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LSD (half tab) - First Time - Emotional torture?!

FuNkiCUPCAKE

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For months before i tried this LSD, i looked on this website and erowid to understand exactly what would happen to me.. The only problem is, i think it made me work up an image in my head but my experience turned out completely different and i don't know why.

Me and my friend 'M' had decided to do LSD over a period of two days, we were just looking for the right time - because we are high school students and we've always got parents home etc. My dad told me he was going to Perth for a week this week, so i had initially decided to do it with a bunch of friends next wednesday at my place instead of going to school.

When my dad told me that he was getting rellies to look after me for the week i was heaps pissed off, so the next day (which was last thursday) I took two tabs of LSD to school in my wallet. I showed 'M' and she was really excited. We decided to leave school after our first double lesson and only take a quarter because we all had to be places with parents in 6 hours. My other friend 'A' saw the LSD in homegroup and decided to wag school with us to do it. And another of our good typical christian friend 'R' decided to come and be with us the whole time to be the designated sober, and make sure we were ok and presentable by the time we had to go back to school/home etc.

10:30 AM : Took a quarter, didn't feel anything.

(+00:45) 11:15 AM : 'R' cut up another tab so we all took another quarter (except 'R')

(+01:30) 12:00 PM : It kicked in, i remember warning 'R' that it had started to work and the first thing i knew, i was staring at my best friend, 'A' commenting on how incredibly beautiful she was.

In the next 4 hours or so, i loved everything, all the happiness in the world was on my shoulders and it was really 'heavy'. I had a little being on my hand formed from salsa in the nachos i was eating, and i felt like i could reach into my body through its mouth. Every thing i landed on or touch was so comfy! And i loved everything equally, just as they loved me.

The only thing that would bring me slightest discomfort was the fact that my great friend who i love dearly knew i was doing drugs and asked 'R' not to let me do it. I think this severely effected my trip because the whole time he was in the back of my head.

(+5:00) 3:30 PM : 'M' had to be dropped at school to catch a bus home because she was handing in resumes. She was trying so hard to act normal, but it was still clearly effecting my mind at this point. I felt like it's never wear off. 'M' got busted by a teacher for wagging, but luckily he knew nothing about her being high on an acid trip at the time.

(+5:30) 4:00 PM : My bro drove 'R', 'A'(who seemed to of come off it already) and me to Maccas. I didnt feel capable of being around real people yet, but my bro made me because i was meant to be home in an hour and my dad would be there, and id have to act normal.

Maccas was TORTURE! .. Apart from the fact i felt like i was mentally insane for the rest of my life because my friends had already come off it and i was still heavily under the influence, i felt like every body in that restaurant was in on a prank. They all knew. I got left in the restaurant by myself for probably a minute while everyone went to the toilet and i didnt know what to do with myself.. i got so paranoid i thought my friends were playing a trick on me coz i thought it had been half an hour, when theyd only been gone for 2 minutes.

(+7:00) 5:30 PM : Me and 'A' were at my house after our designated sober had been dropped home. Dad was home, and although i was paranoid, he didnt suspect anything. We went to the park and 'A' was talking to me all normally but i still wasn't 'there'.

We went back to my place and outside i sat on a chair and remember thinking to myself it was so perfectly positioned, because the only light in the garden was shining on me, nothing else.

(+8:30) 7:00 PM : I felt back to almost normal, and 'A' was dropped home. Now i was all alone to ponder on my thoughts. I called 'R' and she told me i had an oral the next day, but i couldn't take in aything she was saying to me.

(+9:30) 8:00 PM : Had a shower to make myself feel more with it.. But i hallucinated and saw myself in the mirror and didnt like it at all. I turned off the fan and quickly called 'R' again. I asked if i could sleep at hers the night because i didn't feel safe by myself and could feel the drug coming on again, even though i hadn't taken any more.

(+10:00) 8:30 PM : Went to 'R's, tried to help with oral homework.. but didnt get far. I felt the LSD coming on again stronger. A song came on and i started bawling my eyes out as if somebody had died. It was the greatest sadness i had ever felt in my life, followed by the normal happiness you get from taking LSD. I would bawl my eyes out and then laugh for about 10 minutes straight.

I told 'R' it was because of the guy i mentioned before who was always in the back of my mind. I called him up and started crying again and decided to meet him round the corner from 'R's house.

(+11.30) 10:00 PM : I met up with the guy, acted like a retarted child, then stepped on a stone which made me cry, once again, as though everybody i ever knew had just died on me. He didnt know what to think of me.

'R' had to explain what i'd taken, being the little christian boy he is, he had no idea what LSD was. I sat on the path outside while he talked to 'R' about his life problems, and every time he got deeper, i would start crying harder. This was emotional torture. I had experienced the deepest of every emotion i could remember, and i was constantly unsure of what i was truly feeling.

This part of my trip is what confuses me. This was 10 hours after the trip had began, yet i was feeling more effected by it than i had in the first 4 hours. It was an emotional rollercoaster ride.

The guy left, i hugged him and didnt want to let go because it brought me that 'reaaaalllly comfy' feeling, ya know?

(+13 - 16 hrs) 11:30 PM - 2:30 AM : I sat on a bean bag in 'R's room while she did my homework and constantly picked at her brain. She asked me to analyse her belongings and bedroom because the replies i was giving her were really far-fetched but so interesting to her because they all seemed to make sense. It was the biggest workout my brain had ever had, and at this point i wasnt feeling all those emotions, i was just in an energetic state, with a constant flow of thoughts going through my head and out my mouth.

The only reason i think my trip ended after about 15 hours was because i fell asleep when 'R' decided she would no longer reply to the thoughts i had coming through my mouth. I was still noticably (to me) on drugs when i fell asleep.

Ok, well i've written enough i think.. I want to know why my trip was just as strong in the end as it was in the beginning.. The come-down was the most painful part of the journey, i might talk about that later.

But yeah. If anyone actually read all that, tell me if this is normal!!
Thankyou!:D
 
this is a nice, well written report.

Here's the graph of FuNkiCUPCAKE's trip (drawn by her):
trip.jpg


and following discussion on that image here.
 
How did you trip that hard off half a tab? Wouldn't that just give you a bit of a speedy buzz and maybe some slight visuals?
 
Yeah, thats what i was expecting, you see.

I thought it would just alter the way i saw a few things, but it didn't make me hallucinate at all.
It was all about how i was feeling. Maybe it was just the batch of LSD i had?

I think it was an extremely strong batch of LSD, though i have nothing to compare it with.. I remember saying i would have killed myself if i had seen visuals aswell as the feelings i had from it.

Somebody tell me what's happening here!
 
perfectly normal reaction to lsd for a first timer

i dont think it kicked in later like you said, but you just realised it was till there , and got hightened by you looking into the mirror and seeing reality
for the first time after dosing

so funny to read lsd first timers

check out the show kenny vs. spenny, the episode where they see who can wear a dead octopus on their head the longest, and kenny spikes spenny's drink with 4 tabs of acid, and spenny freaks out, thinking that the octupus leaked ink into his brain. its on www.youtube.com
 
lol.. ok that's crazy.

Well that seems like a logical explanation i guess... but i did feel a whole lot better before i looked at myself in the mirror, and then things just went out of control again..
 
Mirrors are tricky things under any circumstances. They profer you with a notion of yourself and reality that might be extremely far from the "truth", or at least how you feel. I avoid mirrors on psychedelics unless I WANT that weird "what manner of creature AM I??" feeling.

Your trip sounds pretty normal though. It sounds like you're discovering what there is to LSD, and it's enriching your life. I think you're fine!
 
FuNkiCUPCAKE said:
(+9:30) 8:00 PM : Had a shower to make myself feel more with it.. But i hallucinated and saw myself in the mirror and didnt like it at all. I turned off the fan and quickly called 'R' again. I asked if i could sleep at hers the night because i didn't feel safe by myself and could feel the drug coming on again, even though i hadn't taken any more.
FuNkiCUPCAKE said:
i saw myself in the mirror on acid last night too and at times didnt like it one bit, especially toward the end.
 
Do more hits next time. I recommend at least 2-3. That should get you there visually. The hallucinations acid gives you is space age and so fucking cool. Of course visuals don't make a trip, but there is nothing better than experiencing intense acid visuals and just going with it.
 
wow....intense. i took like 150-200mics of lsd at school the other day (econd time ever) and just had a ball. when i was in the company of friends and teacers (none of whom knew i was tripping) it was fun to just go with the flow. no analytical shit. but for one 30min period like 2 hours after i dropped, i was all alone with just some music. it was really cool, i drew 2 entire notebook pages about different levels of consciousness and reality and perspectives...you know what i mean.

t + 8 hours later i was at work and hence alone, started thinking pretty deeply again. i normally think alot when i work but this was much heavier then usual :P also i noticed i had a headache but it sortof didnt bother me. kinda cool all round. i quite like lsd, not so much as a 'recreational' thing but its just really good for a change of reality every once in a while.
 
For some reason I almost always stare at myself in the mirror on visual psychedelics. I find it intensely amusing and revealing. Call me crazy, I guess ;)

Very nice report, BTW.
 
Xorkoth said:
For some reason I almost always stare at myself in the mirror on visual psychedelics. I find it intensely amusing and revealing. Call me crazy, I guess ;)

yeah same here. Some guys are scared when looking at their tripped-out self in the mirror , but i actually smiled & laughed hehe... I think it's a feeling similar to how a primitive human being would have felt when looking @ their mirrored idol in a lake or some kind of glass... hehe
 
MasterOfDeception said:
yeah same here. Some guys are scared when looking at their tripped-out self in the mirror , but i actually smiled & laughed hehe... I think it's a feeling similar to how a primitive human being would have felt when looking @ their mirrored idol in a lake or some kind of glass... hehe

lol! yeah, at the beginning i stared at myself in the mirror for a while until somebody distracted me. It was pretty amazing. I mean.. nothing really changed visually but i felt like i looked heaps different.

I told my a few of my friends that i would never do LSD again but you say id have a better time if i took like.. 2 or 3 tabs? perhaps its totally worth doing again :D

I love the things you think about when ur on it.. It really is a powerful drug.

Now that the comedowns over i think i actually benifited from taking it.. probably definately worth doing again :S. hehe
 
I've had acid effect me for more than 12 hours on numerous occasions, I think it is just my brain chemistry. Overall, sounds like you had a fairly normal trip for a first timer.

One question, if you did so much research, why did you think you could dose then feel normal 6 hours later?
 
Also maybe next time consider tripping when you don't need to face parents on the same day. A day when you have no commitments or environmental stress.
 
FuNkiCUPCAKE said:
...I got left in the restaurant by myself for probably a minute while everyone went to the toilet and i didnt know what to do with myself.. i got so paranoid i thought my friends were playing a trick on me coz i thought it had been half an hour, when theyd only been gone for 2 minutes.


I remember getting paranoid like this on mdma. My friends left my house to get some sweets/cigarettes from the petrol station and after a few minutes, I was sure they must've had an accident and died!
 
wow i think you are a hypocondriact. thinking you were going to be insane for the rest of your life? have you not read up on how long lsd can last? i think this is a cry for attention..or maybe you were too young to eat lsd. because you upset about your friend..doesnt mean its the lsd's fault. i just couldnt believe a half a tab could do that to you, no matter how strong it was. i guess if it was a heavy ass dose of doc or something.
 
well done mate its ok whteva u experienced sounds shitty now but u'll hav a laugh at it later... try and do drops when u hav not much to do, so ur mind doesnt get stressed forurself and fo others
hope u hav plenty mo reports to come
 
Xorkoth said:
For some reason I almost always stare at myself in the mirror on visual psychedelics. I find it intensely amusing and revealing. Call me crazy, I guess ;)

heh! It's not just you - I always make time to stare into a mirror when I am tripping. I have seen my eyeball melt and roll down my face on acid and seen me age 100 years in a second on Ketamine... I think it's brilliant! :)
 
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