Lydia

I'm fucking depressed and tearful today, not just because I'm on the comedown from hell, but because I'm really missing Lydia (drug_wench), my ex. I know I fucked things up in that relationship and burned all my bridges, so she has every right not to want to know me anymore, but I wish we were still together. Fuck, if I could turn back the clock and take back all the nasty things I said and did, I would. I don't think I've ever loved a person as much as I loved her. I often wonder where she's at now, and how she's doing. She's a strong person, so I hope she's doing well and still on the road to recovery... unlike me.

Lyds, I don't know if you still use Bluelight, but if you're reading this I just want you to know that I'm sorry and that I still think about you.