endlesseulogy
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After last night.. i have come to terms with my spiritual self..
3 double dose blotters.. dose..
i wanted to go for that earth shattering experience.. and i got it.. i really wanted to learn about my spiritual side this time..and i learnt.. and learnt and learnt.. i had a peak religious experience..
Comming up was rather chaotic and intense.. i was with 2 other people.. 1 one of them wasnt tripping, the other was on the same dose as me.. i find being around 3 people a bit hard.. i dunno.. once the 3rd person went to bed.. me and person 2 had such a better time..
We put on some trance music.. had heaps of energy and started to dance. felt good as usually.. decided to go into the dark bathroom and experience some sensory deprivation.. this was kind of weird because it felt asthough i was a voice with no body and head and i felt as if i existed in a spirit relm.
Started to get really really good Closed EVs.. these were great.. so many patterns and combinations of colour and light.. amazing.. i didnt know this was possible..we went on our usual walk to the store to get some food.. the world is breathing and humming and throbbing.. everything is alive and well at this point in time. we get back and start looking at some psychadelic posters with those kewl designs on them.. this was kewl.. i was enjoying this experience but it was nothing compared to what was about to happen..
My friend has a sofa bed/futon fold out setup in the lounge room so we rolled that out and had a lie down.. it felt as if the whole bed was a raft and we were floating on some great ocean.. as the carpet was waving and morphing at this point.. like water.. the boat was going up and down with the waves.. we were both experiencing this.. it was amazing.. we could see animal life swimming in the carpet and i felt asthough i was really on the open sea.. wind blowing us around.. bobbing up and down in the water..i began to realise it felt so good just to lie still on the raft.. and it if concentrated enough on being totally still.. it felt as if i was sinking into myself? or like i was melting into a mould? its hard to explain.. but it feels so right... after awhile i started paying closer attention to the carpet.. upon closer inspection the whole sea was filled with letters!.. everywhere i saw letters of the alphabet in random patterns and combinations and spiraling in and out up and down flowing like water.. i got closer and closer to the 'water' and i saw more and more letters.. they got thicker and thicker.. it was like those fractal things they use in math.. never ending.. it felt amazing just drifting there..
After that we start to lie on the other side of the bed and on the carpet on that side were cd's.. all my cds were there and it totally changed the mood.. it was like the cds reminded us of reality.. we didnt like it at first.. but then we started to ignore the fact that the cds were full of music.. we started to notice the right reflections on the cds.. and playing with them.. it felt amazing seeing the light..
This is where it starts to get interesting : After my previous trip id become interested in buddhism.. I burnt some buddhist and new age chant music onto a cd and stuck it in.. i just wanted to see how it would be.. and i realised instantly this was the best music id ever heard in my life! ever... this was it.. so simple.. and soothing and relaxing.. we began to lie there and a buddhist chanter began singing..we BOTH at the same time started sweating! we felt so warm just listening to it.. it was a really really nice heat.. comming from the inside out.. it was bliss.. better then sex.. better then anything id ever experienced.. we just kept sweating.. it only worked with this particular chant though.. it was really overwhelming...we slowly started to realise that we were in tibet! it was like we were really there..i could imagine the monestary and the monks praying peacefull, not harming anyone.. i felt so happy, and complete it was amazing.. i felt nothing! no emotion but this pure bliss.. satisfaction.. i wanted nothing but to be in a room .. an empty room.. just listening to that music.. i wouldnt even have to see the speakers.. thats all i needed! nothing else mattered.. something as simple as a peice of bread was enough.. it felt like an entire meal.. the smell the texture was amazing.. i could taste through my nose!...
We continued to feel asthough we were in tibet.. we could imagine everything.. i brough a book about buddhism along with my as i was reading it at uni the previous day.. i flipped open to a map of tibet.. and i realised as tears came to my eyes.. that it was home!! ive never felt so drawn to a place before.. it was like it was the home ive been searching for all my life.. even now its hard to come to terms with this..the simplicity and the peace of buddhism was just moving me so much.. i felt so good! so emotionally flat line.. if aliens came down into the room at that moment i would embrace them.. not fear them! which is what i would normally do..
we had been in our buddhist world for 2 hours now.. i felt like a chinese monk.. i went and looked in the mirror and i looked chinese.. i felt like eating vegitarian food.. no meat. simple foods...
over the past few weeks due to tripping ive noticed that my sex drive had decresed.. its very low now.. but the thing is, i dont really mind.. im kewl with it.. its better then being horney all the time and not having any release.. after you xperience what i experienced sex is put in perspective bigtime! its not that big a deal for me
The sun was starting to rise at this point and my friends appartment is overlooking a major freeway here in melbourne.. and it was peak hour weekday traffic at this point.. this was a wonderfull view.. we saw a almost empty freeway burst into activity.. people going to work.. it was like everyone was in a panic .. rushing rushing rushing.. i felt like walking down to the freeway and just telling everyone to stop and relax and hug each other and realise so much more.. we felt like 2 enlightened beings looking down on a chaotic world, however we didnt look at them as lower beings.. we felt sorry for them.. i began crying again.. and i said. "the world is so beautiful" why"? why do people fail to see this? we are the ones that create the shit in order to avoid the so called shit.. its an endless spiral of self denial..
All the while we were still in Tibet!.. we lay there and saw amazing visuals that played really well with the meditation music.. as i closed my eyes i saw brilliant light.. white and pure.. i saw mountains, snow, valleys.. rivers.. nature.. it was amazing.. i was so relaxed !!! i cant emphisise how great this felt.. this went on for 2+ hours .. meditation.. we slowly began to drift into a deep peacefull sleep... the amazing thing is that when my non-tripping friend woke up he took a picture of me sleeping.. and i had fallen asleep with a smile on my face!!.. i still feel really great right now.. i feel contented.. i feel ive had a peak experience.. no more LSD for awhile because i wouldnt want to get bored of this because of repitition.. its so special.. so so special.. if everyone in the world experienced the same thing we went through, believe me.. there would be no fighting.. all you have to do is have an open mind in terms of your spirituality and LSD will lead you in the right direction.. we as a world are beautiful.. we are beautiful.. there is no ugly.. only ugly thoughts... that is how im going to end this one.. i hope i have had an impact on someone with my thoughts..
peace to you all and i wish everyone on this site all the best!
Emmett
3 double dose blotters.. dose..
i wanted to go for that earth shattering experience.. and i got it.. i really wanted to learn about my spiritual side this time..and i learnt.. and learnt and learnt.. i had a peak religious experience..
Comming up was rather chaotic and intense.. i was with 2 other people.. 1 one of them wasnt tripping, the other was on the same dose as me.. i find being around 3 people a bit hard.. i dunno.. once the 3rd person went to bed.. me and person 2 had such a better time..
We put on some trance music.. had heaps of energy and started to dance. felt good as usually.. decided to go into the dark bathroom and experience some sensory deprivation.. this was kind of weird because it felt asthough i was a voice with no body and head and i felt as if i existed in a spirit relm.
Started to get really really good Closed EVs.. these were great.. so many patterns and combinations of colour and light.. amazing.. i didnt know this was possible..we went on our usual walk to the store to get some food.. the world is breathing and humming and throbbing.. everything is alive and well at this point in time. we get back and start looking at some psychadelic posters with those kewl designs on them.. this was kewl.. i was enjoying this experience but it was nothing compared to what was about to happen..
My friend has a sofa bed/futon fold out setup in the lounge room so we rolled that out and had a lie down.. it felt as if the whole bed was a raft and we were floating on some great ocean.. as the carpet was waving and morphing at this point.. like water.. the boat was going up and down with the waves.. we were both experiencing this.. it was amazing.. we could see animal life swimming in the carpet and i felt asthough i was really on the open sea.. wind blowing us around.. bobbing up and down in the water..i began to realise it felt so good just to lie still on the raft.. and it if concentrated enough on being totally still.. it felt as if i was sinking into myself? or like i was melting into a mould? its hard to explain.. but it feels so right... after awhile i started paying closer attention to the carpet.. upon closer inspection the whole sea was filled with letters!.. everywhere i saw letters of the alphabet in random patterns and combinations and spiraling in and out up and down flowing like water.. i got closer and closer to the 'water' and i saw more and more letters.. they got thicker and thicker.. it was like those fractal things they use in math.. never ending.. it felt amazing just drifting there..
After that we start to lie on the other side of the bed and on the carpet on that side were cd's.. all my cds were there and it totally changed the mood.. it was like the cds reminded us of reality.. we didnt like it at first.. but then we started to ignore the fact that the cds were full of music.. we started to notice the right reflections on the cds.. and playing with them.. it felt amazing seeing the light..
This is where it starts to get interesting : After my previous trip id become interested in buddhism.. I burnt some buddhist and new age chant music onto a cd and stuck it in.. i just wanted to see how it would be.. and i realised instantly this was the best music id ever heard in my life! ever... this was it.. so simple.. and soothing and relaxing.. we began to lie there and a buddhist chanter began singing..we BOTH at the same time started sweating! we felt so warm just listening to it.. it was a really really nice heat.. comming from the inside out.. it was bliss.. better then sex.. better then anything id ever experienced.. we just kept sweating.. it only worked with this particular chant though.. it was really overwhelming...we slowly started to realise that we were in tibet! it was like we were really there..i could imagine the monestary and the monks praying peacefull, not harming anyone.. i felt so happy, and complete it was amazing.. i felt nothing! no emotion but this pure bliss.. satisfaction.. i wanted nothing but to be in a room .. an empty room.. just listening to that music.. i wouldnt even have to see the speakers.. thats all i needed! nothing else mattered.. something as simple as a peice of bread was enough.. it felt like an entire meal.. the smell the texture was amazing.. i could taste through my nose!...
We continued to feel asthough we were in tibet.. we could imagine everything.. i brough a book about buddhism along with my as i was reading it at uni the previous day.. i flipped open to a map of tibet.. and i realised as tears came to my eyes.. that it was home!! ive never felt so drawn to a place before.. it was like it was the home ive been searching for all my life.. even now its hard to come to terms with this..the simplicity and the peace of buddhism was just moving me so much.. i felt so good! so emotionally flat line.. if aliens came down into the room at that moment i would embrace them.. not fear them! which is what i would normally do..
we had been in our buddhist world for 2 hours now.. i felt like a chinese monk.. i went and looked in the mirror and i looked chinese.. i felt like eating vegitarian food.. no meat. simple foods...
over the past few weeks due to tripping ive noticed that my sex drive had decresed.. its very low now.. but the thing is, i dont really mind.. im kewl with it.. its better then being horney all the time and not having any release.. after you xperience what i experienced sex is put in perspective bigtime! its not that big a deal for me
The sun was starting to rise at this point and my friends appartment is overlooking a major freeway here in melbourne.. and it was peak hour weekday traffic at this point.. this was a wonderfull view.. we saw a almost empty freeway burst into activity.. people going to work.. it was like everyone was in a panic .. rushing rushing rushing.. i felt like walking down to the freeway and just telling everyone to stop and relax and hug each other and realise so much more.. we felt like 2 enlightened beings looking down on a chaotic world, however we didnt look at them as lower beings.. we felt sorry for them.. i began crying again.. and i said. "the world is so beautiful" why"? why do people fail to see this? we are the ones that create the shit in order to avoid the so called shit.. its an endless spiral of self denial..
All the while we were still in Tibet!.. we lay there and saw amazing visuals that played really well with the meditation music.. as i closed my eyes i saw brilliant light.. white and pure.. i saw mountains, snow, valleys.. rivers.. nature.. it was amazing.. i was so relaxed !!! i cant emphisise how great this felt.. this went on for 2+ hours .. meditation.. we slowly began to drift into a deep peacefull sleep... the amazing thing is that when my non-tripping friend woke up he took a picture of me sleeping.. and i had fallen asleep with a smile on my face!!.. i still feel really great right now.. i feel contented.. i feel ive had a peak experience.. no more LSD for awhile because i wouldnt want to get bored of this because of repitition.. its so special.. so so special.. if everyone in the world experienced the same thing we went through, believe me.. there would be no fighting.. all you have to do is have an open mind in terms of your spirituality and LSD will lead you in the right direction.. we as a world are beautiful.. we are beautiful.. there is no ugly.. only ugly thoughts... that is how im going to end this one.. i hope i have had an impact on someone with my thoughts..
peace to you all and i wish everyone on this site all the best!
Emmett
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