streetsurfer
Ex-Bluelighter
I had the most amazing experience of my life the other night. I am seriously lost for words..like..when I started taking drugs and clubbing in sydney from being a non party person that opened my mind to what what I thought at the time was an amazing lifestyle...well last night changed me 10 times that, 50 times.
I live in melbourne now and I was partying in the city and about 15 of us got into a maxi taxi and drove out to the middle of some industrial estate, fuck knows where. We turn up at this rundown scap metal yard and I think panel beating shop and there is drum and base cranking from the yard. I go in there and there is a guy with decks and a PA set up. All these people start rocking up in cars and soon there is about 50 or 60 people there
I had half a sugar cube of acid before I went and through the night I had a couple of pills also and I remember sitting down in the dirt of the yard and looking at this flaked off sign advertising panel beating and watching the letters morph and change shape
Everyone turned up wearing anything from punk to costumes goth shit to just whatever. There was no pretentiousness, no trying to impress, no nothing. And when people did turn up with a look, it was for them, nobody else, just them.
And the music man, fuck, inside the panel beating shop there was another dj and decks pumping out this hardcore techno Bang! Bang! Bang! Bang! Bang! Bang! Bang!
I thought I had a pretty good idea of all the different styles of electronic music but I have never heard anything like this, it was absolutely mental and to be there, It was so raw and animalistic, It was existing, being, I felt my place in the world as just another individual amoung billions. There were no preconceptions, if someone didn't want to talk to you they would just look through you like you were thin air. There were no toilets, if you wanted water you had to find a bottle somewhere and fill it up yourself. it was just head fucking. And the dancing man, it was just fucking out there, I have never seen anything like it but it wasn't to impress, it was just the person expressing themselves for themselves You could be exactly who you are or who you wanted to be
I have been on antidepressants for most of my life (I am 28) But I don't think I don't need to take any of my medications anymore, last night, rather than putting me out there, it grounded me to this plane of existence in a way that defies meaning. For the first time in my life I just was. I was nobody, I existed only to myself. I have never felt so at one with the world, so insignificant yet so connected with the earth.
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Now I am an animal, just another one of billions. Its my life and this is my plane of existance, I am unique and so are the people around me. We come together and exchange energies but it is your own choice what you take in. They are totally seperate until you choose to take them in. Nobody can hurt you, nobody can love you, it is your choice what you take in, you have total control....
I live in melbourne now and I was partying in the city and about 15 of us got into a maxi taxi and drove out to the middle of some industrial estate, fuck knows where. We turn up at this rundown scap metal yard and I think panel beating shop and there is drum and base cranking from the yard. I go in there and there is a guy with decks and a PA set up. All these people start rocking up in cars and soon there is about 50 or 60 people there
I had half a sugar cube of acid before I went and through the night I had a couple of pills also and I remember sitting down in the dirt of the yard and looking at this flaked off sign advertising panel beating and watching the letters morph and change shape
Everyone turned up wearing anything from punk to costumes goth shit to just whatever. There was no pretentiousness, no trying to impress, no nothing. And when people did turn up with a look, it was for them, nobody else, just them.
And the music man, fuck, inside the panel beating shop there was another dj and decks pumping out this hardcore techno Bang! Bang! Bang! Bang! Bang! Bang! Bang!
I thought I had a pretty good idea of all the different styles of electronic music but I have never heard anything like this, it was absolutely mental and to be there, It was so raw and animalistic, It was existing, being, I felt my place in the world as just another individual amoung billions. There were no preconceptions, if someone didn't want to talk to you they would just look through you like you were thin air. There were no toilets, if you wanted water you had to find a bottle somewhere and fill it up yourself. it was just head fucking. And the dancing man, it was just fucking out there, I have never seen anything like it but it wasn't to impress, it was just the person expressing themselves for themselves You could be exactly who you are or who you wanted to be
I have been on antidepressants for most of my life (I am 28) But I don't think I don't need to take any of my medications anymore, last night, rather than putting me out there, it grounded me to this plane of existence in a way that defies meaning. For the first time in my life I just was. I was nobody, I existed only to myself. I have never felt so at one with the world, so insignificant yet so connected with the earth.
.
Now I am an animal, just another one of billions. Its my life and this is my plane of existance, I am unique and so are the people around me. We come together and exchange energies but it is your own choice what you take in. They are totally seperate until you choose to take them in. Nobody can hurt you, nobody can love you, it is your choice what you take in, you have total control....
