yea, def. people on this board by you.
I am in the northshore, so I know ZIP about western MA; I do know there are PLENTY of places, tho. but even if I was there by myself I would not have a clue but I have heard so much and met so many people in the area, so I know its quite a hub for the badddd stuff!
I am shocked no one talks on this board like they once did besides myself and you two, lol.
anyway, you guys should consider yourselves lucky that you cant get shit; I WISH that was the case for me! I would LOVE TO MOVE somewhere that I dont know a single person and I dont know where a single drug is; this way I can actually be completely sober and have NO CHOICE! right now I am on methadone and dont know AS MANY people as I once have since I KINDA called it quits since joining the clinic, but I still have my slips; hell, just yesterday I shot a G over the course of the day and was nodding come night! but that was then, this is now, and today I have ZIPPO and feeling GOOD anyway.
I am down to 51MG methadone and will be OFF come December; wish me luck, boys! I am going away to a 2-3 week DUI class/in-house rehab that is a MUST since its my 2ND DUI and I am getting FUCKED for it, so I cant go in on methadone. well, I actually could but I dont want to tell my PO I am using done' since she is NOT drug testing me so I rather just get off the done' before I go in and use that as a chance to actually get CLEAN for the first time in 6 fucking years! thats right, its been 6 years since I've actually had NOTHING in my system for at least 2 weeks!
I went 3 years SEMI clean; no dope or opiates for 3 years. from 23-26 and then been going hard since! the reason I went those 3 years is because I got picked up, went away, was in jail, rehabs, halfway houses, programs, drug tests, etc. eventually it all came to a slip because I met some dudes on the OUTSIDE that I knew from the INSIDE and was back in the game before you knew it.
oh well, my own fault, but I am truly LOOKING to get clean and think I can do it; I actually had enough at this point and for once I am ready to STOP and I am the one making my own decision, not doing it because of family, friends, girlfriend, etc. its ME who wants to get clean, no one else, just me!