For starters, this was my second time doing acid and yes it was 100% tested and proven. I will try to keep this concise and short. Seven of us were camping for my birthday and all took 2 tabs, as I had previously. My trip was fine, until it went down hill hard and fast. For about 1.5 hours, I was having the most negative trip of my life, I dissociated for the majority of it and I was talking about suicide, I had no concept of who I was, where I was, I could not hear people talking to me. My boyfriend carried me to the fire and I just regained consciousness there, after I wrote 3 pages worth of what I was experiencing. All I was talking about was suicide, I am not currently suicidal, I have no intention of killing myself. But I feel like this weekend I went crazy, I lost it, I was concerned that this was the time the effects were permanent. I felt spiders crawling all over me, I had scratches on my legs from the grass but I thought that they were self inflicted, I was convinced I was self harming. When I could see people I could only see them in a negative light, for their negative qualities. The last thing I wrote was, suicide prevention on my page, and the only meaning I can put to this, is that I need to pick a specialty for my schooling, but I wasn't thinking about that at all. I just want someone, anyone to relate, or tell me what to make of this. I worry that this experience will change me permanently, in a negative way. Should I even do acid again, at a lower dose? Is this what people call ego death? Thank you in advance.