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ok so i went to a bush doof on saturday, without any acid, but hoped to score some there. once there it seemed that every single person had acid, with plenty to spare. i bought 4 strawberry blotters, which i am told are a pretty nice medium dose of LSD. i put these on my tongue, and then was offered by an old, nice, wise-looking man if i wanted to try some extremely strong liquid lsd. he seemed to want to give me a good psychadelic experience instead of just take my money, and only gave me 1 drop, telling me it was extremely potent. i did not tell him that i already had 4 blotters in my mouth. (note the most acid i have taken before is 3 moderate strength blotters)
about 25 minutes later, i started coming up, tripping crazy hard. i was walking down a 20m path to the dancefloor, right behind all my friends, and my visuals got to the point where i could not see a foot in front of me. i tripped over, and could only see spots of light amoundst darkness, no sense of where the path was at all. so i was tripping balls, seperated from my friends, hundreds of kilometres from home in the bush. i decided calmly that i would walk towards a light, and calmly ask the people i foudn there to take me to the main dance area, where im sure my friends would spot me.
unfortunately i keep walking into high, dense scrub which is in the way of the light, and have no idea how to get around it. its very dark, and all i want to do is find the light or the music or something where there is people who can help. me. i can hear voices and i am pretty sure there were people near me who were watching me, because when i would say something like "sweet lord im fucked, can someone help me?" the people would laugh and appear to look at each other, and someone would say something like "get out of the bushes man." - however nobody ever got up and helped me. at one point i fell into a ditch, and people kept coming over to look at me and laugh, while i tried as calmly as i could to ask them to lead me to the dance floor as i could not see. nobody did however, and finally i managed to get next to a group of people, looking very clearly fucked up.
i explained that i was fucked sideways and just wanted to be led to the lights and music. one guy was very nice, and let me hold his arm while he brought me down to the dance area. i refused to let go of him, because i was very afraid of losing touch and becoming lost and stranded again.
we finally made it to the dance area, and my friend (who was probably pretty fucked up too) had his arm around me and we were swaying about on the dancefloor. i could not make much out of the world around me, but i thought everyone was looking at me. kindly my friend explained that they were not, and then started saying some creepy things just "just let go of your inhibitions" "everybody is part of the same world, whats the difference between dancing with me and your friends" - i had to explain that he was unfamiliar and in my state all i wanted to be was with familar people. he then decided to head back up to the cars and tents, so i decided to go with him. at the top, i heard someone say my name, so i sprinted towards them and latched on and would not let go. it was one of my friends, who explained that everyone had been frantically looking for me. i then felt great, and refused to let go of her wherever we went. then we went and chilled by the fire.
sitting by the fire, a lot of my friends were asking me how i felt and chatting to me. what happened was that taking to or looking at each of my friends gave me a distinct feeling, and i was shown what sort a different sort of person i could become if i wanted to. so like, i have a friend who is always pinging and twitchy and talking shit real fast. when i looked at him or spoke to him, i felt was he was feeling, eg jaw clenching, cheap euphoria, and was shown the life of todays cheap pillhead. i didnt like it, and decided that was not who i wanted to be, so i would focus on someone else, either by talking to them or making eye contact with them.
the next person i spoke to was a friend who is very much into band music and stuff, and when i focussed on him (and spoke to him) i felt cultured and knowledgable, with a slight sense of superiorority, however to become like him would be too much of a change from myself, so i decided to move on. next i looked at a female friend of mine, and she gave off an unbelievably strong vibe of seductiveness and sexuality. she was like the old school seductresses, mysterious and sexy. she was trying to tempt me, and im pretty sure i actually said 'oh no, dont do that, im in no state for it. just dont.' and forced myself to move on. her 'life' showed me a future of womanising and sophistication, and while this seemed like the right 'life' to choose, i knew that it was very innaporpriate to be like this at this point in time (surrounded by everybody). this life was also my dads life (he was a big womaniser, married a playboy model before my mum, etc) - and i think i actually told my friend that she reminded me of my dad. it is worth noting that this girl is actually my friend, and i would never consciously behave innapropriately towards her. it is safe to say that i was just having a reeeallly vivid trip. hehe.
next i think was another female friend of mine, who i was chatting to. she offered me a cigarette, and she represented the dusty outback life, and whether i wanted to become a hick sortof. (she is not a hick at all however) - when i was with her, i saw a life of desert and dust, rocking chairs on balconies and old cigarettes. this seemed a lot more worthwhile then my other friends life, which required me to do things which made me very uncomfortable (in a public setting anyway
). i stayed in the slim dusty world for a bit, and while in it i decided to lay down and do whatever was comfortable. i was sure that this was my future, and felt comfortable within it. a few times i also breifly made contact with my pinging friend and others, and it was again clear that these were not for me and i moved on.
next was a random dude with dreadlocks, who started talking to me about the bush and stuff. i told him that i had always felt a connection with the bush, and loved nature. his life was earthy, and natural. i felt like this was for me, this was the path i must choose. then he walked away and another friend came up. this friend was smart, and knew how to have a good time, and make money. i really like making money (haha) and i also felt a connection here. i couldnt decide, however, if making money was a better future then living at one with the earth. i spoke again to the man with the dreadlocks, and saw that while i like the art and such, his life was one of boredom and hardship, and i sw that the right thing for the earth was not always the right way to live a pleasureable life for yourself. this was proven that whedn i spoke to the earthy man, i felt cold, and unexited, (and saw a world lacking exitement and full of trees etc) but when i spoke to my friend who represented brains and money, i felt comfortable, warm, high and relaxed. i decided that this was the life i would choose.
i was also contemplating having a pill, as i thought this would clear my head a bit and give me some euphoria. however i did not know what was a better lfie in the end; one in which you ate pills and partied and had a good but responsible time (note this is diff to my cheap pillhead friend who did them *too* much) or one in which you studied, earnt lots of money and enjoyed yourself without drugs. as a result i was asking people what was better; pills or acid (eg fun but possible damage, or wierd but harmless) for a good 2 hours, and trying to figure out if it was better to do pills or acid, in the whole scheme of life.
anyway, all thoughout this each time i would be focused on one person and another would talk to me, my entire vision would change, eg from dusty and smoky, to royal colours of class and temptation, to euphoric, colourful and racing by. i would then have to decide which world was better for me, and reject the one that wasnt. (and thus not focus ont hat person) - when someone would talk to me while i was focussed on someone else, my world would begin to morph and stuff into the other persons, and if i didnt like it i would have to focus my energy on staying in the correct world.
again however i saw my seductress friend, and she was urging me (in my head of course) to choose her life, one of class, and sex, and lushness. i needed to make a move on her, and while this was totally inappropriate and stupid, it was what she wanted me to do and it would absolutely certainly turn out to be the right choice, and it would be the right life for me. i knew what i had to do, and leaned over her to try and kiss her. of course, i am just tripping balls, and my friend was extremely freaked out. she politely backed away, and i pressed on, knowing that this was only a challenge of my faith. after a bit more i realised that it was not to be, and stopped. i dont know what my friend did at this point but i think its safe to assume that it she was probably really really uncomfortable, which didnt occur to me at the time, but which made me feel REALLY damn bad afterwards. (like really bad, haha)
i was confused as to which life i had to choose now, and continued talking to each of my friend and trying to decide which was for me. a random came up and he looked very trashy, i saw what living like him would be like and easily knew that it was disgusting. at some point i also got up and ran to the bushes to vomit, which is surprising as i had had nothing but acid (and speed many hours before) and my stomach previously felt ok.
i was then led up to the campsite, where i sat with another of my good mates. i then saw what it would be like to live like him. i felt relaxed, cool, and unphased. i then decided to evaluate my choice, and scrolled through my previous experiences. i saw the world around me as mother nature, to be nurtured and protected, and felt like this was a long life of boredom without reward. i then saw the world around me as wizzing past while i gurned, and felt cheap and irresponsible, certain to die young. i then saw the world around me as dusty and irrelevent, and felt like a cigarrete. i saw a life of women and power, and knew that it would be uncomfortable for me. i also then imagined a few worlds of my own, such as one of a lone hero, spending one night with a different woman each day as i roamed the land doing justice, etc. each time i focused on a different life my entire visuals world support it, and i would see things as part of that world (eg cars around me would turn from old dusty holdens to open top low riders etc)
finally however it was very clear that i was destined to choose a relaxed, at ease, cool life. i got this from focussing on the friend i was sitting with. i would not make a fuss of things, or remenisce, and would simply live life as it came, while projecting an image of cool and unconcerned. the relief and euphoria i experienced at finding my true calling was immense, and i was content to sit back as the cool kid i was, and reflect on things from within my chosen persona.
a while after this i began to come down, and of course became my normal self and realised that i didnt need to 'choose' to live like anyone else. (dur)
i had remaining visuals up until around 7pm the next night (i dosed at around 11pm the night before) and slept easily after. i was surprised that visuals lasted over 20 hours, however im told that the more acid the longer it lasts too, so that makes sense.
anyway i hope youve enjoyed my trip report, it was a very very interesting insight into the things that acid could do, i was surprised that i could actually feel as if i was on pills, or felt like a ciggarette, or warm or cold, lazy or energetic, etc etc, depending on the scenario/person that i was focussed on. i felt EXTREMELY bad about what i did to my female friend, and told my friends that i couldnt remember much of the trip. i am probably going to show them this however, and hope that they understand how fucked up i was. hehe.
any questions or stuff is fine, thanx for your time if you read it all, this is my first trip report, hope you all liked it.
peaceee
about 25 minutes later, i started coming up, tripping crazy hard. i was walking down a 20m path to the dancefloor, right behind all my friends, and my visuals got to the point where i could not see a foot in front of me. i tripped over, and could only see spots of light amoundst darkness, no sense of where the path was at all. so i was tripping balls, seperated from my friends, hundreds of kilometres from home in the bush. i decided calmly that i would walk towards a light, and calmly ask the people i foudn there to take me to the main dance area, where im sure my friends would spot me.
unfortunately i keep walking into high, dense scrub which is in the way of the light, and have no idea how to get around it. its very dark, and all i want to do is find the light or the music or something where there is people who can help. me. i can hear voices and i am pretty sure there were people near me who were watching me, because when i would say something like "sweet lord im fucked, can someone help me?" the people would laugh and appear to look at each other, and someone would say something like "get out of the bushes man." - however nobody ever got up and helped me. at one point i fell into a ditch, and people kept coming over to look at me and laugh, while i tried as calmly as i could to ask them to lead me to the dance floor as i could not see. nobody did however, and finally i managed to get next to a group of people, looking very clearly fucked up.
i explained that i was fucked sideways and just wanted to be led to the lights and music. one guy was very nice, and let me hold his arm while he brought me down to the dance area. i refused to let go of him, because i was very afraid of losing touch and becoming lost and stranded again.
we finally made it to the dance area, and my friend (who was probably pretty fucked up too) had his arm around me and we were swaying about on the dancefloor. i could not make much out of the world around me, but i thought everyone was looking at me. kindly my friend explained that they were not, and then started saying some creepy things just "just let go of your inhibitions" "everybody is part of the same world, whats the difference between dancing with me and your friends" - i had to explain that he was unfamiliar and in my state all i wanted to be was with familar people. he then decided to head back up to the cars and tents, so i decided to go with him. at the top, i heard someone say my name, so i sprinted towards them and latched on and would not let go. it was one of my friends, who explained that everyone had been frantically looking for me. i then felt great, and refused to let go of her wherever we went. then we went and chilled by the fire.
sitting by the fire, a lot of my friends were asking me how i felt and chatting to me. what happened was that taking to or looking at each of my friends gave me a distinct feeling, and i was shown what sort a different sort of person i could become if i wanted to. so like, i have a friend who is always pinging and twitchy and talking shit real fast. when i looked at him or spoke to him, i felt was he was feeling, eg jaw clenching, cheap euphoria, and was shown the life of todays cheap pillhead. i didnt like it, and decided that was not who i wanted to be, so i would focus on someone else, either by talking to them or making eye contact with them.
the next person i spoke to was a friend who is very much into band music and stuff, and when i focussed on him (and spoke to him) i felt cultured and knowledgable, with a slight sense of superiorority, however to become like him would be too much of a change from myself, so i decided to move on. next i looked at a female friend of mine, and she gave off an unbelievably strong vibe of seductiveness and sexuality. she was like the old school seductresses, mysterious and sexy. she was trying to tempt me, and im pretty sure i actually said 'oh no, dont do that, im in no state for it. just dont.' and forced myself to move on. her 'life' showed me a future of womanising and sophistication, and while this seemed like the right 'life' to choose, i knew that it was very innaporpriate to be like this at this point in time (surrounded by everybody). this life was also my dads life (he was a big womaniser, married a playboy model before my mum, etc) - and i think i actually told my friend that she reminded me of my dad. it is worth noting that this girl is actually my friend, and i would never consciously behave innapropriately towards her. it is safe to say that i was just having a reeeallly vivid trip. hehe.
next i think was another female friend of mine, who i was chatting to. she offered me a cigarette, and she represented the dusty outback life, and whether i wanted to become a hick sortof. (she is not a hick at all however) - when i was with her, i saw a life of desert and dust, rocking chairs on balconies and old cigarettes. this seemed a lot more worthwhile then my other friends life, which required me to do things which made me very uncomfortable (in a public setting anyway
). i stayed in the slim dusty world for a bit, and while in it i decided to lay down and do whatever was comfortable. i was sure that this was my future, and felt comfortable within it. a few times i also breifly made contact with my pinging friend and others, and it was again clear that these were not for me and i moved on.next was a random dude with dreadlocks, who started talking to me about the bush and stuff. i told him that i had always felt a connection with the bush, and loved nature. his life was earthy, and natural. i felt like this was for me, this was the path i must choose. then he walked away and another friend came up. this friend was smart, and knew how to have a good time, and make money. i really like making money (haha) and i also felt a connection here. i couldnt decide, however, if making money was a better future then living at one with the earth. i spoke again to the man with the dreadlocks, and saw that while i like the art and such, his life was one of boredom and hardship, and i sw that the right thing for the earth was not always the right way to live a pleasureable life for yourself. this was proven that whedn i spoke to the earthy man, i felt cold, and unexited, (and saw a world lacking exitement and full of trees etc) but when i spoke to my friend who represented brains and money, i felt comfortable, warm, high and relaxed. i decided that this was the life i would choose.
i was also contemplating having a pill, as i thought this would clear my head a bit and give me some euphoria. however i did not know what was a better lfie in the end; one in which you ate pills and partied and had a good but responsible time (note this is diff to my cheap pillhead friend who did them *too* much) or one in which you studied, earnt lots of money and enjoyed yourself without drugs. as a result i was asking people what was better; pills or acid (eg fun but possible damage, or wierd but harmless) for a good 2 hours, and trying to figure out if it was better to do pills or acid, in the whole scheme of life.
anyway, all thoughout this each time i would be focused on one person and another would talk to me, my entire vision would change, eg from dusty and smoky, to royal colours of class and temptation, to euphoric, colourful and racing by. i would then have to decide which world was better for me, and reject the one that wasnt. (and thus not focus ont hat person) - when someone would talk to me while i was focussed on someone else, my world would begin to morph and stuff into the other persons, and if i didnt like it i would have to focus my energy on staying in the correct world.
again however i saw my seductress friend, and she was urging me (in my head of course) to choose her life, one of class, and sex, and lushness. i needed to make a move on her, and while this was totally inappropriate and stupid, it was what she wanted me to do and it would absolutely certainly turn out to be the right choice, and it would be the right life for me. i knew what i had to do, and leaned over her to try and kiss her. of course, i am just tripping balls, and my friend was extremely freaked out. she politely backed away, and i pressed on, knowing that this was only a challenge of my faith. after a bit more i realised that it was not to be, and stopped. i dont know what my friend did at this point but i think its safe to assume that it she was probably really really uncomfortable, which didnt occur to me at the time, but which made me feel REALLY damn bad afterwards. (like really bad, haha)
i was confused as to which life i had to choose now, and continued talking to each of my friend and trying to decide which was for me. a random came up and he looked very trashy, i saw what living like him would be like and easily knew that it was disgusting. at some point i also got up and ran to the bushes to vomit, which is surprising as i had had nothing but acid (and speed many hours before) and my stomach previously felt ok.
i was then led up to the campsite, where i sat with another of my good mates. i then saw what it would be like to live like him. i felt relaxed, cool, and unphased. i then decided to evaluate my choice, and scrolled through my previous experiences. i saw the world around me as mother nature, to be nurtured and protected, and felt like this was a long life of boredom without reward. i then saw the world around me as wizzing past while i gurned, and felt cheap and irresponsible, certain to die young. i then saw the world around me as dusty and irrelevent, and felt like a cigarrete. i saw a life of women and power, and knew that it would be uncomfortable for me. i also then imagined a few worlds of my own, such as one of a lone hero, spending one night with a different woman each day as i roamed the land doing justice, etc. each time i focused on a different life my entire visuals world support it, and i would see things as part of that world (eg cars around me would turn from old dusty holdens to open top low riders etc)
finally however it was very clear that i was destined to choose a relaxed, at ease, cool life. i got this from focussing on the friend i was sitting with. i would not make a fuss of things, or remenisce, and would simply live life as it came, while projecting an image of cool and unconcerned. the relief and euphoria i experienced at finding my true calling was immense, and i was content to sit back as the cool kid i was, and reflect on things from within my chosen persona.
a while after this i began to come down, and of course became my normal self and realised that i didnt need to 'choose' to live like anyone else. (dur)
i had remaining visuals up until around 7pm the next night (i dosed at around 11pm the night before) and slept easily after. i was surprised that visuals lasted over 20 hours, however im told that the more acid the longer it lasts too, so that makes sense.
anyway i hope youve enjoyed my trip report, it was a very very interesting insight into the things that acid could do, i was surprised that i could actually feel as if i was on pills, or felt like a ciggarette, or warm or cold, lazy or energetic, etc etc, depending on the scenario/person that i was focussed on. i felt EXTREMELY bad about what i did to my female friend, and told my friends that i couldnt remember much of the trip. i am probably going to show them this however, and hope that they understand how fucked up i was. hehe.
any questions or stuff is fine, thanx for your time if you read it all, this is my first trip report, hope you all liked it.
peaceee
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