Ah, it is like fine wine and gourmet cheese blended together into a thick, decadent, royal purple smoothie. Sitting on the precipice of temptation, I stare the possibility of relapsing in the eyes - our first honest confrontation in months. The air is thin up here and the sun shines bright. As a confidence man of some pedigree, I can appreciate the strategically disarming honesty of heroin's offer to make time disappear. And yet here I am, still debating on whether or not to take that much desired vacation from reality later this week. I've always had perspective, but it was superficial. My mind would pay lip service to its existence and then almost categorically deny its influence. But now, my consciousness is fully marinated in the data from past mistakes and their subsequent timelines. I find myself drawn by less gravity to the black hole, although I still recognize that my jets need to be focused consistently on steering clear of the most powerful parts of the well. The ultimate test will come later this week.
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Don't do it. Wine and cheese are meant to be enjoyed in a heterogenous manner-- blending them together sounds revolting!
(also-- you know relapse is empty comfort, which will only make things worse in the long run. Look a bit further ahead, and decide if you want to go through the shit of withdrawals yet again? You know that you can't just take it once)
(also-- you know relapse is empty comfort, which will only make things worse in the long run. Look a bit further ahead, and decide if you want to go through the shit of withdrawals yet again? You know that you can't just take it once)
Thank you, Dave. I can't wait until I save up enough money to have a meet-up with you.
This is a little late but I didn’t notice that you have an active blog. I feel stupid giving anyone advice on opiate relapse; because, I don’t have the best track record myself. Any time that access to them is possible, either through having money, or friends that want to get high; this inner voice will start rationalizing use. It tells me, “one time” but always ends in a binge. It is hard to say no. I hope that things look up. You make more people smile than you realize. I hope that you find happiness without the shite’. Keep your chin up.