lyle #4

[yoUr bLiSS]

1/31
i wanted to save you
take you away from that place
but then what?
though you have crawled into my heart
i am not strong enough
nor do i want the burden
of carrying you
my heart is too weak
and my body to restless
to take on such a project
you just called
for the 3'rd time tonight
(caller id is such a luxury)
i am avoiding you
i don't know why
we have talked everynight for 2 weeks
and every night
i hid in my room like a sixteen year old
giggling
all twisted up in blankets and cord
until your voice lay me down to sleep
eventually
and when we hang up
i always curl up and smile
all warm and content
like one of those cats
from your favorite song
yet tonight i avoid the phone
i avoid my feelings
i avoid you
if you only played twisted games
and fucked with my head
this would be so much easier
i have mastered those talents
i play well
i know how to win
and if i lose
it doesn't hurt
real feelings
i stumble over
clumsy and stupid
ignorant and stubborn
and as if to justify this
here you are again
ring
ring
ring
and here i am again
avoiding the phone
avoiding myself

 

[harraser]

the only way to overcome fear is to push on inspite of it, and the only way youll ever be happy is by taking the chance of being hurt.I really like your peices dear but if youre in love you owe it to yourself to do something about it.look your fear in the face and laugh at it then talk to the guy and tell him why youre scared, if he's being honest you should try it out too, you may like it.whatever you decide, I hope you end up happy luv ant