Well I'll start with I believe that I always handle drugs well. I do a lot of research on it just like everyone else here, thats why we all ended up her duhh! I was mostly into ecstasy and weed but during that period I was doing good amounts of Special K. Now to continue, This was during the summer of last year I was on youtube a lot looking into drugs and what not. I always knew about LSD ever since I was about 8 years old or so [19 Years of age now]. I always felt that I would not be able to handle it because of all the scary stories people speak of constantly. Well, anyways I was on youtube and I came across a video of a homeless guy hitting up like 10-12 drops of acid and I thought he was a total bug out. I must admit he handled it like a champ. So after a few hours I called up a buddy of mine to see if he was down for this rare experience. He agreed if with more people, So I started calling a few of our other buddys who we all knew mutually [Keep in mind these guys are all major Special K users]. So long story short i got a group of 5 including myself and my 1st friend that I called. We made a date to reserve for the following week on a saturday so that its a good amount of time for everyone to clear their schedule and not make any plans for that day.
Saturday is here. I wait for a buddy of mine to get out of work and he picks me up and I buy the 5 tabs of non graphical print. We head out to a meet up spot around the shore because during that time its was a beautiful scenery with low light,A beautiful bridge and the ocean being as long and wide as your hearts extent. Plus, It wasn't that crowded or filled with Police/Undercover agents, this way i thought it would be beneficial. Soo we park around the shore and before we get out this small cramped tuner car [Don't know how we all fit but we managed] we all take the tabs and hold it under our tongues. As we make the walk we are making prediction conversations as well as asking a friend of ours whats the feeling and all those post effect questions. When we got to the shore and walked for a few bits we started to notice some effects such as laughter,clearer view of colors as well as feeling the wind that was coming through in a more crisp way if that makes any sense. Half way walking [Keep in mind this shore is long which follows a freeway] we decided to get some snack food at a restaurant. So 30 minutes later we get to the damn fast food restaurant and half of our friends start to get in line and the rest of us sit down including me. As all of this is happening, one friend goes to the bathroom and he is there for a while so we start making jokes that he is bugging out in the bathroom and stuff. I later look at a friend of mine which is standing at the line still and he gives me the face of where did some people go? I texted him and he gets the test and im looking straight at him because i know he is gonna start laughing his ass off. In which, He very much did. People thought he was crazy because of how hard he was laughing and then they saw me laughing with tears going down my eyes. As everyone gets back and everyone is at the table it was extremely hard for everyone not to laugh at each other because a certain friend of ours was already starting to feel the effects hard and he is just enjoying himself though and munching down his food and laughing at his cup because its all colorful and the colors are popping out, he is just loving it.
After we stay there a while, things start to take a turn. Our friend needs to leave because he made up an excuse just to leave even though he was stating that he had to meet someone. He wasn't bugging or anything, I just figured he wanted to trip at home and considering he is the driver he has to drive a pretty far drive to his house. It was understandable for him to get home before it really starts kicking in and he wouldn't be able to drive home. Following that another friend has to leave because he works night shift as a guy who fuels cargo trucks [Same kid which was enjoying his cup being all vibrant], totally understandable but he didn't leave till later where the story continues. As the rain progresses it becomes into a heavy storm and we are all trapped in the damn fast food restaurant. All of a sudden a friend of ours comes out of the bathroom and we ask what took so damn long, He told me to come into the bathroom and he was just like come and see for yourself. So I ended up coming in and I see one of my other friends just looking into the mirror fixing his Blow out hair. I started dying from laughter, I eventually went into a stall and started to piss but while i pissed i started to examine the walls closely and it all started to look like i was viewing it under a magnifying glass that had a ripple effect. I was highly enjoying my piss. The stalls were made out of plastic and had like little X's on them in a pattern. This was extremely cool because of how detailed everything was when i looked at it. I ended up standing in the stall for like 8 minutes just allowing myself to trip myself out more and letting the drug take over instead of me trying to control it. As I finally get out of the stall, I see my friend still fixing his blow out and dancing! Dancing? I have no clue to what melody was going on in his head but it was sure funny. After awhile the whole rest of the group comes into the bathroom and asks what the hell we were doing and as they come in they see me staring at the blow out guy and they all see him dancing still and they just break out into tears and we are all looking like crazies at a party in the bathroom. We all start to share the details of how trippy it was looking in the mirror and i proceed to show them the stalls texture like a total goof ball. As we get out of the bathroom the storm has died down and I personally felt like I was in the bathroom wasting time for an hour. We all start to head out and take a walk. As we are taking the walk [Keep in mind we are down to 4 people now] I noticed that nothing more is really happening besides vibrant colors and like a crystal crisp view of everything! I propose that we all get one more tab. A few moment later everyone agrees and off we go on another adventure to score some more. Fast forward when we get there and all ingest the second tab. Two people have to leave and so now its left with my friend who i originally asked to do it with me and myself. So as we walk , he proposed that we smoke some weed. I agreed and off we go to his house and we smoke. We then decided to go walk around and as we walk, things start to get weird!
This is where the bad things start to happen. He starts to speak of the devil and how he feels like the earth we walk on is actually hell. That we are puppets, etc etc. I noticed I started breathing heavily while walking, my guess is because we were talking fast and walking fast in addition smoking cigarettes. Well, as we continue walking I notice he starts to become extremely quiet and I think he was losing his reality from what I read or something is wrong. So I encourage him to start thinking positive and don't trick yourself into a bad trip. This goes on for another block or like 6 minutes to be exact. I started worrying about him and I started to notice that we eventually stop having all communication and accidentally start constantly bumping into each other as if we are both disoriented or something like that. I then notice that I feel like im just a walking corpse and I see like videos in my head. All of a sudden, I catch myself slipping from reality and I bring myself back up from what i like to call the "hole" [Kinda like related to alice in wonderland]. I snap out of the thinking/dream state and I notice we walked 10 blocks from the location where i started to notice weird things were going on. I also looked around and I heard screaming, I quickly turn , I see my friend bugging the fuck out! He was just screaming and going crazy as well as just pretending to fighting in the middle of the road. I quickly get shocked and start thinking of way to get him off the street because firstly it's not safe, Secondly we were right outside of a public elementary school! I thought to myself that if I don't get him off the street quickly he can get hit by a car or someone can see him and call the police. I was totally not down with explaining to the cops that he and I took acid and he was just bugging the fuck out! So I try my best to get him off the street, successfully after 10 minutes of trying to draw his attention I get him to come to the side walk. All of a sudden when I try to get near him he gets frightened and starts to put his hands up like i was going to fight him or hurt him in anyway. I remember reading that when someone is tripping their ass off not to make any sudden movements to get them scared or feel as if your an entity that wants to do harm to them. So I start telling him that he should snap out of it, I was saying something like " Dude! You have to wake up! Don't let the LSD take over your mind! You have to bring your self out of the hole!" It's like i was calling his inner self, I felt that somewhere deep down inside he could hear me and that was the best way to try to wake him out of his dream state. It did not bring any luck at all. We looked like idiots screaming at each other on the sidewalk for a good 20 minutes! I kinda noticed that when I start backing up a little further he gets closer. So I decided to use the good old hunting technique to lure him off the block and get him to a much quieter area that will be more safe of an environment. This worked for about a block once again. I kept trying to convince him that i'm his friend and that I wasn't going to hurt him! Further more , I started to notice the harder I tried to get him to come the more confused I started to get and the more I would blank out like I originally did in my own thought process. Keep in mind I'm always thinking of logical and scientific ways that I can assure myself whether it comes to drugs or fixing things. Follow laws of physics and what not. So i quickly pull out my phone and I start keeping up with the time. This provided me with knowledge on how long I blanked out for if it did happen again for any reason. This method actually helped me stay in he real world as well as keep my focused enough. I tried about everything to convince my friend that it was all just a high and that it will all soon go away and that all he thinks is real is what the drugs are doing to him. Well....That didn't work to well. So I came up with a plan to call a friend of mine who left earlier [The experienced lsd user], This was actually another way for me to stay out of the dream world. I told him what was going on with my friend and he kinda laughed and just stated he is tripping balls right now. I said yeahh, try talking to him and explaining that nothing of this is real and that he should snap out of it. I put the phone on speaker phone and so he did. The response we got was insane. My friend started yelling that I was talking to the devil on the phone and that I was taking orders from him on what to say. I told him no its our friend on the phone listen to him, he refused and continued to state that its the devil trying to control us. Oh man... I didn't know what to do. Keep in mind an hour has passed and we have only moved about 4 blocks in one hour!!!!! So my friend decides to get off the phone and we hang up. I started to think of more alternatives to help my friend who was tripping out hard! All of a sudden I loose myself again, I come back into a reality, check my phone, I was gone in wonderland for like 5-8 minutes. I then remember, WHERE IS MY FRIEND I DON'T SEE HIM ANYWHERE!I told myself, I can't believe I just lost a person, more over he just lost himself and doesn't know where he is. I look all over! I decided I will start tracking back from where I started. I walked the same exact way we came from his house and went to check if his room lights were on if for any reason he went home or something somehow. Nope, He wasn't home! This is now about 7AM. I started looking all over my neighborhood for him. I couldn't find him. I looked all over from 7AM-10AM. At 10AM, I decided I will come home because I was hoping that he actually went home and knocked out or something. Come 11AM, I wake up to a phone call with a weird number I have never seen. Usually I never pick up numbers I don't know but under there circumstances I pick it up. This is what I hear "You have an incoming call from Blah Blah Hospital, Would you like to accept this call, If so press 1 if no press 2" I press 1. It's my friend... He got admitted into the nearest hospital. He sounded so dead when he was talking to me. I think its because they administered some drugs to calm him down. I asked him what happened, he starts to tell me he doesn't know. He states that what the hospital says is that, he ended up going into a building and going crazy monkey man jumping off the walls and screaming,banging on walls and doors. I asked, how did you not get arrested? He told me that there was an old couple that actually called the ambulance instead of the cops. I was soo happy that they did that, I don't know how it would turn out if it was the other way around. Well, anyways when get to the hospital they immediately injected him with IV drops as well as asked him what he took because they saw it wasn't a psychological disorder. The actually found his College ID and ran that and got all his insurance information and everything. After awhile he was able to say that he took LSD and they immediately treated him with what ever the did, I'm not to sure as to what they exactly did because I wasn't there. Anyways, He asked me to pick him up from the hospital and so I did. When I got there he was missing clothing which was in a way funny but I wasn't laughing since it was serious and I was just glad he is okay.
So now on to the matter of what has happened to me after this. I used to smoke weed with no anxieties or anything. Now almost everytime I smoke I feel a tight chest and i feel as if my organs hurt and don't want to accept the THC. I always get very bad thoughts when i'm alone on weed. Especially about police. The police anxiety adds in because I have been abused by cops and they have done illegal corrupt things to throw me in jail and because of that I had to deal with a felony case in which I won because lack of evidence and the judge who was presenting my case grew up with my lawyer together playing baseball, maybe that helped in a way. So I have that anxiety. I now feel as if I can not spell properly. I always mess up in spelling and have to use auto correct. Which is weird because I used to spell great before that and always got 100%'s on spelling test and english was one of my strongest subject besides science. I wrote great essays. Now as you can see, I feel as if my essays are not to par. It just feels so weird. I think that maybe its me keyboard going bad because its very old and has broken pieces which mess me up a lot and that is reprogramming my brain to type falsely with grammatical errors. So anxieties is the biggest issue at the moment. I actually rarely get these anxieties on ecstasy! Just on the come down my chest feels heavy but I assume thats because of how heavy i smoke while rolling.
As for my friend. He has been seeing demons more often or thinking about them. I remember we were in a car while he was driving and he was explaining to me how at night the red tail lights of cars remind him of eyes. Bridge lights remind him of eyes as well. I forgot to mention that during our LSD trip together when it went sour, It was a very scary environment , It seems as a horror movie. The best way to describe is it looked like from "Jack Skellington Nightmare Before Christmas" like the way tim burton explains the tree's being almost like a circle around you and sharp edges and what not. The freakiest thing that happened was during our trip going sour, We did not speak coherent words, we mumbled to each other and it felt in my mind like we understood each other. Because I remember mumbling a conversation with him and he finished my sentence in a mumble and we both snapped our finger and pointed at each other. This happened many times on different occasion. Once we noticed we thought we can read each others minds we tested it! We stood in the middle of the block,exactly in the middle. We mumbled to each other stating that we can stop at any time when we get around the corer but we have to end up back at the same spot at the same time exactly where we originally stood. It actually worked. We were back at the same spot at the same time. It was quite weird. Anyways back to the point, He still feels to this very day as if this is hell we are living in. He is doing much better with visuals and what not but its still there!
Lately I've been thinking that they only way for me to deal with the anxieties and get rid of them is to actually take acid again and confront those fears. Confront everything! Although the best time I had on LSD was when I got home at 10AM, I put on my headset and i youtubed Calming music on my phone and layed in bed. It actually help me calm down and my heart rate as well as get rid of bad thoughts. I then put on 8 bit music. That 8bit music made me feel like I was flying through space with all these light tracers in my mind. It was soo amazing, Such an amazing experience. I taught myself to wake up every 20 minutes on the dot to change the song. That worked well for me. It was on the dot all the time! I just can't explain how beautiful the visuals were in my mind layind down flying through space. It was pure bliss! I felt soo much love from all the planets. I felt like I was one with our solar system. Accepting all types of life in to my life. Beautifully accepting all the perfections and imperfections of this cruel world! I earn to get this feeling back and fight off all the negativity in my life, if i do decide to do LSD again. I would actually love some imput from you guys on all of this. Some advice as into music, thoughts, environment, anything that will be beneficial! I will try to do this in my house this time and lay in bed and just float on top of the world again. Thanks for reading guys! Hope you enjoyed my first experience. Again, I highly apologize for any grammatical errors there might be!
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Saturday is here. I wait for a buddy of mine to get out of work and he picks me up and I buy the 5 tabs of non graphical print. We head out to a meet up spot around the shore because during that time its was a beautiful scenery with low light,A beautiful bridge and the ocean being as long and wide as your hearts extent. Plus, It wasn't that crowded or filled with Police/Undercover agents, this way i thought it would be beneficial. Soo we park around the shore and before we get out this small cramped tuner car [Don't know how we all fit but we managed] we all take the tabs and hold it under our tongues. As we make the walk we are making prediction conversations as well as asking a friend of ours whats the feeling and all those post effect questions. When we got to the shore and walked for a few bits we started to notice some effects such as laughter,clearer view of colors as well as feeling the wind that was coming through in a more crisp way if that makes any sense. Half way walking [Keep in mind this shore is long which follows a freeway] we decided to get some snack food at a restaurant. So 30 minutes later we get to the damn fast food restaurant and half of our friends start to get in line and the rest of us sit down including me. As all of this is happening, one friend goes to the bathroom and he is there for a while so we start making jokes that he is bugging out in the bathroom and stuff. I later look at a friend of mine which is standing at the line still and he gives me the face of where did some people go? I texted him and he gets the test and im looking straight at him because i know he is gonna start laughing his ass off. In which, He very much did. People thought he was crazy because of how hard he was laughing and then they saw me laughing with tears going down my eyes. As everyone gets back and everyone is at the table it was extremely hard for everyone not to laugh at each other because a certain friend of ours was already starting to feel the effects hard and he is just enjoying himself though and munching down his food and laughing at his cup because its all colorful and the colors are popping out, he is just loving it.
After we stay there a while, things start to take a turn. Our friend needs to leave because he made up an excuse just to leave even though he was stating that he had to meet someone. He wasn't bugging or anything, I just figured he wanted to trip at home and considering he is the driver he has to drive a pretty far drive to his house. It was understandable for him to get home before it really starts kicking in and he wouldn't be able to drive home. Following that another friend has to leave because he works night shift as a guy who fuels cargo trucks [Same kid which was enjoying his cup being all vibrant], totally understandable but he didn't leave till later where the story continues. As the rain progresses it becomes into a heavy storm and we are all trapped in the damn fast food restaurant. All of a sudden a friend of ours comes out of the bathroom and we ask what took so damn long, He told me to come into the bathroom and he was just like come and see for yourself. So I ended up coming in and I see one of my other friends just looking into the mirror fixing his Blow out hair. I started dying from laughter, I eventually went into a stall and started to piss but while i pissed i started to examine the walls closely and it all started to look like i was viewing it under a magnifying glass that had a ripple effect. I was highly enjoying my piss. The stalls were made out of plastic and had like little X's on them in a pattern. This was extremely cool because of how detailed everything was when i looked at it. I ended up standing in the stall for like 8 minutes just allowing myself to trip myself out more and letting the drug take over instead of me trying to control it. As I finally get out of the stall, I see my friend still fixing his blow out and dancing! Dancing? I have no clue to what melody was going on in his head but it was sure funny. After awhile the whole rest of the group comes into the bathroom and asks what the hell we were doing and as they come in they see me staring at the blow out guy and they all see him dancing still and they just break out into tears and we are all looking like crazies at a party in the bathroom. We all start to share the details of how trippy it was looking in the mirror and i proceed to show them the stalls texture like a total goof ball. As we get out of the bathroom the storm has died down and I personally felt like I was in the bathroom wasting time for an hour. We all start to head out and take a walk. As we are taking the walk [Keep in mind we are down to 4 people now] I noticed that nothing more is really happening besides vibrant colors and like a crystal crisp view of everything! I propose that we all get one more tab. A few moment later everyone agrees and off we go on another adventure to score some more. Fast forward when we get there and all ingest the second tab. Two people have to leave and so now its left with my friend who i originally asked to do it with me and myself. So as we walk , he proposed that we smoke some weed. I agreed and off we go to his house and we smoke. We then decided to go walk around and as we walk, things start to get weird!
This is where the bad things start to happen. He starts to speak of the devil and how he feels like the earth we walk on is actually hell. That we are puppets, etc etc. I noticed I started breathing heavily while walking, my guess is because we were talking fast and walking fast in addition smoking cigarettes. Well, as we continue walking I notice he starts to become extremely quiet and I think he was losing his reality from what I read or something is wrong. So I encourage him to start thinking positive and don't trick yourself into a bad trip. This goes on for another block or like 6 minutes to be exact. I started worrying about him and I started to notice that we eventually stop having all communication and accidentally start constantly bumping into each other as if we are both disoriented or something like that. I then notice that I feel like im just a walking corpse and I see like videos in my head. All of a sudden, I catch myself slipping from reality and I bring myself back up from what i like to call the "hole" [Kinda like related to alice in wonderland]. I snap out of the thinking/dream state and I notice we walked 10 blocks from the location where i started to notice weird things were going on. I also looked around and I heard screaming, I quickly turn , I see my friend bugging the fuck out! He was just screaming and going crazy as well as just pretending to fighting in the middle of the road. I quickly get shocked and start thinking of way to get him off the street because firstly it's not safe, Secondly we were right outside of a public elementary school! I thought to myself that if I don't get him off the street quickly he can get hit by a car or someone can see him and call the police. I was totally not down with explaining to the cops that he and I took acid and he was just bugging the fuck out! So I try my best to get him off the street, successfully after 10 minutes of trying to draw his attention I get him to come to the side walk. All of a sudden when I try to get near him he gets frightened and starts to put his hands up like i was going to fight him or hurt him in anyway. I remember reading that when someone is tripping their ass off not to make any sudden movements to get them scared or feel as if your an entity that wants to do harm to them. So I start telling him that he should snap out of it, I was saying something like " Dude! You have to wake up! Don't let the LSD take over your mind! You have to bring your self out of the hole!" It's like i was calling his inner self, I felt that somewhere deep down inside he could hear me and that was the best way to try to wake him out of his dream state. It did not bring any luck at all. We looked like idiots screaming at each other on the sidewalk for a good 20 minutes! I kinda noticed that when I start backing up a little further he gets closer. So I decided to use the good old hunting technique to lure him off the block and get him to a much quieter area that will be more safe of an environment. This worked for about a block once again. I kept trying to convince him that i'm his friend and that I wasn't going to hurt him! Further more , I started to notice the harder I tried to get him to come the more confused I started to get and the more I would blank out like I originally did in my own thought process. Keep in mind I'm always thinking of logical and scientific ways that I can assure myself whether it comes to drugs or fixing things. Follow laws of physics and what not. So i quickly pull out my phone and I start keeping up with the time. This provided me with knowledge on how long I blanked out for if it did happen again for any reason. This method actually helped me stay in he real world as well as keep my focused enough. I tried about everything to convince my friend that it was all just a high and that it will all soon go away and that all he thinks is real is what the drugs are doing to him. Well....That didn't work to well. So I came up with a plan to call a friend of mine who left earlier [The experienced lsd user], This was actually another way for me to stay out of the dream world. I told him what was going on with my friend and he kinda laughed and just stated he is tripping balls right now. I said yeahh, try talking to him and explaining that nothing of this is real and that he should snap out of it. I put the phone on speaker phone and so he did. The response we got was insane. My friend started yelling that I was talking to the devil on the phone and that I was taking orders from him on what to say. I told him no its our friend on the phone listen to him, he refused and continued to state that its the devil trying to control us. Oh man... I didn't know what to do. Keep in mind an hour has passed and we have only moved about 4 blocks in one hour!!!!! So my friend decides to get off the phone and we hang up. I started to think of more alternatives to help my friend who was tripping out hard! All of a sudden I loose myself again, I come back into a reality, check my phone, I was gone in wonderland for like 5-8 minutes. I then remember, WHERE IS MY FRIEND I DON'T SEE HIM ANYWHERE!I told myself, I can't believe I just lost a person, more over he just lost himself and doesn't know where he is. I look all over! I decided I will start tracking back from where I started. I walked the same exact way we came from his house and went to check if his room lights were on if for any reason he went home or something somehow. Nope, He wasn't home! This is now about 7AM. I started looking all over my neighborhood for him. I couldn't find him. I looked all over from 7AM-10AM. At 10AM, I decided I will come home because I was hoping that he actually went home and knocked out or something. Come 11AM, I wake up to a phone call with a weird number I have never seen. Usually I never pick up numbers I don't know but under there circumstances I pick it up. This is what I hear "You have an incoming call from Blah Blah Hospital, Would you like to accept this call, If so press 1 if no press 2" I press 1. It's my friend... He got admitted into the nearest hospital. He sounded so dead when he was talking to me. I think its because they administered some drugs to calm him down. I asked him what happened, he starts to tell me he doesn't know. He states that what the hospital says is that, he ended up going into a building and going crazy monkey man jumping off the walls and screaming,banging on walls and doors. I asked, how did you not get arrested? He told me that there was an old couple that actually called the ambulance instead of the cops. I was soo happy that they did that, I don't know how it would turn out if it was the other way around. Well, anyways when get to the hospital they immediately injected him with IV drops as well as asked him what he took because they saw it wasn't a psychological disorder. The actually found his College ID and ran that and got all his insurance information and everything. After awhile he was able to say that he took LSD and they immediately treated him with what ever the did, I'm not to sure as to what they exactly did because I wasn't there. Anyways, He asked me to pick him up from the hospital and so I did. When I got there he was missing clothing which was in a way funny but I wasn't laughing since it was serious and I was just glad he is okay.
So now on to the matter of what has happened to me after this. I used to smoke weed with no anxieties or anything. Now almost everytime I smoke I feel a tight chest and i feel as if my organs hurt and don't want to accept the THC. I always get very bad thoughts when i'm alone on weed. Especially about police. The police anxiety adds in because I have been abused by cops and they have done illegal corrupt things to throw me in jail and because of that I had to deal with a felony case in which I won because lack of evidence and the judge who was presenting my case grew up with my lawyer together playing baseball, maybe that helped in a way. So I have that anxiety. I now feel as if I can not spell properly. I always mess up in spelling and have to use auto correct. Which is weird because I used to spell great before that and always got 100%'s on spelling test and english was one of my strongest subject besides science. I wrote great essays. Now as you can see, I feel as if my essays are not to par. It just feels so weird. I think that maybe its me keyboard going bad because its very old and has broken pieces which mess me up a lot and that is reprogramming my brain to type falsely with grammatical errors. So anxieties is the biggest issue at the moment. I actually rarely get these anxieties on ecstasy! Just on the come down my chest feels heavy but I assume thats because of how heavy i smoke while rolling.
As for my friend. He has been seeing demons more often or thinking about them. I remember we were in a car while he was driving and he was explaining to me how at night the red tail lights of cars remind him of eyes. Bridge lights remind him of eyes as well. I forgot to mention that during our LSD trip together when it went sour, It was a very scary environment , It seems as a horror movie. The best way to describe is it looked like from "Jack Skellington Nightmare Before Christmas" like the way tim burton explains the tree's being almost like a circle around you and sharp edges and what not. The freakiest thing that happened was during our trip going sour, We did not speak coherent words, we mumbled to each other and it felt in my mind like we understood each other. Because I remember mumbling a conversation with him and he finished my sentence in a mumble and we both snapped our finger and pointed at each other. This happened many times on different occasion. Once we noticed we thought we can read each others minds we tested it! We stood in the middle of the block,exactly in the middle. We mumbled to each other stating that we can stop at any time when we get around the corer but we have to end up back at the same spot at the same time exactly where we originally stood. It actually worked. We were back at the same spot at the same time. It was quite weird. Anyways back to the point, He still feels to this very day as if this is hell we are living in. He is doing much better with visuals and what not but its still there!
Lately I've been thinking that they only way for me to deal with the anxieties and get rid of them is to actually take acid again and confront those fears. Confront everything! Although the best time I had on LSD was when I got home at 10AM, I put on my headset and i youtubed Calming music on my phone and layed in bed. It actually help me calm down and my heart rate as well as get rid of bad thoughts. I then put on 8 bit music. That 8bit music made me feel like I was flying through space with all these light tracers in my mind. It was soo amazing, Such an amazing experience. I taught myself to wake up every 20 minutes on the dot to change the song. That worked well for me. It was on the dot all the time! I just can't explain how beautiful the visuals were in my mind layind down flying through space. It was pure bliss! I felt soo much love from all the planets. I felt like I was one with our solar system. Accepting all types of life in to my life. Beautifully accepting all the perfections and imperfections of this cruel world! I earn to get this feeling back and fight off all the negativity in my life, if i do decide to do LSD again. I would actually love some imput from you guys on all of this. Some advice as into music, thoughts, environment, anything that will be beneficial! I will try to do this in my house this time and lay in bed and just float on top of the world again. Thanks for reading guys! Hope you enjoyed my first experience. Again, I highly apologize for any grammatical errors there might be!
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