Zalo
Bluelighter
(LSD / 150mcg) + (MDMA / 120mg) - First Candyflip: Black Magic
Substances:
T+0:00 - LSD - 150mcg
T+5:20 - MDMA - 120mg
Experience:
This was my first ever candyflip, which I did on the second day of a music festival. I was extremely excited for both the event and the candyflip as I've been waiting for 4 months for both. I finally had both substances in possession and my favourite DJs were going to be performing. I unfortunately underestimated both the LSD and the synergy it had with MDMA. I'm quite experienced with MDMA. Also, I usually dose 100mcg of LSD, but my friend (let's call him Jim) and I had taken 2C-B the day before and overestimated the cross-tolerance between the two psychedelics. I had many friends attending this festival and without one of them (Tom) I'm not exactly sure how I would've made it.
T+0:00 - I first take my LSD with Jim who was also planning to candyflip. A sense of nervous excitement had taken over me as I haven't done LSD in quite awhile.
T+0:30 - I went over to the autograph tent with a handful of friends and another friend (Bill) decided to candyflip for the first time with us. He's had no prior experience with LSD, but was very experienced with using substances, so I gave him 100mcg of LSD. At this time Jim and I were starting to feel the body load associated with LSD.
T+1:00 - I was really starting to feel the effects of LSD. As I went into a bathroom stall a sense of slight claustrophobia started to creep up on me. I tried to ignore it as I knew it was just the drug. I had this feeling as if I were in some sort of spaceship, and this stationary stall felt as if I were in an airplane bathroom going through turbulence. I found it quite hilarious at the time. As I left the bathroom another friend (Morgan) decided to candyflip as well, he also had no prior experience with LSD, so I gave him 100mcg as he had also done 2C-B the day before.
T+1:30 - I knew by now that I've taken too much LSD. I was beginning to lose my sense of time and reality. I started to feel anxious, so I found my friend Tom and asked him to take care of me. He was sober at the time, and had a similar thinking process as I do, so he became my anchor to reality for most of the night.
T+1:55 - I've lost all sense of time. I knew at this point my original plan to take the MDMA at T+3:30 wasn't going to happen. I layed down on the grass and looked up the sky. The sky started to shatter into fractals in front of my eyes, the music being played was distorting and my sense of self was beginning to float away.
T+2:05 - I looked at my watch and what felt like an hour was only ten minutes. I started to worry as I knew my negative direction in thinking would spiral my mind into a bad trip. My five senses were starting to overlap as I began to feel objects I saw and felt sounds I heard. I started to see geometric patterns on every object around me, and colour hues began to change. Spots of light started to appear on everything, and tactile hallucinations began to present themselves. It felt like bugs were crawling all over me and the first thing I thought about was stimulant psychosis. I avoided scratching myself as I didn't want to harm myself. Things became two dimensional for a brief moment. I tried speaking to Jim, but I couldn't properly communicate nor was he even paying attention.
T+2:30 - I gave Tom my MDMA as I considered the possibility of going to the first aid tent and didn't want any drugs to be found on me. Tom took MDMA at this point and told me to go for a walk and we found ourselves where little people were present. I started to feel better, but by this point the idea of thinking was beginning to no longer exist. I began feeling rather disappointed as I was missing out on several DJs that I wanted to see.
T+2:45 - Tom went to the bathroom and while he was gone I saw a girl sitting on the grass with her head against her knees. I felt a strong urge to check up on her so I did. I asked her if she was all right and she said she was fine, but sadness was written all over her face. I left her alone, but I've never seen an emotion so vividly before. Tom was back from the bathroom and he was feeling the MDMA at this point. Luckily he was more into the MDMA than the music, so he stayed by my side. My mind started to split into different pieces that embodied the different functions of my mind. The piece that embodied superficial emotions drifted away.
T+3:00 - As the pieces of my mind began to vanish one by one I questioned my own existence. At this point I started to experience ego death as my sense of self drifted into some unknown reality. It was frightening as I've never experienced such a thing nor was I looking to ever experience it. Everything stopped existing and my world became fractals. My brief moments of lucidity involved people's jaws stretching, which was quite frightening as it looked very ominous.
T+3:30 - Bill had already ingested the MDMA and he was having the time of his life. I was surprised how well he's handling it because Morgan had no idea what was going on in his world. I couldn't help Morgan as I couldn't even help myself. Jim hadn't done the MDMA, but his positive personality had allowed him to enter the crowd and dance with fellow intoxicated individuals.
T+5:00 - The DJ I've been waiting for for years is about to go on stage and at this point my high wasn't as strong as it was before. I forced myself to enter the crowd as I knew I'd hate myself for not doing so afterwards. This was the right decision as my trip had become pure euphoria. I've never felt so good before.
T+5:15 - I had just found out Morgan had taken MDMA and all he says to me is that it's intense. I assumed that was a good thing.
T+5:20 - My mind was numb, and my inhibitions were low. I still felt weary, but decided to take the MDMA with Jim.
T+5:30 - I could feel the MDMA slowly entering my bloodstream as my hallucinations became more intense, and my body started to go numb. It wasn't the usual euphoric explosion that MDMA gives me after 30 minutes; it was a gradual build up like LSD. I was no longer feeling good.
T+5:40 - All I could feel at this point were my fingers on my water bottle and my feet on the ground. My whole body was completely numb. I feared my own death, but I was also very open to it as I've never truly been afraid of death. I was at the core of my existence - pure instinct. I asked one of my other friends in the crowd for his glowstick and I knew it would make me feel safe. I promised him I'd return it afterwards. My ability to think became non-existent.
T+5:45 - Morgan had left the crowd with Tom and Jim's mind was gone into some euphoric reality. Bill was beside me and looked completely fine. I was alone. I had ran out of water and could feel my body temperature rising. My instinct drove me to leave the crowd.
T+5:50 - I went to purchase a water bottle and put on sunglasses as I could feel my eyes rolling into the back of my head. I hadn't felt the magic of MDMA in quite some time, but it definitely came back - black magic. I give the cashier a 5$ bill for the 3$ water bottle. She gives me the change as I instantly drop it onto the table in front of me. She looked at me and I knew I looked messed up, so I proceeded to pick up the change and leave without saying a word.
T+5:55 - I had no idea what I was doing, so I continued to drift around the festival. A friend (James) had somehow found me among 12,000 people and took care of me. He was on 2C-B and MDMA, but he was capable of normal human functions.
T+6:10 - I had miraculously found Morgan and Tom and felt a sense of relief. We proceeded to a vacant area of the festival and sat down. James went back into the crowd and Tom had gone to the bathroom. I could see layers of physical objects as if each part came from a different reality. Morgan and I were trying to speak to each other, but nothing made sense. He was trying to tell me that the DJ stage had split in two and exploded, but he wasn't able to properly articulate his experiences. He asked me if I knew when things split in two, which would make no sense to someone who's never done psychedelics.
T+6:15 - A person sitting near us looked at me and greeted us. I had said nothing but he said, "What?" I knew that his mind was in another reality. He looked as if he were in a state of psychosis and I tried to ignore him as that implanted a dark idea in my mind.
T+6:50 - Morgan, Tom, and I decide to leave the festival before it ended to avoid the crowds. Morgan and I had agreed that crowds were frightening in this state.
T+7:15 - We had entered Morgan's hotel room. Two girls that we knew came into the room and we greeted them. One was clearly on MDMA and she engaged a conversation with me. I knew it was her first time, so I found it quite amusing. I felt a connection with her, but I knew it was the MDMA.
T+7:25 - We, minus the girls, decide to go back to my hotel room. The girls came with us to the elevator and I noticed the sober one with my friends glowstick. I asked her to return it to me, but she said she promised me she'd give it back. I saw her emotion and intention so clearly again and it was full of deceit. I had accused her of lying and she promised me again, but in addition to deceit anger was present. I knew I'd never see that glowstick again. I had promised my friend I'd return it and the MDMA made me feel bad. I snatched it from her hand and felt satisfaction.
T+7:40 - I'm back at my hotel with most of my friends. I'm still peaking on the MDMA at this point and all I wanted to do is talk to everyone. We had a brief cuddle puddle, my first, and it was fantastic.
T+8:00 - Many friends had left to go to an afterparty, but I remained with Tom, Morgan, Jim, and a couple others. Morgan, Jim, and I were still high on MDMA and couldn't sleep, so Jim had the brilliant idea of sitting in the bathroom and listening to music.
T+8:05 - I was having an amazing time at this point. The three of us had the most hilarious conversations. At moments we'd stop mid conversation and have no idea what we were talking about. I heard my friend speak and I looked at him. He hadn't said a word, but it was like I experienced candyflip telepathy that I've heard about. How legitimate this was is questionable. Bill came in later on and the bathroom became the candyflip headquarters. There was a painting in the bathroom that we had all became fascinated with. I could feel myself in the painting and it was an interesting experience. At times I thought to myself and I started to truly appreciate my sober self. I've learned to love my consciousness, there was nothing quite like it. I had almost teared up because of this thought - tears of happiness.
T+16:00 - Bill had left earlier, but the three of us were still a little high. Jim and I had fallen asleep, but Morgan wasn't able to.
T+36:00 - MDMA depression.
Despite my bad trip at the festival I had learned so much about myself. I feel as though I have moved on to a higher level of consciousness. I've found new questions to ask, which is something I've wanted for quite some time. The experience also answered a few questions about LSD and MDMA. I now know how LSD and MDMA synergize, and I will never underestimate the power of LSD. I had lost respect for LSD and it had punished me for it. I had decided yesterday never to candyflip again, but I am now re-considering. I'd like to master the combination.
Thank you.
Substances:
T+0:00 - LSD - 150mcg
T+5:20 - MDMA - 120mg
Experience:
This was my first ever candyflip, which I did on the second day of a music festival. I was extremely excited for both the event and the candyflip as I've been waiting for 4 months for both. I finally had both substances in possession and my favourite DJs were going to be performing. I unfortunately underestimated both the LSD and the synergy it had with MDMA. I'm quite experienced with MDMA. Also, I usually dose 100mcg of LSD, but my friend (let's call him Jim) and I had taken 2C-B the day before and overestimated the cross-tolerance between the two psychedelics. I had many friends attending this festival and without one of them (Tom) I'm not exactly sure how I would've made it.
T+0:00 - I first take my LSD with Jim who was also planning to candyflip. A sense of nervous excitement had taken over me as I haven't done LSD in quite awhile.
T+0:30 - I went over to the autograph tent with a handful of friends and another friend (Bill) decided to candyflip for the first time with us. He's had no prior experience with LSD, but was very experienced with using substances, so I gave him 100mcg of LSD. At this time Jim and I were starting to feel the body load associated with LSD.
T+1:00 - I was really starting to feel the effects of LSD. As I went into a bathroom stall a sense of slight claustrophobia started to creep up on me. I tried to ignore it as I knew it was just the drug. I had this feeling as if I were in some sort of spaceship, and this stationary stall felt as if I were in an airplane bathroom going through turbulence. I found it quite hilarious at the time. As I left the bathroom another friend (Morgan) decided to candyflip as well, he also had no prior experience with LSD, so I gave him 100mcg as he had also done 2C-B the day before.
T+1:30 - I knew by now that I've taken too much LSD. I was beginning to lose my sense of time and reality. I started to feel anxious, so I found my friend Tom and asked him to take care of me. He was sober at the time, and had a similar thinking process as I do, so he became my anchor to reality for most of the night.
T+1:55 - I've lost all sense of time. I knew at this point my original plan to take the MDMA at T+3:30 wasn't going to happen. I layed down on the grass and looked up the sky. The sky started to shatter into fractals in front of my eyes, the music being played was distorting and my sense of self was beginning to float away.
T+2:05 - I looked at my watch and what felt like an hour was only ten minutes. I started to worry as I knew my negative direction in thinking would spiral my mind into a bad trip. My five senses were starting to overlap as I began to feel objects I saw and felt sounds I heard. I started to see geometric patterns on every object around me, and colour hues began to change. Spots of light started to appear on everything, and tactile hallucinations began to present themselves. It felt like bugs were crawling all over me and the first thing I thought about was stimulant psychosis. I avoided scratching myself as I didn't want to harm myself. Things became two dimensional for a brief moment. I tried speaking to Jim, but I couldn't properly communicate nor was he even paying attention.
T+2:30 - I gave Tom my MDMA as I considered the possibility of going to the first aid tent and didn't want any drugs to be found on me. Tom took MDMA at this point and told me to go for a walk and we found ourselves where little people were present. I started to feel better, but by this point the idea of thinking was beginning to no longer exist. I began feeling rather disappointed as I was missing out on several DJs that I wanted to see.
T+2:45 - Tom went to the bathroom and while he was gone I saw a girl sitting on the grass with her head against her knees. I felt a strong urge to check up on her so I did. I asked her if she was all right and she said she was fine, but sadness was written all over her face. I left her alone, but I've never seen an emotion so vividly before. Tom was back from the bathroom and he was feeling the MDMA at this point. Luckily he was more into the MDMA than the music, so he stayed by my side. My mind started to split into different pieces that embodied the different functions of my mind. The piece that embodied superficial emotions drifted away.
T+3:00 - As the pieces of my mind began to vanish one by one I questioned my own existence. At this point I started to experience ego death as my sense of self drifted into some unknown reality. It was frightening as I've never experienced such a thing nor was I looking to ever experience it. Everything stopped existing and my world became fractals. My brief moments of lucidity involved people's jaws stretching, which was quite frightening as it looked very ominous.
T+3:30 - Bill had already ingested the MDMA and he was having the time of his life. I was surprised how well he's handling it because Morgan had no idea what was going on in his world. I couldn't help Morgan as I couldn't even help myself. Jim hadn't done the MDMA, but his positive personality had allowed him to enter the crowd and dance with fellow intoxicated individuals.
T+5:00 - The DJ I've been waiting for for years is about to go on stage and at this point my high wasn't as strong as it was before. I forced myself to enter the crowd as I knew I'd hate myself for not doing so afterwards. This was the right decision as my trip had become pure euphoria. I've never felt so good before.
T+5:15 - I had just found out Morgan had taken MDMA and all he says to me is that it's intense. I assumed that was a good thing.
T+5:20 - My mind was numb, and my inhibitions were low. I still felt weary, but decided to take the MDMA with Jim.
T+5:30 - I could feel the MDMA slowly entering my bloodstream as my hallucinations became more intense, and my body started to go numb. It wasn't the usual euphoric explosion that MDMA gives me after 30 minutes; it was a gradual build up like LSD. I was no longer feeling good.
T+5:40 - All I could feel at this point were my fingers on my water bottle and my feet on the ground. My whole body was completely numb. I feared my own death, but I was also very open to it as I've never truly been afraid of death. I was at the core of my existence - pure instinct. I asked one of my other friends in the crowd for his glowstick and I knew it would make me feel safe. I promised him I'd return it afterwards. My ability to think became non-existent.
T+5:45 - Morgan had left the crowd with Tom and Jim's mind was gone into some euphoric reality. Bill was beside me and looked completely fine. I was alone. I had ran out of water and could feel my body temperature rising. My instinct drove me to leave the crowd.
T+5:50 - I went to purchase a water bottle and put on sunglasses as I could feel my eyes rolling into the back of my head. I hadn't felt the magic of MDMA in quite some time, but it definitely came back - black magic. I give the cashier a 5$ bill for the 3$ water bottle. She gives me the change as I instantly drop it onto the table in front of me. She looked at me and I knew I looked messed up, so I proceeded to pick up the change and leave without saying a word.
T+5:55 - I had no idea what I was doing, so I continued to drift around the festival. A friend (James) had somehow found me among 12,000 people and took care of me. He was on 2C-B and MDMA, but he was capable of normal human functions.
T+6:10 - I had miraculously found Morgan and Tom and felt a sense of relief. We proceeded to a vacant area of the festival and sat down. James went back into the crowd and Tom had gone to the bathroom. I could see layers of physical objects as if each part came from a different reality. Morgan and I were trying to speak to each other, but nothing made sense. He was trying to tell me that the DJ stage had split in two and exploded, but he wasn't able to properly articulate his experiences. He asked me if I knew when things split in two, which would make no sense to someone who's never done psychedelics.
T+6:15 - A person sitting near us looked at me and greeted us. I had said nothing but he said, "What?" I knew that his mind was in another reality. He looked as if he were in a state of psychosis and I tried to ignore him as that implanted a dark idea in my mind.
T+6:50 - Morgan, Tom, and I decide to leave the festival before it ended to avoid the crowds. Morgan and I had agreed that crowds were frightening in this state.
T+7:15 - We had entered Morgan's hotel room. Two girls that we knew came into the room and we greeted them. One was clearly on MDMA and she engaged a conversation with me. I knew it was her first time, so I found it quite amusing. I felt a connection with her, but I knew it was the MDMA.
T+7:25 - We, minus the girls, decide to go back to my hotel room. The girls came with us to the elevator and I noticed the sober one with my friends glowstick. I asked her to return it to me, but she said she promised me she'd give it back. I saw her emotion and intention so clearly again and it was full of deceit. I had accused her of lying and she promised me again, but in addition to deceit anger was present. I knew I'd never see that glowstick again. I had promised my friend I'd return it and the MDMA made me feel bad. I snatched it from her hand and felt satisfaction.
T+7:40 - I'm back at my hotel with most of my friends. I'm still peaking on the MDMA at this point and all I wanted to do is talk to everyone. We had a brief cuddle puddle, my first, and it was fantastic.
T+8:00 - Many friends had left to go to an afterparty, but I remained with Tom, Morgan, Jim, and a couple others. Morgan, Jim, and I were still high on MDMA and couldn't sleep, so Jim had the brilliant idea of sitting in the bathroom and listening to music.
T+8:05 - I was having an amazing time at this point. The three of us had the most hilarious conversations. At moments we'd stop mid conversation and have no idea what we were talking about. I heard my friend speak and I looked at him. He hadn't said a word, but it was like I experienced candyflip telepathy that I've heard about. How legitimate this was is questionable. Bill came in later on and the bathroom became the candyflip headquarters. There was a painting in the bathroom that we had all became fascinated with. I could feel myself in the painting and it was an interesting experience. At times I thought to myself and I started to truly appreciate my sober self. I've learned to love my consciousness, there was nothing quite like it. I had almost teared up because of this thought - tears of happiness.
T+16:00 - Bill had left earlier, but the three of us were still a little high. Jim and I had fallen asleep, but Morgan wasn't able to.
T+36:00 - MDMA depression.
Despite my bad trip at the festival I had learned so much about myself. I feel as though I have moved on to a higher level of consciousness. I've found new questions to ask, which is something I've wanted for quite some time. The experience also answered a few questions about LSD and MDMA. I now know how LSD and MDMA synergize, and I will never underestimate the power of LSD. I had lost respect for LSD and it had punished me for it. I had decided yesterday never to candyflip again, but I am now re-considering. I'd like to master the combination.
Thank you.
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