Yeah, FedEx is in Holyoke.
I can certainly elaborate on that. That's why it's so difficult for me, I live in a hood and it's terrible because people are inevitably going to prey on me. I'm not white but I'm very light skinned and grew up in a hood albeit a nicer one with more sparse gang activity. I'm highly educated as well so it's just different for me (and thank god I got out of this part of town). I know some dealers around my neighborhood but even I had to take walks around so that no one knew where I actually lived. Glad I don't fall into the trap of thinking if they're peers, they'll be okay- for most, all they want is sex. It's scary as a woman, and it's worse when substances are involved and even worse if you're the only woman you personally know who currently uses.
My area doesn't draw much attention to it but it just sucks because if there's any attention I get it's all weird sexualized shit. cars may follow me or people will say hi as they turn, but it's not for that and no one will look at me knowing what I'm really looking for, unless they see my track marks. Even so that is super dangerous for me, and people just yell at me as if I don't know what I'm doing. It's kind of funny, because I'm also a pretty big proponent of psychedelics for therapeutic use and I completely understand harm reduction. But as soon as the topic goes to H, people get angry at me. I know I'm vulnerable and I have been before. I've even gone to needle exchanges in hopes of finding a friend, I've assisted people in NA. No one really suspects anything even though I've been experimenting (and have been on BL) well over the last 10 years, have an extensive knowledge and a boatload of crazy life experiences that would blow so many people's lives out of the water. Lol.
