Mellabopper
Bluelighter
first acid trip
well i dont remember everything that happened and how long everything was, but i found my first acid trip to be an amazing experinece, and i am still thinking about a lot of things that happened that night.
so here's how it all started. a few friends of mine were all tripping in one kid's room whose dorm is not too far from mine. well, bc and i go over there to go see whats up and to meet fellow bluelighter zerotonin who was visiting a friend at our school for the weekend. so we get there around 830 or 9pm or so on friday night (jan 26th). everyone there had already eaten their acid (i think they all had gels), and bc and i come over to deliver some 'goods' to them (heh heh). so everyone starts tripping and bc and i are the only sober ones there (for a change). there are 9 of us total in this small dorm room. yipes. so anyway, bc gets 3 gels when we get there, and he really wants to eat 'em. i am a little apprehensive about it at first cause he was planning on eating a lot the next night (party! - whipped in springfield, MA). we had already planned out that i would have my frist trip with a few people that i feel comfortable with the next weekend (feb 3rd). well after a little talking and a little thinking and a lot of reassurance that if anything shitty happened that bc'd take care of me, i decided to eat one of the gels. it was about 11pm or so at the time (i think?). well we all go outside to have a cigarette... come back in... chill a bit and i guess it was about a half hour, maybe 45 min after i ate my gel that we go have another cig. bc and two of the girls that were tripping already go get some water and what not and i go back inside to the dorm room. right outside of the door, someone spilled a lot of reeses pieces on the ground. i look at them, and there seems to be a ring of color around each of them (depending on which color they are), and i notice the pattern on the floor more than i had ever before. wow. i get back inside the room and just lay on the bed, waiting for the trip to become more intense and hoping for the slight nausea to wear off. after a while (dont know when) bc and the rest came back and we all chilled around a bit. i figured i wanted to be more comfy so bc and i walk back to my room so i can get my hoodie (comfort item!) and what not. i noticed the blue emergency lights on the walk to my dorm were amazingly beautiful! everything was just amazing. the trees were beautiful, and one tree had christmas lights on it and the light reflecting off of the lights was breathtaking. so we come back to my room, get my stuff and look at a little bit of eye candy (allstarmaterial sent us a link to a good page). my roomie has a poster of a calm scene on a beach in the room and we sat around looking at that and another poster on my wall of robert doisneau's hotel de ville (b&w photo of 2 people kissing...). the people look so in love in that picture, and i just sat there, watching them kiss passionately. it was really romantic. kinda funny though cause at one point in time bc and i saw the same thing in the poster.
anyway, so we watch the walls melt for a bit then go back to the other room. it was nuts in there. 9 people tripping, 3 of which are first time trippers, all in one small room is just chaos. absolute chaos. there was so much going on in the room, so much drama, it was too intense for me and my own trip was becoming VERY intense at this time. i couldnt handle it, so bc and i walked back to my room cause i was on the verge of freaking out. i become quite nauseous and attempt to go to the bathroom to throw up, but take bc's warning that throwing up on acid is quite intense... i was in the bathroom stall and i notice the dots on the walls - it was sweet cause they all formed lines between them and started turning into constellations... but then someone walks in, and i freak out so i leave cause i dont want someone to know i'm in there puking (though i didnt puke) and had they looked at me and my dialated pupils they would have known in an instant i was on something.... so i go back to my room with bc and we chill for a while, talk about some stuff and i eventually calm down... we take a walk and go chill in this remote spot and look at the trees and what not. it was absolutely beautiful. i cant even describe what went through me in words. we decide to go get my stuff from the crazy looney bin (the other kid's dorm room) and chill in my room... we go back there and right away my good trip starts to fall into a freaking out stage again. just by looking at the kids - afraid to leave the room and going absolutely crazy - so we grab my stuff and go back to my room. one of our friends had IM'ed me and said that a party got broken up and they were having the afterparty at their place off-campus. so sweet, we had somewhere to go. so we walk down there - dont know how far - maybe a mile and a half? who knows... but the walk there was great. i definitely like being outside while i am tripping.
bc and i just talked about stuff and looked at stuff. heh i definitely liked looking at a crosswalk sign with a little guy on it and i was like 'the guy.. in the sign... is dancing..' heh.
so eventually we get there, and my first reaction was 'this is great!' people everywhere, a lot of friends there, some people spinning. i see everyone, and i'm tripping my ass off and i looked at everyone and all i could feel was happiness. i felt like i was looking at everyone for the first time again. i was in such a great mood from the walk and everything that had happened up to that point in time. bc went back to his room to get some records because they needed more music to spin... he was gone for a while, and so i go chill in my friends room for a while, however the only light in there is a red lantern... i was kinda scared at first that he wasnt gonna be there - cause earlier in the night whenever i'd start to freak he'd calm me down in an instant... but whatever, so i sit in the room and i'm in this REALLY comfy chair (we named it the k-hole chair) and look at this amazing poster thingy she has of this anime girl with wings - i cant realy describe it (i dont know how it really looks...) but it was just so peaceful and beautiful. she had so many patterns, everything in her room for me to look at. i went in and out of the room often, cause i found i couldnt be in there for too long at a time - but it was great. i eventually found myself totally engrossed in this one small Dali painting - it was of two tigers hovering over this woman laying on the ground. i looked at it and the tigers started to eat away at the woman, and this red spider web looking thing appeared and the tigers continued to eat flesh and they looked at me and i thought they were going to jump out of the picture. i tried to look away but my eyes kept going back to the picture. i wanted to see what else was happenening, and i hoped that i could see something better in the picture so i wouldnt be haunted by it... well that didnt happen cause the tigers continued to freak the shit out of me... i had to get my friend to tell me what HE saw in the picture, so i could somewhat tell what was really going on... he said he saw two tigers and a woman... AHH the woman! she had disappeared on me but when i remembered she was there she appeared again. well that room eventually became really fucking scary for me cause a lot of evil looking pictures are in there... and with the red light... bad bad bad... eventually later when bc returned and was in the room with me and i was looking at some of the pics - prolly the tiger one again - i said i had to get out of there cause the room was evil... then bc said something to me that struck me... he said 'well, evil isnt bad if you are evil' at that split second, EVERYTHING in the room turned red, and i did not want to believe any of it... i was scared shitless. i couldnt handle it at that moment... i knew if i kept thinking about it my trip would turn for the worse... i guess i freaked out a little bit cause everyone was like dude calm down, etc... but throughout the night, i kept thinking 'am i evil'? i began to doubt myself.. wonder what i had gotten into... who had i become? people started turning into devils, and i had to look away because i didnt want to see that - not in my friends. was what i was seeing some subconscious thing that is just now surfacing? or were they just images? things like that i cant really take lightly... i still havent gotten to work all of that out yet. i still have a lot of learning about myself to do... well eventually things went good and bad, i had to go outside a bit with bc to take a walk (the peeps there wouldnt let me go alone) and calm down and look at nature again (seems so peaceful)... so we eventually sat and smoked a bit and later eventually most people left and we walked down to our friend's dorm on campus (i dont remember much of that walk cause i was pretty much stoned and my brain was fried)... we go back to our friend's room, smoke some more there, and look at the amazing tapestries on his walls and two beautiful pictures someone drew - with bright colors - they melted and morphed SO beautifully. i stared at them for quite a long time. well we eventually went back to bc's place and crashed... i was pretty much going in and out of reality then cause i dont remember much at all... i would say something but not remember ever trying or wanting to say it... i just did things without my brain working, really. never been so cracked out before. slept... eventualy woke up and went back to my room to get ready for the party that night...
its really scary yet fascinating, to have everything you have seen, everything you've pretty much ever known all of a sudden be doubted. i realized that night looking at the trees how insignificant humans are... how much we dont really matter... i wondered so often, what is the point of life. i looked at my friends that night, and realized that everyone is just trying to have a little bit of fun - but what is the big plan here? why does anything matter? money? luxury? anything? and these things i were thinking while tripping... were they inside of me but i just surpressed these things all of this time? or was it all just random thoughts/visions? there is so much more to learn, so much out there. i hope one of these days i will figure everything out, and say that i truly know who i am...
sorry that it is so long and pointless, but i figured i should just get most of everything out...
Mellabopper
1-30-01
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animals are for petting!
"does anyone know where we are? because i think i dont have a clue"
"damn the man, save the empire!" - empire records
Corruption is key.
well i dont remember everything that happened and how long everything was, but i found my first acid trip to be an amazing experinece, and i am still thinking about a lot of things that happened that night.
so here's how it all started. a few friends of mine were all tripping in one kid's room whose dorm is not too far from mine. well, bc and i go over there to go see whats up and to meet fellow bluelighter zerotonin who was visiting a friend at our school for the weekend. so we get there around 830 or 9pm or so on friday night (jan 26th). everyone there had already eaten their acid (i think they all had gels), and bc and i come over to deliver some 'goods' to them (heh heh). so everyone starts tripping and bc and i are the only sober ones there (for a change). there are 9 of us total in this small dorm room. yipes. so anyway, bc gets 3 gels when we get there, and he really wants to eat 'em. i am a little apprehensive about it at first cause he was planning on eating a lot the next night (party! - whipped in springfield, MA). we had already planned out that i would have my frist trip with a few people that i feel comfortable with the next weekend (feb 3rd). well after a little talking and a little thinking and a lot of reassurance that if anything shitty happened that bc'd take care of me, i decided to eat one of the gels. it was about 11pm or so at the time (i think?). well we all go outside to have a cigarette... come back in... chill a bit and i guess it was about a half hour, maybe 45 min after i ate my gel that we go have another cig. bc and two of the girls that were tripping already go get some water and what not and i go back inside to the dorm room. right outside of the door, someone spilled a lot of reeses pieces on the ground. i look at them, and there seems to be a ring of color around each of them (depending on which color they are), and i notice the pattern on the floor more than i had ever before. wow. i get back inside the room and just lay on the bed, waiting for the trip to become more intense and hoping for the slight nausea to wear off. after a while (dont know when) bc and the rest came back and we all chilled around a bit. i figured i wanted to be more comfy so bc and i walk back to my room so i can get my hoodie (comfort item!) and what not. i noticed the blue emergency lights on the walk to my dorm were amazingly beautiful! everything was just amazing. the trees were beautiful, and one tree had christmas lights on it and the light reflecting off of the lights was breathtaking. so we come back to my room, get my stuff and look at a little bit of eye candy (allstarmaterial sent us a link to a good page). my roomie has a poster of a calm scene on a beach in the room and we sat around looking at that and another poster on my wall of robert doisneau's hotel de ville (b&w photo of 2 people kissing...). the people look so in love in that picture, and i just sat there, watching them kiss passionately. it was really romantic. kinda funny though cause at one point in time bc and i saw the same thing in the poster.
its really scary yet fascinating, to have everything you have seen, everything you've pretty much ever known all of a sudden be doubted. i realized that night looking at the trees how insignificant humans are... how much we dont really matter... i wondered so often, what is the point of life. i looked at my friends that night, and realized that everyone is just trying to have a little bit of fun - but what is the big plan here? why does anything matter? money? luxury? anything? and these things i were thinking while tripping... were they inside of me but i just surpressed these things all of this time? or was it all just random thoughts/visions? there is so much more to learn, so much out there. i hope one of these days i will figure everything out, and say that i truly know who i am...
sorry that it is so long and pointless, but i figured i should just get most of everything out...
Mellabopper
1-30-01
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animals are for petting!
"does anyone know where we are? because i think i dont have a clue"
"damn the man, save the empire!" - empire records
Corruption is key.
