Percussion_is_Free
Bluelighter
This weekend, actually, at a festival in the midwest, my girlfriend and I took 1 acid gel and two halves of a fire MDMA pill each (half at hour three, half at hour four). I'd been reading about the science behind zen meditation, speculation on the way monks train their brain to stop "thinking" and to just exist as pure perception, cultivating a mind like a clear lake reflecting the world just as it is, with nothing extra. Well I'm no monk but this combo temporarily showed me how amazing stillness can be. This wasn't a drug experience, but rather a chemically-induced antidote to a life-long self-centered paranoia trip clouding my perception.
My girlfriend and I dosed in the mid afternoon and headed over to see Leftover Salmon. I've always had good experiences coming up on acid in the presence of a bluegrass band--there's something about that fast, pure, innocent energy that allows me to flow into the trip with euphoria. We danced our heads off to LOS and later Phil & Friends. Pretty typical acid trip--plenty of energy, thoughtful mind, feelings of happiness, freedom, and goodwill towards those around us.
Later on that night though, after the MDMA had joined the party, my "self," the "I-me-mine" complex, dissolved. I was in a little barn on a hill, watching a killer band at 2 in the morning with all these beautiful kids... looking around me, it was like a slap in the face. Whoa, we're all HERE, NOW! So simple, so obvious, and yet so endlessly blissful and amazing. Looking around at people like, "hello there, I'm a living human and so are you!"
If this sounds like a typical ecstasy experience, it wasn't quite that. On MDMA alone I feel like I'm sleeping. Everything is a pleasant dream and nothing matters. It turns down the noise meter in my head and I love everyone and everything unconditionally. THis time, the LSD cut through that and left me awake and clear-minded. But the MDMA cut through the incessant LSD thought-machine/analysis that tends to occur. The result of this combo felt like a perfect stillness, a satori, a LUCID interval (Lu-Cid).
I went from the center of the universe to just another face in the crowd. The world no longer revolved around me; rather, we were the revolving world. All of us!
LSD taught me to look into people's eyes to see their minds, to show my cards right off the bat, like, "hey, there you are, here I am, what's next?" But I'm sure this little afterglow will fade. That's where mindfulness meditation comes in. Got my first class sunday at 6:30. I've been farting around reading about meditation, this trip showed me exactly how much precious time I've been wasting trying to perfect myself, to be cool, to be good at stuff, etc.
Instead, I learned that a life lead watching out for those around me, really listening to people and making them feel safe, is a life well spent! Its the only sane way to live!
My girlfriend and I dosed in the mid afternoon and headed over to see Leftover Salmon. I've always had good experiences coming up on acid in the presence of a bluegrass band--there's something about that fast, pure, innocent energy that allows me to flow into the trip with euphoria. We danced our heads off to LOS and later Phil & Friends. Pretty typical acid trip--plenty of energy, thoughtful mind, feelings of happiness, freedom, and goodwill towards those around us.
Later on that night though, after the MDMA had joined the party, my "self," the "I-me-mine" complex, dissolved. I was in a little barn on a hill, watching a killer band at 2 in the morning with all these beautiful kids... looking around me, it was like a slap in the face. Whoa, we're all HERE, NOW! So simple, so obvious, and yet so endlessly blissful and amazing. Looking around at people like, "hello there, I'm a living human and so are you!"
If this sounds like a typical ecstasy experience, it wasn't quite that. On MDMA alone I feel like I'm sleeping. Everything is a pleasant dream and nothing matters. It turns down the noise meter in my head and I love everyone and everything unconditionally. THis time, the LSD cut through that and left me awake and clear-minded. But the MDMA cut through the incessant LSD thought-machine/analysis that tends to occur. The result of this combo felt like a perfect stillness, a satori, a LUCID interval (Lu-Cid).
I went from the center of the universe to just another face in the crowd. The world no longer revolved around me; rather, we were the revolving world. All of us!
LSD taught me to look into people's eyes to see their minds, to show my cards right off the bat, like, "hey, there you are, here I am, what's next?" But I'm sure this little afterglow will fade. That's where mindfulness meditation comes in. Got my first class sunday at 6:30. I've been farting around reading about meditation, this trip showed me exactly how much precious time I've been wasting trying to perfect myself, to be cool, to be good at stuff, etc.
Instead, I learned that a life lead watching out for those around me, really listening to people and making them feel safe, is a life well spent! Its the only sane way to live!
