yoUr bLiSS
Bluelighter
the last one for him...warning it is very long...
"can you see them?" you were sitting on my bed in a tigger shirt and blue pajama bottoms looking all wide-eyed and adorable. "what?" i asked with playful suspicion. "you can't see them sue?" your childish voice feigning hurt and disappointment. "no silly! what the hell are you talking about!" i was trying to sound slightly annoyed though my huge smile gave me away. you then grabbed my shoulders so suddenly you scared my cat off the bed. you turned me towards you. "the stars" you said. i just stared at you, still perplexed. "the stars you put in my eyes tonight" you held my gaze for about 30 seconds smiling sheepishly. i could see hope just dancing around you. "well?" i couldn't say anything.i felt sick. the truth is i *could* see those stars. they were practically bursting out of your eyes, lighting up that pale boyish freckle covered face of yours. and as i sat there speechless, unsure how to respond i watched them flicker a few times. you dropped your head for a few seconds and when you looked up the stars were gone. your eyes still had a faint glow to them though. this is what i loved about you from the start. no matter what you never lose your spirit. you never lose your joy. you have an "eternally unjaded" soul. you could sense my discomfort yet you still managed to muster up a small, yet genuine smile. "that's okay sue. i understand. i'm broken anyways. you wouldn't have the time or the patience to fix me...."
i should've known this would happen
i should've been more careful
you are fragile and trusting
and i was careless
i poured gasoline
onto smoldering embers
igniting and electrifying them
you do hold my heart
just not my passion
a motherly love
far from lust
yet far from motherly
friday night
i fully accept responsibility
for fucking things up
making something simple
something pure
into something complicated
those stars i placed in your eyes
were soaked in vokda and a drunk ego
i shouldn't have done this to you
anyone but you
just for the record
it breaks my heart
to break yours
if you only knew
how much i cried for you
that one weekend
if you only saw
these words i have been posting
i know you still plan to come on saturday
you got me a really special gift
i know what it is
i just pretend not to
something i lost in san franscico
rolling my ass off in a club
my special charm
with a hidden meaning
i never thought i could find another
yet you found it
i almost don't feel worthy
i break your heart
yet to still want to give me this
this gift that means the world to me
that is why i hold you so dear in my heart
that is why you are a better person than i am
if i was in your shoes
i would keep the gift simply to spite you
but you are not me
had the tables been turned
you never would have been so careless
with something so special
"can you see them?" you were sitting on my bed in a tigger shirt and blue pajama bottoms looking all wide-eyed and adorable. "what?" i asked with playful suspicion. "you can't see them sue?" your childish voice feigning hurt and disappointment. "no silly! what the hell are you talking about!" i was trying to sound slightly annoyed though my huge smile gave me away. you then grabbed my shoulders so suddenly you scared my cat off the bed. you turned me towards you. "the stars" you said. i just stared at you, still perplexed. "the stars you put in my eyes tonight" you held my gaze for about 30 seconds smiling sheepishly. i could see hope just dancing around you. "well?" i couldn't say anything.i felt sick. the truth is i *could* see those stars. they were practically bursting out of your eyes, lighting up that pale boyish freckle covered face of yours. and as i sat there speechless, unsure how to respond i watched them flicker a few times. you dropped your head for a few seconds and when you looked up the stars were gone. your eyes still had a faint glow to them though. this is what i loved about you from the start. no matter what you never lose your spirit. you never lose your joy. you have an "eternally unjaded" soul. you could sense my discomfort yet you still managed to muster up a small, yet genuine smile. "that's okay sue. i understand. i'm broken anyways. you wouldn't have the time or the patience to fix me...."
i should've known this would happen
i should've been more careful
you are fragile and trusting
and i was careless
i poured gasoline
onto smoldering embers
igniting and electrifying them
you do hold my heart
just not my passion
a motherly love
far from lust
yet far from motherly
friday night
i fully accept responsibility
for fucking things up
making something simple
something pure
into something complicated
those stars i placed in your eyes
were soaked in vokda and a drunk ego
i shouldn't have done this to you
anyone but you
just for the record
it breaks my heart
to break yours
if you only knew
how much i cried for you
that one weekend
if you only saw
these words i have been posting
i know you still plan to come on saturday
you got me a really special gift
i know what it is
i just pretend not to
something i lost in san franscico
rolling my ass off in a club
my special charm
with a hidden meaning
i never thought i could find another
yet you found it
i almost don't feel worthy
i break your heart
yet to still want to give me this
this gift that means the world to me
that is why i hold you so dear in my heart
that is why you are a better person than i am
if i was in your shoes
i would keep the gift simply to spite you
but you are not me
had the tables been turned
you never would have been so careless
with something so special
