Cohaagen
Bluelighter
This is a report of a trip I had a Rainbow Serpent 2005. Some of the thoughts and experiences I had there are life-changing. I was able to do some remarkable things.
I was at the opening ceramony of RS when my trip was beginning. Everything started to go very weird. The world was bending. I met some of my friends on the dancefloor and we had a dance. I was there for HOURS, but it didn't feel like it. Everything went dark and I kept dancing and loving the sounds. It was like being in another world. I left my jumper somewhere there and by this time I was totally lost. The trip was beginning to overwhelm me so I decided to go for a wander. I stumbled back towards the market stall and got hopelessly lost, to the level where i didn't have any idea where i was... i couldn't see anything clearly. My world was beginning to break down and it was great. I somehow kept wandering around and started to realise that I was going to get cold if I didn't get my jumper, which I had left somewhere on the dancefloor, I had basically no idea where it was.
I sat down in the DMF stall with Alex and Rach who were at the same sort of level. We looked at each other and it was so hard to believe what was happening. I was tripping so hard that my entire mind was twisting reality. We sat for a while and tried to regain some composure, but then I needed to go and get my jumped so we all went to the dancefloor. I have no idea how I got there and no idea what was happening, but out of the depths of the night my jumper magically appeared. When I found it i didn't belive it was mine, how could it be? It felt like it materialized out of thin air and it was electric in my hands. I was soooo glad I found it or else I would have frozen to death, it was extremely cold in retrospect, although at the time I had no idea what temperature it was... i was so far gone by this stage that it really didn't matter.
The three of us stayed by the dancefloor for a while but then headed back to the campsite. It was a lovely journey, the lights over the bridge looked like some remarkable vision, something out of a fantasy world. It was beautiful. Looking up at the sky revealed the entire universe, but in a totally different way. The entire perspective of it was changed, it was clear how big the universe was. There were more stars than it was capable for the human eye to process. Energy was moving through the air like a cosmic highway. It was overwhelming. We moved on and came back to the campsite.
There were a few fellow trippers there. It was a good vibe to stay there for a while. A big mass of gummy bears was being thrown around and it was foul, but it was fun to play with and it looked like some sort of weird life-force. I stayed here for a while chatting and relaxing, but then I decided to go back to the main stage and market area to see what was going on. I thought my trip was ending... I WAS SO WRONG, the best was yet to come. Off I went into the night, my torch around my neck, a lone adventurer off to explore my mind.
Arriving back to the market area was great. There was reggae playing and I got caught up in that for a while, but it wasn't my thing. I needed something else. As I wandered towards the main stage, I saw fireballs shooting high into the sky. WOW! They were massive, it was part of the performance. The raw energy of the fire shooting as jets into the sky was unbelievable! The flames were licking and turning creating amazing patterns. It filled me with an immense feeling of satisfaction and pride, seeing how we have harnessed fire and can create something so beautiful from it. I moved back to the main stage and began to dance.
The music was AMAZING! It was the most uplifting music I have ever heard in my life. I was flying to heaven, seeing the rays of light project into the universe and the lasers cut through the trees, a remarkable display of human achievement and technology. I had tears running down my face I was so happy and overcome by the display and the music. People around me were all the same, hugging each other randomly because they were so overjoyed. The music built up to a crescendo, the lights getting brighter and brigher, my mind took me to heaven, it felt like 1000 orgasms. The music stopped, an amazing white light filled the air, I threw my head back and screamed "YEAH!!!" at the top of my lungs and jumped for joy! I stayed dancing for ages... it just took me away and I couldn't believe it. The lasers made it look like digital data was streaming over my head and the world of the future was being constructed. I was in the future, it was as if all my dreams had come true.
I moved around a bit and danced in different places. Then I found some friends (Marcus, Pete, Twigz and more) and danced with them, but I was in my own world. I was also starting to go deeper into my mind, i was deconstructing myself. I was having marketing images come to the forefront of my mind that were from the early 80s and the late 70s, things similar to Flashdance (the image of cool for the early 80s) and the whole USA cowboy image thing. This was very deep. Marketing I had seen as a very young child was coming up from my subconscious. The impact of marketing has been revealed to me, my thoughts and reactions to things are based upon this marketing and the images that I have been exposed to. I was also seeing things about body language and posture, how the human body is something that has the properties of an animal much more than we see it as. I was studying the body language of people, seeing how lovers were interacting with each other using the most beautiful body language and gestures, holding each other so close and with such love. I saw what true love is and how it is something complete. A lot of this will be hard for me to share because it was at a deep level.
Something remarkable happened near this time. I was so deep into my mind that I tried to do something that I didn't think was possible. I was able to separate my consciousness into two distinct parts. In other words, I was conscious in more than one place at once. The distance between my conscious' was not much, maybe about 10cm, but I was existing at the same time in two places! This blew me away! It has changed my idea of where our idea of self lies and it makes me think very much so that we are contained within our bodies... it was something that I have never been able to do before.
I also had a lot of flashbacks to when I was a child, many memories of the hierarchy of children resurfaced and I analysed them. I saw how children interact in groups and how each child in the group has a role to play. My mind dropped back into a childlike state, removing all the extra ego that I normally carry and I was a kid again. I saw things like the "cool kids" and everybody like a child, and it showed me how much of a child we all are and how simple systems have developed into complex hierarchies that we have as adults. Again, it is hard for me to explain everyhing i saw, but this is more of a prompt for me for future reference, I don't wanna forget any of this stuff, it was deep.
I had a good chat with Marcus about myself and my personality, acid seems to bring surpressed parts of one's personality to the fore, and this revealed the part of me that is determined and focused in one direction at one time. This is something that is alway going to be a part of my personality, but it is something that I am learning to work with and make the most of, rather than supress or use badly. Marcus is a really cool guy and I'd like to get to know him more. I also was able to have a chat to Pete who is also cool. Its good getting to know people better.
In the distance I saw the fire dancers so I went over to have a look. It was beautiful. I have never in my life seen such a raw display of human emotion as I saw in their dancing. They had such control over their bodies, every muscle was responding in unison. I fell in love with the way they responded like animals with the pure passion and lust for the fire, their bodies were purely there to serve the fire to the extent that they would eat the fire because they craved it so much.
At this stage of the trip I began to become a bit egotistical. The fire dancers had caused me to become jealous, I wanted to do what they did. I wanted to be an animal and have total control over my body. I began to change my posture, doing stretches and moving my fingers. I was able to create amazing patterns with my fingers, I can't do it now because I don't have the same level of control as I did then. I was also feeling my body stretch and my stance was so much more proud. It has given me a new understanding of my body and more respect for the natural side of me. I realise that part of me is an animal and I should not abuse my body by not looking after it (through exercise and bad diet). I should definently do more stretching and tone my muscles. That is the way I am meant to be to be at my peak. I was being full of myself and using big words and silly language (something I have a tendancy to do, i personally don't have a problem with it but some other people can at times). I felt at one stage I was pushing people around me away with my attitude and arrogance. This was not what I wanted to do.
At one stage I was sitting near some people, of which there was a group of girls who were smiling at me. They had lovely faces and beautiful smiles and they were smiling at me. For some reason I saw them as not good enough for me, they were scruffy and their faces were fat. I avoided eye contact with them for a while (but at this stage I wasn't myself at all, a part of my personality had come forward and was dominating me). The girls then stood up and they were so attractive! What had I done? I literally slapped myself. I had judged them by their faces, but their faces in retrospect were beautiful, I had just been blinded by my own idea of what beauty should be, rather than seeing them for what they really were. I had been too quick to make judgements rather than listening to my animal self and responding to my instinctive actions. This had illustrated something to me about going with my instincts and not being so judgemental. I want to 'feel' more than 'think'. Even though this was done at a big level, it made me realise something about myself that I am not happy about, something that is limiting my life. It helps me to better understand myself. On this level I don't want to be overly critical of myself, but it is good to be aware of factors that can limit your life, things that are personality flaws.
I was able to make some amazing fractal patterns looking at the ground, taking the grass and subdividing the image in my mind. It seems that patterns, fractals and music are how my mind interprets the universe. It uses patterns to construct things and therefore this helps to explain why symmetry and music (or any sort of pattern) is beautiful. It is a construct in the design of my brain, it matches the way my brain functions so it can be understood. I relate to it. Patterns and balance are beauty. This is something I want to explore further.
The morning was approaching, so I found Alex and Rach and we headed back to the campsite. It was FREEZING!! My hands felt frozen (because at this stage everything was coming back to me a bit. I am so glad i found my jumper. I saw the sunlight coming up on the horizon. I could see the beams of light breaking through the trees and the shadows being cast by the sun coming up. There was so much going on that I don't normally see and it was more beautiful that I could have imagined.
I went to my car soon after to try to get some rest, I was exhausted (my muscles are still sore today). I saw the sunrise in my car, listening to some Yanni (a new-age instrumental composer), it was very dramatic and structured music, very orchestrated... it suited the mood I was it, i felt like it was the dawn of a new age. A guy in the car next to me offered me a bulb, we had a brief chat about music and then he left. I didn't really sleep, but having a bit of a rest helped. I went and got some breakfast soon after this (a bacon and egg roll and an awesome juice blend) and this picked me up. The trip was wearing off, it was such a ride!!
The rest of the day was spent talking to people and wandering around. I went to the pool in the afternoon and this was heaps of fun. I loved just laying by the pool and seeing everybody having a great time, lots of sexy bodies there too which are nice to look at. People can be so beautiful. I felt so much cleaner after a swim and refreshed jumping into the cold water.
After I got back to camp I didn't stay too much longer because I wanted to get home in time. So i headed off and put on some music on the drive home. It was The Doors. And that's when I started to mildly trip again... oh-oh! All of the drive home I was tripping just a bit, having some cool thoughts and seeing the world in a weird way. The Doors didn't help the issue, damn their music is good and I can imagine what it must have been like at the time it was released, soooo trippy and cool. One of the songs contained the line "I'm gonna go out to the car with my friends and get... FUCKED UP!" How cool seeing as this was in the 60s! :D
At last I got home, I was a mess. I had a shower (this kicked the acid in quite a lot) and then went straight to bed. I fell asleep still tripping and woke up this morning, still mildly tripping. I am still even mildly tripping now... this has really stayed with me.
It was a life-changer. I am going to take what I have gained from this experience and apply it to my life. Not overnight, but over time. My travelling experiences coming up will be a perfect time to apply what I have learned about myself.
The End.
I was at the opening ceramony of RS when my trip was beginning. Everything started to go very weird. The world was bending. I met some of my friends on the dancefloor and we had a dance. I was there for HOURS, but it didn't feel like it. Everything went dark and I kept dancing and loving the sounds. It was like being in another world. I left my jumper somewhere there and by this time I was totally lost. The trip was beginning to overwhelm me so I decided to go for a wander. I stumbled back towards the market stall and got hopelessly lost, to the level where i didn't have any idea where i was... i couldn't see anything clearly. My world was beginning to break down and it was great. I somehow kept wandering around and started to realise that I was going to get cold if I didn't get my jumper, which I had left somewhere on the dancefloor, I had basically no idea where it was.
I sat down in the DMF stall with Alex and Rach who were at the same sort of level. We looked at each other and it was so hard to believe what was happening. I was tripping so hard that my entire mind was twisting reality. We sat for a while and tried to regain some composure, but then I needed to go and get my jumped so we all went to the dancefloor. I have no idea how I got there and no idea what was happening, but out of the depths of the night my jumper magically appeared. When I found it i didn't belive it was mine, how could it be? It felt like it materialized out of thin air and it was electric in my hands. I was soooo glad I found it or else I would have frozen to death, it was extremely cold in retrospect, although at the time I had no idea what temperature it was... i was so far gone by this stage that it really didn't matter.
The three of us stayed by the dancefloor for a while but then headed back to the campsite. It was a lovely journey, the lights over the bridge looked like some remarkable vision, something out of a fantasy world. It was beautiful. Looking up at the sky revealed the entire universe, but in a totally different way. The entire perspective of it was changed, it was clear how big the universe was. There were more stars than it was capable for the human eye to process. Energy was moving through the air like a cosmic highway. It was overwhelming. We moved on and came back to the campsite.
There were a few fellow trippers there. It was a good vibe to stay there for a while. A big mass of gummy bears was being thrown around and it was foul, but it was fun to play with and it looked like some sort of weird life-force. I stayed here for a while chatting and relaxing, but then I decided to go back to the main stage and market area to see what was going on. I thought my trip was ending... I WAS SO WRONG, the best was yet to come. Off I went into the night, my torch around my neck, a lone adventurer off to explore my mind.
Arriving back to the market area was great. There was reggae playing and I got caught up in that for a while, but it wasn't my thing. I needed something else. As I wandered towards the main stage, I saw fireballs shooting high into the sky. WOW! They were massive, it was part of the performance. The raw energy of the fire shooting as jets into the sky was unbelievable! The flames were licking and turning creating amazing patterns. It filled me with an immense feeling of satisfaction and pride, seeing how we have harnessed fire and can create something so beautiful from it. I moved back to the main stage and began to dance.
The music was AMAZING! It was the most uplifting music I have ever heard in my life. I was flying to heaven, seeing the rays of light project into the universe and the lasers cut through the trees, a remarkable display of human achievement and technology. I had tears running down my face I was so happy and overcome by the display and the music. People around me were all the same, hugging each other randomly because they were so overjoyed. The music built up to a crescendo, the lights getting brighter and brigher, my mind took me to heaven, it felt like 1000 orgasms. The music stopped, an amazing white light filled the air, I threw my head back and screamed "YEAH!!!" at the top of my lungs and jumped for joy! I stayed dancing for ages... it just took me away and I couldn't believe it. The lasers made it look like digital data was streaming over my head and the world of the future was being constructed. I was in the future, it was as if all my dreams had come true.
I moved around a bit and danced in different places. Then I found some friends (Marcus, Pete, Twigz and more) and danced with them, but I was in my own world. I was also starting to go deeper into my mind, i was deconstructing myself. I was having marketing images come to the forefront of my mind that were from the early 80s and the late 70s, things similar to Flashdance (the image of cool for the early 80s) and the whole USA cowboy image thing. This was very deep. Marketing I had seen as a very young child was coming up from my subconscious. The impact of marketing has been revealed to me, my thoughts and reactions to things are based upon this marketing and the images that I have been exposed to. I was also seeing things about body language and posture, how the human body is something that has the properties of an animal much more than we see it as. I was studying the body language of people, seeing how lovers were interacting with each other using the most beautiful body language and gestures, holding each other so close and with such love. I saw what true love is and how it is something complete. A lot of this will be hard for me to share because it was at a deep level.
Something remarkable happened near this time. I was so deep into my mind that I tried to do something that I didn't think was possible. I was able to separate my consciousness into two distinct parts. In other words, I was conscious in more than one place at once. The distance between my conscious' was not much, maybe about 10cm, but I was existing at the same time in two places! This blew me away! It has changed my idea of where our idea of self lies and it makes me think very much so that we are contained within our bodies... it was something that I have never been able to do before.
I also had a lot of flashbacks to when I was a child, many memories of the hierarchy of children resurfaced and I analysed them. I saw how children interact in groups and how each child in the group has a role to play. My mind dropped back into a childlike state, removing all the extra ego that I normally carry and I was a kid again. I saw things like the "cool kids" and everybody like a child, and it showed me how much of a child we all are and how simple systems have developed into complex hierarchies that we have as adults. Again, it is hard for me to explain everyhing i saw, but this is more of a prompt for me for future reference, I don't wanna forget any of this stuff, it was deep.
I had a good chat with Marcus about myself and my personality, acid seems to bring surpressed parts of one's personality to the fore, and this revealed the part of me that is determined and focused in one direction at one time. This is something that is alway going to be a part of my personality, but it is something that I am learning to work with and make the most of, rather than supress or use badly. Marcus is a really cool guy and I'd like to get to know him more. I also was able to have a chat to Pete who is also cool. Its good getting to know people better.
In the distance I saw the fire dancers so I went over to have a look. It was beautiful. I have never in my life seen such a raw display of human emotion as I saw in their dancing. They had such control over their bodies, every muscle was responding in unison. I fell in love with the way they responded like animals with the pure passion and lust for the fire, their bodies were purely there to serve the fire to the extent that they would eat the fire because they craved it so much.
At this stage of the trip I began to become a bit egotistical. The fire dancers had caused me to become jealous, I wanted to do what they did. I wanted to be an animal and have total control over my body. I began to change my posture, doing stretches and moving my fingers. I was able to create amazing patterns with my fingers, I can't do it now because I don't have the same level of control as I did then. I was also feeling my body stretch and my stance was so much more proud. It has given me a new understanding of my body and more respect for the natural side of me. I realise that part of me is an animal and I should not abuse my body by not looking after it (through exercise and bad diet). I should definently do more stretching and tone my muscles. That is the way I am meant to be to be at my peak. I was being full of myself and using big words and silly language (something I have a tendancy to do, i personally don't have a problem with it but some other people can at times). I felt at one stage I was pushing people around me away with my attitude and arrogance. This was not what I wanted to do.
At one stage I was sitting near some people, of which there was a group of girls who were smiling at me. They had lovely faces and beautiful smiles and they were smiling at me. For some reason I saw them as not good enough for me, they were scruffy and their faces were fat. I avoided eye contact with them for a while (but at this stage I wasn't myself at all, a part of my personality had come forward and was dominating me). The girls then stood up and they were so attractive! What had I done? I literally slapped myself. I had judged them by their faces, but their faces in retrospect were beautiful, I had just been blinded by my own idea of what beauty should be, rather than seeing them for what they really were. I had been too quick to make judgements rather than listening to my animal self and responding to my instinctive actions. This had illustrated something to me about going with my instincts and not being so judgemental. I want to 'feel' more than 'think'. Even though this was done at a big level, it made me realise something about myself that I am not happy about, something that is limiting my life. It helps me to better understand myself.
On this level I don't want to be overly critical of myself, but it is good to be aware of factors that can limit your life, things that are personality flaws.I was able to make some amazing fractal patterns looking at the ground, taking the grass and subdividing the image in my mind. It seems that patterns, fractals and music are how my mind interprets the universe. It uses patterns to construct things and therefore this helps to explain why symmetry and music (or any sort of pattern) is beautiful. It is a construct in the design of my brain, it matches the way my brain functions so it can be understood. I relate to it. Patterns and balance are beauty. This is something I want to explore further.
The morning was approaching, so I found Alex and Rach and we headed back to the campsite. It was FREEZING!! My hands felt frozen (because at this stage everything was coming back to me a bit. I am so glad i found my jumper. I saw the sunlight coming up on the horizon. I could see the beams of light breaking through the trees and the shadows being cast by the sun coming up. There was so much going on that I don't normally see and it was more beautiful that I could have imagined.
I went to my car soon after to try to get some rest, I was exhausted (my muscles are still sore today). I saw the sunrise in my car, listening to some Yanni (a new-age instrumental composer), it was very dramatic and structured music, very orchestrated... it suited the mood I was it, i felt like it was the dawn of a new age. A guy in the car next to me offered me a bulb, we had a brief chat about music and then he left. I didn't really sleep, but having a bit of a rest helped. I went and got some breakfast soon after this (a bacon and egg roll and an awesome juice blend) and this picked me up. The trip was wearing off, it was such a ride!!
The rest of the day was spent talking to people and wandering around. I went to the pool in the afternoon and this was heaps of fun. I loved just laying by the pool and seeing everybody having a great time, lots of sexy bodies there too which are nice to look at. People can be so beautiful. I felt so much cleaner after a swim and refreshed jumping into the cold water.
After I got back to camp I didn't stay too much longer because I wanted to get home in time. So i headed off and put on some music on the drive home. It was The Doors. And that's when I started to mildly trip again... oh-oh! All of the drive home I was tripping just a bit, having some cool thoughts and seeing the world in a weird way. The Doors didn't help the issue, damn their music is good and I can imagine what it must have been like at the time it was released, soooo trippy and cool. One of the songs contained the line "I'm gonna go out to the car with my friends and get... FUCKED UP!" How cool seeing as this was in the 60s! :D
At last I got home, I was a mess. I had a shower (this kicked the acid in quite a lot) and then went straight to bed. I fell asleep still tripping and woke up this morning, still mildly tripping. I am still even mildly tripping now... this has really stayed with me.
It was a life-changer. I am going to take what I have gained from this experience and apply it to my life. Not overnight, but over time. My travelling experiences coming up will be a perfect time to apply what I have learned about myself.
The End.
