeing over my head!” , So I pull away, hitting the door behind me! This snaps me out of it slightly, though I still have the sensation that I am made of liquid and that parts of my body could fall off or melt into the ground at any moment!
When I finally manage to get back to my bedroom after many hours of trying (probably more like minutes, massive time distortion at this point), I still feel like I’m on the verge of puking.
I lay on my bed, and play some guitar. Strangely enough, this actually calms everything down nicely. It makes me feel less sick, and I find that I can just relax and let my thoughts flow smoothly. Playing guitar is difficult however, due to the crazy tracers, and the fact that it appears there are now 12-strings on my guitar instead of 6! But I manage.
I don’t know how long I was playing guitar on my back, probably about 30 minutes though again, it felt much much longer, and at one point I remember just everything going quiet, dead silent, except for this constant eerie ringing and popping in my ears, and I am staring into space, dreaming, then I look around me, and everything is frozen! The visual patterning on the walls are still there, but they are not moving. This was like a freeze frame of the moment, and it lasted for several seconds. Time itself had stopped! Then everything began to slowly start moving again!!
This was becoming too much for my poor little brain!
T+3.30hrs
I still feel terribly sick, though the effects are beginning to wear off now, the visuals are subsiding. Still getting ‘fractals’ ‘stars’ and ‘rainbows’, but no more melting. I am no longer a liquid either, which I’m sort of happy about! My body feels solid again.
On one hand, I am glad that it appears to be subsiding, because I knew that this was a far too higher dose for me! But on the other hand, I begin to feel really sad that it is all over.
I come down sharply, not slowly like on LSD, but instead a very sudden diminish in effects. I didn’t like this. It seemed that it was all over too soon.
I begin to have a great sense of loss, of that some wonderful gift I had been given had been taken away from me. This reminded me of the first time I ever took MDMA, and the feeling of loss I felt then. This was similar, but had more of ‘realness’ to it. Genuine loss.
T+4.00hrs
Open eye visuals all but gone now, and I’m feeling strangely low, and extremely tired. I go downstairs, and pupil dilation is still very pronounced, but my eyes are extremely read and closed. I feel incredibly dreamy and ‘floaty’.
My stomach doesn’t feel good at all, I’m getting some build up of pressure and some nasty cramps.
I decide now would be a good time to smoke some of my skunk. This helps with the stomach cramps, and makes me feel a bit better in general. It also seems to increase the ‘introspect’.
I decide that this is my favourite part of any trip: The coming down. Putting all the pieces back together gently. Making sense of what just happened. I start to realise that this is probably the most important part of any trip. Psychonaut re-entry!
I start to feel better now, still have a feeling of loss, but also coming to realisations about certain aspects of my life. Trying to work out what the evening meant.
T+6.00hrs
Stomach pains still quite nasty. All noticeable effects gone. So I decide to take some codeine for the stomach and have some light food.
I fall asleep surprisingly quickly.
I wake up twice in the morning, but get back to sleep quickly. Dreams are intense!
First impressions/Conclusion:
Well, I have to say I massively underestimated the power of the mushroom, and I have to say I paid dearly! I had the stupid ignorant attitude that because I managed to handle acid and ketamine on hundreds of occasions, that mushrooms would be nothing!! But alas, the 6+ grams was far FAR too much!! There was so much about mushroom effects that set it apart from LSD, LSA K etc. The visuals were like nothing I’d ever seen on anything else. Mushroom visuals have there own character it seems, with the distinct ‘rainbows’, and the ‘star’ patterning. Very cool!
As for the turning into a liquid, what can I say!? Wow.
The Sacred Mushrooms now have my ultimate respect. I will definitely be experimenting with them in the future. I can see a long and beautiful relationship coming out of all this!
Though next time, I will probably take half this dose, definitely no more than 3.5 grams!
P.S
Does taking mushrooms fresh help at all with the nausea? Was it because I took them dry that I experienced such intense nausea, or was it just because I took too much!?
Your thoughts.
