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(LSD/One dose) - Beginner - LSD Can Help Opiate Addiction?

xburtonchic

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I am currently in the process of getting clean from heroin, and lately I've become really interested in psychedelics intended for aiding people in kicking opiate addiction. I've done a lot of research on the ways psychedelics like Ibogaine and psilocybin can help, and dissociatives like DXM and ketamine... and at the end of the day I theorized that the reason these drugs help with addiction is because they give you access to parts of your brain that you wouldn't normally be able to tap into, which allows for processing past events/emotions and developing new neural pathways. I figured if these drugs can do it, then theoretically, something like LSD should be able to do the same thing.

I'd had a tab of acid sitting around for a little while, but I could never find "the right time" to do it, and it was going to waste. The other night I wanted to trip, and the acid was there, so I decided to just say "fuck it" and took it on impulse with the intention of it helping me with my addiction. (I should note that I'd been clean from heroin for five days at the time but was still on Suboxone, so the withdrawals I was feeling at the time were VERY minor, but still somewhat present.) To be honest, I wasn't expecting much of anything out of it. For one, I'd only taken acid one other time, and it wasn't all psychedelic and crazy the way I'd always heard it described... it was more of a mental trip and increase in energy than anything, with only very slight hallucinations that were only noticeable around lights and if I directly stared at one thing for too long... I was told that it was really good acid, so I figured that's just the way acid was and that people had been hyping it up my whole life. For two, the tab I had was one I had obtained from my brother, and I had heard him talking to his friends about how "weak" it was. And for three, it had already been sitting out for a while, so I assumed it had lost quite a bit of potency as it was. Needless to say, I was expecting a lot of introspection but not very many visuals or "trippiness".

HOLYSHIT I WAS SO WRONG.

The second I put it on my tongue I knew that a loss in potency wasn't going to be an issue. I could still taste the LSD itself; it had a bitter taste and my tongue went numb where the tab was sitting after about 10 minutes. 20 minutes later, while the tab was still dissolving, I started noticing a body high and slight visuals. I realized then that I was in for a legitimate fucking trip, and I didn't wanna be alone at home for that, so I drove over to my friend's house while I still could.

Here's a timeline of my trip... I'll explain afterwards how it helped me with my addiction.

9:00 PM: Dosed LSD (one tab of blotter paper). It tasted bitter.

9:10 PM: Noticed a numbness on my tongue where the blotter was dissolving.

9:15 PM: Very slight body high/increase of energy becomes noticeable. Realized I was in for an actual trip and that it wasn't gonna be all calm and introspective like I originally thought, so I called my friend to see if I could come over before it started getting too crazy.

9:20 - 9:40 PM: Driving to my friends house. Bodily sensations are getting stronger and the oncoming headlights of other cars and the stoplights are brighter and more colorful. NOTE: I DO NOT RECOMMEND DRIVING WHILE TRIPPING ON LSD!!! Maybe it's okay in the beginning before it REALLY kicks in, but in the middle of a strong acid trip, just don't do it... it's a bad fucking idea.

9:50 PM: Arrive at my friend's house and pack/smoke a bowl of weed. After one hit, I start noticing strong tracers and things moving around slightly.

10:00 PM: Everything is moving, breathing energy. I can literally see the energy in the air, and the energy in the room moves relative to how my friend and I move.

10:15 PM: Bodily sensations and visuals are now at max strength. Music is another universe, each new song is a world of it's own entirely. I get lost in it and it's beautiful.

10:30 PM: I decide I want to go on an adventure. My friend asks, "where?" I tell him I don't care, I wanna go anywhere, let's just go. I have a strong urge to be out in nature.

10:30 - 10:45 PM: My friend is driving my car, which is a crazy experience. Everything is still moving and breathing, the lights rushing past us aren't just your regular white, red, green, and yellow lights anymore, but broad spectrums of color... ESPECIALLY white lights. Any white light I look at has become a shade of blue and violet.

10:50 PM: We arrive at a parking structure, and driving through it, I feel like each floor is a new level of a video game we have to beat. We arrive at the top overlooking the city. It was the most beautiful thing ever. Everything looked new and exciting, and I knew then that I could achieve anything I wanted to. I noticed a ladder leading even higher up and desperately wanted to climb it, but it was locked up :(

12:00 AM: My trip for the last hour has been deliciously wonderfully beautiful and amazing, but nothing else happened in that timeframe worth noting, other than it being just REALLY intense. At this point (midnight), we are back at my friend's house. He gives me a sip of peach tea, and it is THE BEST THING I HAVE EVER TASTED. For some reason, this sets me off laughing uncontrollably for the next ten minutes to the point that tears are streaming down my face. My friend asks me, "Is your face melting?" I am horrified to realize that it IS... it IS melting!! Also, there is a pile of clothes in my peripheral vision, but they aren't clothes at all... they're witches climbing up the couch, giving me sideways glances, plotting something. Just like that my trip starts going bad and I decide I need to go outside and smoke a cigarette and be in nature again.

12:05 AM: Going outside by myself turns out to be a bad idea. The trees have morphed into menacing entities. They are beckoning me to come towards them, and I know they mean me harm, and there are all kinds of bugs and worms and snakes crawling around in the soil, and I start to get scared. I stand there terrified for a good ten minutes before finally realizing, "Wait... I'm having a bad trip. I need to turn this around." I decide that the best way to do this is to first lean down and touch the soil. I could see the snakes and worms and bugs crawling around and all over my hands, but I couldn't feel them, which reminded me that it wasn't real, and at that point they turned into beautiful growing vines with flowers on them instead. The trees were still being menacing though, so I figured the best way to deal with that particular issue was to walk right up to one of the trees and assert my control over it and demand it's respect. It worked, and all the trees bowed down to me. This made me feel really bad. I knew I had hurt their feelings, so I told the tree next to me that it was okay and reached out and held one of it's branches and focused on giving it love. This made the trees happy, and they weren't menacing or scared of me anymore. Instead they turned into these, like... tree-sprite-beings. I had a short conversation with one, though I don't remember what it was about (I should note that all of this was happening telepathically... I wasn't talking to the trees out loud lol).

12:30 AM: After turning my bad trip around and all of that happening, my trip turned VERY spiritual at this point. As I'm looking at the trees, I can still see all the energy in the air and I have a strong conviction that the entire universe is alive and that everything is connected. Blue lines of light start forming, connecting the trees to the other trees, to the grass, to the flowers, to the person outside jogging, to me, to the bugs crawling around on the ground (the real ones), to the skunk that walked by at one point... literally EVERY SINGLE LIVING THING was interconnected by this blue string of light. It was amazing. Satisfied, I said goodbye to the trees and went back inside.

12:35 AM: My friend's room has transformed into a constantly moving, breathing entity. He hands me headphones and I put them in and get lost in the music again. He has a table with a monitor on top of it with an XBox on top of the monitor, and I'm looking at that, and the whole setup has become a robot... it is an ADORABLE robot, I love it, and it is moving and dancing with me. This goes on for a good two hours, me listening to music and dancing with various objects. (I couldn't stop dancing the entire trip... I had to constantly be moving... part of it was that I felt like I had to move with the energy field I could see, and part of it was because I had A TON of energy, and part of it was because it was fun and I couldn't help it since I was listening to music for most of the trip.

3:00 AM: My friend lays down on his bed cuz he's not tripping on acid and he's tired. I suddenly feel very close to him (it's a guy I've been seeing on and off for the past year or so) and so I go lay down with him. Kissing feels amazing and natural and I realize how comfortable I am with him. We don't have sex or anything, but everything - the energy in the air, the objects around me, the sensations in my body, etc. - starts to feel VERY sensual, and I'm definitely tempted to. We never have before though, so I'm kinda glad that he ended up falling sleep before I could make it go there lol... if that's gonna happen, I'd rather be fully sober when it does.

4:00 - 5:00 AM: My friend has fallen asleep. I'm just laying there looking at all the different geometric patterns and colors on the ceiling. I suddenly realize that I want to go home and have a super productive day... like, the opposite kind of day I would have had in the midst of a detox or while strung out on heroin.

5:00 - 5:15 AM: I'm still tripping pretty hard. The few cars that are out look trippy as hell as they drive by. The entire world is still brand new, full of color and shapes and moving energy. At one point, I realize I'm driving 75 on the highway (a 40 mph zone) and it hits me that what I'm doing is extremely dangerous and that I need to make myself focus until I get home. REMINDER: DRIVING ON LSD IS FUCKING DANGEROUS, DO NOT DO IT!!!!! This is why having a trip sitter THE ENTIRE TIME is important!!

5:15 AM: I arrive home, but something is pulling me towards the park down the street from my house. I drove to the entrance and parked, then walked down the horse trail, without totally realizing what I was doing. It's like some higher being was calling me, and my body was just obeying on autopilot. But oh man, being in the park at sunrise, the only person there... it was GORGEOUS. It was amazing. The lights in the park were dripping, like they were raining light. Even though it was dark and I was alone and I should have probably been scared, everything was too beautiful... the horses in their stables just waking up to eat, the way the lights cast an amber glow on everything, making it all seem warm and inviting. Just after sunrise, people started arriving and I felt the need to connect with these complete strangers, so I went out of my way to go around and say "good morning!!!" all enthusiastically to Every. Single. One. LOL. People were receptive to it and I even seemed to have brightened a few peoples' day, so that was a nice feeling.

6:00 AM: I've said good morning to everyone in the park, the sun is up, and things are still beautiful, but I begin to notice that things aren't moving around as much anymore. Lights are still beautiful, but I can no longer see or feel the energy of the universe. This disappoints me some, until I realize that the visuals have taken on a new dimension. Instead of everything moving and breathing and dancing, the world has taken on a video-game like quality. I suddenly remember why it was that I wanted to go home in the first place, and getting out of the park and going home and being productive becomes a game, like the Sims, where each task is a new "accomplishment" and each new environment is a new "level". For example: My task is to get out of the park and into my car. Once I'm in my car, I get a... feeling... I don't SEE it anywhere, per se, but I get an "Achievement Unlocked! You have reached Level Two - Your Car! Your next task: Go Home" message from SOMEWHERE.

6:05 AM: I walk into my house and get a new "Achievement Unlocked!" message. This time, I am supposed to get in the shower. I am now entirely convinced that I am in a video game and that once I beat "the game", I'll have kicked heroin "the final boss" for good.

6:10 AM: I take a shower with the works - washing my hair, shaving, etc. The shower isn't as trippy as I expect it to be, but it does feel good. I'm still convinced I'm in a video game, so instead of the water and stuff being trippy, it just feels somewhat mechanical... yet still fun. When I finish my shower and my hair has been dried, I get a new "Achievement Unlocked!" message, and I am told that I now have to get dressed and put on makeup, which I do.

7:30 AM: I am ready for the day and satisfied that I have completed all my achievements. I'm still tripping hard, but the visuals are fading and the trip has become more mental and introspective than anything. On my way out the shower I run into my mom and get a "Level Boss" alert, where the goal is to make sure she doesn't know I'm tripping on acid and that once I achieve that, I'll have "beat" the level. Somehow, this... message or whatever it is... snaps me out of the video game AND most of my trip, with the realization that my mother is not a "boss" who I have to "beat". Instead I am filled with an overwhelming love for her and the rest of my family, and I give her a hug, and now I just want to have a productive day for the sole purpose of making my family happy and proud of me. I notice that the visuals and overall "trippy" feeling are more or less gone, though there is still a fair amount of introspection.

7:45 AM: Now okay enough to drive, I head out to start picking up job applications. While I'm out doing that, one of my friends texts me and asks if I want to come over and hang out. I do, and she's just down the street.

9:00 AM: I arrive at my friend's house. My trip is basically over at this point, just some random leftover visuals as far as lights go and colors being more vivid.

So overall, it was a beautiful experience, and my first impression of acid was WAY wrong. I barely had any sort of hangover, though I was definitely expecting one because I had a pretty gnarly hangover the first time I took it... just really tired from being up all night moving around yet unable to actually fall asleep. I wasn't even THAT disappointed when I started coming down and when the trip was over. There were a couple small twinges of, "aww... it's gonna end" here and there, but it wasn't a feeling of overwhelming loss and sadness like you get when you're coming down from, say... ecstacy or DXM or cocaine or something. It was more a feeling of, "Okay, we're parting ways for now, and that's sad, but it's okay because I'll be back someday" sort of feeling.

As far as how it affected my experience with addiction... it definitely had a positive impact. Not the way Ibogaine or something would, but it definitely helped me out. For one, it reaffirmed my spirituality by reminding me of the way everything is connected and how much love I have for the people I care about and for the world in general... which is something I've strayed pretty far away from recently, so I needed that reminder for sure. Second of all, it reminded me that it's possible to have fun WITHOUT using heroin... for example, I remembered how much I LOVE dancing and music and being around my non-using friends and family. And if all else fails, it's possible to have fun with LSD!! haha. And third of all, it gave me a sense of purpose, direction, and motivation. It prompted me to do things I normally struggle with getting myself to do, like getting ready first thing in the morning and going out to look for jobs... and ultimately, it's things like that which are going to KEEP me off heroin. The motivation is definitely still there, too. OH and also, it helped my withdrawals A LOT!! I was surprised. When it wore off, I was only a little tired yet restless... but it was from the comedown, not from withdrawals!! In fact, I didn't feel any need to take any Suboxone at all that whole day. My final consensus: LSD, taken every once in a while or towards the end of a detox, can have enormous benefits... depending on how your trip goes. I would imagine that if I hadn't managed to turn my trip around just before it went astray and reached the point of no return, or if I had been in a bad state of mind beforehand, it would have gone a lot differently. But taken properly, I've found it to be incredibly beneficial.

I will admit however that I did end up relapsing last night. But that's okay, because now I know with conviction that I'M going to be okay and that I really can do this. Like I said, the motivation to make my life better is still there, and I'm excited to see what the future is gonna bring. Tomorrow I'm going right back to taking Suboxone and working on my recovery again :)

Thanks for reading this hella long trip report... haha <3
 
Next time you taste any "numbing" spit it ta fuck out. Unless ofcourse you are cool with the idea of taking unknown RC's which IME can also be introspective but I wouldn't go as far to say it will kick opiate addiction. Try some oral DMT or Ibogaine. It really depends how you use the time tripping.

All of what you described reminds me of my like 2nd not-so-acid trip which was prob another compound though it lasted the length of an lsd trip. Was asleep between 8-10 hours after dosing. Though when i have taken tabs that had no taste n thought it was nothing i took and i'd never get high i'd have a full 12 hour trip


i believe you can kick addiction which psychedelics. you just have to WANT it and have several trips spread out in a month. good luck
 
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