julybrasil
Bluelighter
Hello, Im sure some of you recognize my name, i was the one who posted the thread "just took LSD 5 min ago" on the pschadelics forum.
First i would like to thank you for talking to me during my come up, which was quite scary.
Me and my bf decided to try LSD when one of my boyfriend's friend said he always has stamps and he has been taking it for years. For one whole week i read all i could about LSD and we asked my bf's friend a million questions. First we wanted to do it at a festiva. My boyfriend's friend was like NO WAY, for your first time! The best place to do it is at your own house, just the two of u, trust me.
I didnt understand why, i use mdma about once a month and i love to be out. Doing mdma in the house makes me feel like a druggie. But anyways, he is an experienced lsd, and he is a good friend, so im sure he had the best interest.
He also told us to eat 2 stamps each so we could really get "in the zone". He said if we too 1, we would feel it, but we would not get in the zone and not have a true LSD experience. He did not even charge us for the stamps, so i was sure again he had the best interest. He was very helpful all week giving us advices and such.
Friday comes, my bf get home from work and we eat 2 stamps each at around 6:45pm. I was very nervous, i had no idea what to expect. The only drug that i had to compare was mdma. I didnt take LSD just to get "fucked up", i can do that with something else. I was really ready to accept whatever came and flow with it, and hopefully get much more than just getting fucked up.
We didnt really know what to do, so we put some cartoons on, laughed a little, and then put "fear and loathing in las vegas". About 1 hour had passed and i was feeling really strange. MY body was tingling a little, i felt kinda slow but at the same time stimulated. Things were starting to move in waves, but just a little. I was just waiting for my visuals....
HAHA, visuals? Visuals is nothing on a LDS trip, i had no idea what was coming...
I start getting kinda bored of the movie, maybe that wasnt the best time yet to put that kind of movie. Almost 2 hours had passed and i kept feeling very strange, and such a bodyload. I start getting scared and think "is this what im gonna feel all night, this sucks..but let me go with it cause right now i have no choice". We decide to go for a walk around the block. By this time im a little confused, thoughts start racing through my mind, it takes us about 10 minutes of trying to find our jackets and shoes to finally go outside.
We start walking, it's very dark. My body feels weird and numb. I can barely feel my legs and my feet. Im not stumbling at all like i would be with any other drugs, but INISDE, i feel like it's hard to walk because of the numbness.
I can hear almost evertything outside, sound is definately intensified. Things look a little weird. We turn the corner and there is a bunch of traffic light that all of a sudden look like a million cop cars with the sirens! I freak out for a second, jump and look back to noticed they are just traffic lights. Wowww that was wierd as hell, but kinda cool at the same time. Thr block looks sooo long. We get back home and it feels sooo good to get into a safe place, our house looks sooo cozy. I jump in the couch and feel like a child, so safe.
So we put "the wall". I think my bf is already "there", but im still coming up. It's like 9:30, i cant believe it's taking so long and time is going so slow. Shit, i keep thinking this is all im gonna feel, how can people like this drug.
We put the Wall, and my bf tells me he feels like he is in the movie, he can feel the kid's emotion and inocence. Me? Im watching the movie but cant pay attention to whats happening. Thought and more thoughts race through my mind, im started to feel VERY confused. Like a clock that all of a sudden is stopping and trying to turn counter clockwise.
I am completely losing sense of time. I know what time it is, but i dont understand what time means! I can no longer understant the concept of time, i dont know how 3 hours is different from 30 min.
Fucking body load out of this world. This is all very weird, what the hell is happening. We take "the wall" out, this movie is too freaking dark. So we put "the chocolate factory" so we can lighten up. All the kids' faces look ugly as hell. I cant believe how ugly and annoying these kids are. Once again, im looking at the movie but cannot pay attention to it. Im so fucking confused!!!!!!
I start losing concept of reality and the drug itself. I forget that we tried LSD to have a good time, it seems like this is the real way to feel, or that we are doing something really serious. It seems there is a serious reason why we took this drug and i go into this loop of thoughts to try to find what the reason is. I think about people that have taken LSD and what they do, so what should i be doing? Then it hits me again that nooo,, this is just a drug. So now im like in between reality and losing concept of reality.
About 10 or 10:30, it fucking HITS ME LIKE A TON OF BRICKS. The mind fuck just hits me times 100!!!! It feels like glass that all of s sudden just broke into a million pieces. I stand up about to freak the hell out, i cannot control my mind. This is so fucking powerful, i cannot believe it, i cannot grasp how something can be so powerful, it's just impossible!!! I stand up and run to the room, my bf comes after me and tried to calm me down. This is the crucial moment where things can turn either good or bad. I try my hardest to flow with it but to turn it into something good. It is so hard!
I lay in bed and my body feels ELETRIC. I move my hands/arms and this eletric trail follows it. I can feel the energy,the electricity around me and the house. I can hear it!!! Bzzzzzzzzzzzzz! It's like im part of a current. Everything is moving in waves. I have so many thoughts of so many things i want to do right now! I wanna scream, i wanna laugh, i wanna make crazy faces, i dont know what i want to do. My bf's faces looks normal so i get paranoid that he is not in the same state of mind that i am, so i get paranoid. I dont let it all go cause im sure he is gonna think im crazy. Then he tells me he is just as fucked up.
I calm down a little, but i still dont like the feeling to much. Too powerful and hard to control. Too confusing. It is sooooo confusing, that's how i can describe it. I dont know, i just dont know. That's how i feel. This is too much, it's so much that it cannot be so much, i cant grasp it.
We go for another walk. I dont feel my legs at all, i dont even know how im walking. I see two guys in bicycles on the street coming towards us, only to realize when they pass us thay they are actually walking. I can hear them saying something bad about but then i realize it's just my imagination. I dont see a lot of visuals outside because its too dark. We get back home.
NOW IM IN THE ZONE. This is mindblowing. Im in La LA land, but things are not as confusing anymore. I am more fucked up that ever, but i feel like my mind is wearing glasses because things are so clear. I kinda lost sense of reality but i know exactly what's going on. How can that be?? How can i be so out if it, so fucked up, but so clear? I am not stumbling, my face doesnt look all fucked up, im not slurring words, i can even type. But my mind is gone. It blew. It's going counter clockwise and really fast.
Me and my bf start talking about it. It's amazing, the music is on and i feel the music like an electric current going through the whole house, my body and then out of my body and into my boyfriend's body. He knows exactly what im talking about. We have a current going through us. Comes out of me and into him, out of him and into me. It doesnt stop. I cant finish my sentences sometimes because that thought just goes so fast through my mind that i lose it before another million thoughts come rushing in. But it;s ok, it's not scary anymore. And i dont need to finish my sentences because my bf understands. We talk and laugh about it and cannot understand how this feeling can be possible. So powerful.
He puts Daft Punk: Interstella 5555 in the computer. We start watching it and go into our own little worlds. He is really watching the video. I am lloking at it and FEELING the music through my body and thinking so much. So instrospective. But my thought seem to be in a loop, they always end up being about the same thing. About LSD. I think about it and the reason we r doing and the hippies that have done it, and what can you and should u do on it. I think about how rolling is so much easier than this, but this is so much more rewarding. Sometimes it gets a little difficult, but everytime i turn things even more around, it feels OH SO GOOD...because im actually working on it. Sometimes it feels exausting, yes. But still so wonderful.
I feel hugged, embraced by some force. It feels cozy and electric. What is this electricity,this current everywhere? I dont know ,but it's my favorite part. It's flowing through the whole room, it looks amazing, it feels amazing.
Sometimes i try to change my train of thought because i keep thinking about the same thing, like a loop. Stop thinking about the drug and what to do with it, try to pay attention to the tv and just feel it. But those thoughts come back and i just let them because i dont wanna force anything. I just wish i could let go more, but it;s too hard because my mind is not really understanding this, this is all too new.
At about 2:00 am i come down a little. Im still tripping, but it's not as powerful. I kinda dont know what to do with myself, i wanna do so many things. I wanna lay in bed, i wanna go outside and lay in the grass and look at flowers, i wanna dance, i wanna sit...i really wanna do those things but i just cant. I just sit there and get lost in my own mind, still feeling all that energy. I start feeling a little unfomfortable at times, because i feel so much, i want to do those things so much but i just cant move.
I look at the time and think, i wish it was later, i think i had enough, this is too much. But i know that's just gonna make things worse so i gather all the mind energy i still have and keep flowing with it. Once i do that, it feels amazing. But i gotta work hard on this to feel amazing.
At about 3 am, i go lay in bed. Ohhh yes, my bed feels so cozy and good. I think "should i be dancing or doing more that what im doing, i need to get more out of this drug"...but i realize i shoud just do what i wanna do, which is lay in bed cause my mind is so exausted. I close my eyes to try to rest them, and i see beautiful trails that go with the music that i can hear from the living room. I open my eyes and look at my closet and an electricity flow is going through it, with the music. That flow comes out and just engulfs the room, like a constellation in space. It's nice. It's relaxing. Very beautiful. I wish i could endure more and get more out of it, but im just so tired. I try to think of reality, but my mind still wont let me. Shit. It's not over yet. But im too tired so i take a xanax and fall very nicely into sleep. My mind is so exausted that i dont even have dreams.
The next day i feel normal. A little slow from the xanax. But i feel very peaceful. So different from mdma. I feel like i didnt do anything the night before. My mind feels a little numb, like i cant feel to many emotions, i guess cause it had an overload the night before. But that's ok, it actually feels good, it feels like my mind is resting. Me and my bf talk about the experience, and it feels amazing to talk to him about it. Come to think, he is the only person right now i would feel comfortable doing LSd with. Anyone else, i would freak out and think they are judging me. It show me how close i feel to him. And it's a true feeling, unlike MDMA where all the feeling are fake.
I realize that during out trip, all our feelings were real. We were never overly emotional like we are when we roll. Sometimes we talked, sometimes we were alone and the times we said "i love u" or kissed and just as normal as we would do on a normal day. I loved that.
Well...sorry for the long report. I dont know if i explained my trip how it really was, but it;s impossible to put into words the way i felt. It's a completely differemt world, a completely different feeling that i never knew existed. And it was very scary to fe something i never felt before, something u didnt know could be possible. But once you let go and accept the feeling, it's amazing. It's difficult, but amazing. Im not gonna lie and say it was 100% good times. Some times were bliss. Some times were a little difficult. Some times, specially on the come up, very scary and confusing, and hard to keep urself from "losing it". But the times that were bliss were oh so worth it. I cant describe it, so wonderful.
I thought LSD was all about visuals, i was so wrong. Visual are like a side effect of LSD.
It's not a party drug or a social drug. I cant wait to do it in nature because during my trip i kept wishing i was laying on the grass with the sun in my face and flowers around me.
It will be at least 3 months before i try it again, this is not something u can just do, i gotta prepare my mind again for what is to come since it can be very exausting.
But now that i know how it feels, im hoping my come up will be a little easier, where i can get into the zone a little faster instead of staying in that confused and chaotic state for such a long time before i actually got "in the zone". I cant wait to see where my mind will take me next time.
substancecode_lsd
explevel_firsttime
First i would like to thank you for talking to me during my come up, which was quite scary.
Me and my bf decided to try LSD when one of my boyfriend's friend said he always has stamps and he has been taking it for years. For one whole week i read all i could about LSD and we asked my bf's friend a million questions. First we wanted to do it at a festiva. My boyfriend's friend was like NO WAY, for your first time! The best place to do it is at your own house, just the two of u, trust me.
I didnt understand why, i use mdma about once a month and i love to be out. Doing mdma in the house makes me feel like a druggie. But anyways, he is an experienced lsd, and he is a good friend, so im sure he had the best interest.
He also told us to eat 2 stamps each so we could really get "in the zone". He said if we too 1, we would feel it, but we would not get in the zone and not have a true LSD experience. He did not even charge us for the stamps, so i was sure again he had the best interest. He was very helpful all week giving us advices and such.
Friday comes, my bf get home from work and we eat 2 stamps each at around 6:45pm. I was very nervous, i had no idea what to expect. The only drug that i had to compare was mdma. I didnt take LSD just to get "fucked up", i can do that with something else. I was really ready to accept whatever came and flow with it, and hopefully get much more than just getting fucked up.
We didnt really know what to do, so we put some cartoons on, laughed a little, and then put "fear and loathing in las vegas". About 1 hour had passed and i was feeling really strange. MY body was tingling a little, i felt kinda slow but at the same time stimulated. Things were starting to move in waves, but just a little. I was just waiting for my visuals....
HAHA, visuals? Visuals is nothing on a LDS trip, i had no idea what was coming...
I start getting kinda bored of the movie, maybe that wasnt the best time yet to put that kind of movie. Almost 2 hours had passed and i kept feeling very strange, and such a bodyload. I start getting scared and think "is this what im gonna feel all night, this sucks..but let me go with it cause right now i have no choice". We decide to go for a walk around the block. By this time im a little confused, thoughts start racing through my mind, it takes us about 10 minutes of trying to find our jackets and shoes to finally go outside.
We start walking, it's very dark. My body feels weird and numb. I can barely feel my legs and my feet. Im not stumbling at all like i would be with any other drugs, but INISDE, i feel like it's hard to walk because of the numbness.
I can hear almost evertything outside, sound is definately intensified. Things look a little weird. We turn the corner and there is a bunch of traffic light that all of a sudden look like a million cop cars with the sirens! I freak out for a second, jump and look back to noticed they are just traffic lights. Wowww that was wierd as hell, but kinda cool at the same time. Thr block looks sooo long. We get back home and it feels sooo good to get into a safe place, our house looks sooo cozy. I jump in the couch and feel like a child, so safe.
So we put "the wall". I think my bf is already "there", but im still coming up. It's like 9:30, i cant believe it's taking so long and time is going so slow. Shit, i keep thinking this is all im gonna feel, how can people like this drug.
We put the Wall, and my bf tells me he feels like he is in the movie, he can feel the kid's emotion and inocence. Me? Im watching the movie but cant pay attention to whats happening. Thought and more thoughts race through my mind, im started to feel VERY confused. Like a clock that all of a sudden is stopping and trying to turn counter clockwise.
I am completely losing sense of time. I know what time it is, but i dont understand what time means! I can no longer understant the concept of time, i dont know how 3 hours is different from 30 min.
Fucking body load out of this world. This is all very weird, what the hell is happening. We take "the wall" out, this movie is too freaking dark. So we put "the chocolate factory" so we can lighten up. All the kids' faces look ugly as hell. I cant believe how ugly and annoying these kids are. Once again, im looking at the movie but cannot pay attention to it. Im so fucking confused!!!!!!
I start losing concept of reality and the drug itself. I forget that we tried LSD to have a good time, it seems like this is the real way to feel, or that we are doing something really serious. It seems there is a serious reason why we took this drug and i go into this loop of thoughts to try to find what the reason is. I think about people that have taken LSD and what they do, so what should i be doing? Then it hits me again that nooo,, this is just a drug. So now im like in between reality and losing concept of reality.
About 10 or 10:30, it fucking HITS ME LIKE A TON OF BRICKS. The mind fuck just hits me times 100!!!! It feels like glass that all of s sudden just broke into a million pieces. I stand up about to freak the hell out, i cannot control my mind. This is so fucking powerful, i cannot believe it, i cannot grasp how something can be so powerful, it's just impossible!!! I stand up and run to the room, my bf comes after me and tried to calm me down. This is the crucial moment where things can turn either good or bad. I try my hardest to flow with it but to turn it into something good. It is so hard!
I lay in bed and my body feels ELETRIC. I move my hands/arms and this eletric trail follows it. I can feel the energy,the electricity around me and the house. I can hear it!!! Bzzzzzzzzzzzzz! It's like im part of a current. Everything is moving in waves. I have so many thoughts of so many things i want to do right now! I wanna scream, i wanna laugh, i wanna make crazy faces, i dont know what i want to do. My bf's faces looks normal so i get paranoid that he is not in the same state of mind that i am, so i get paranoid. I dont let it all go cause im sure he is gonna think im crazy. Then he tells me he is just as fucked up.
I calm down a little, but i still dont like the feeling to much. Too powerful and hard to control. Too confusing. It is sooooo confusing, that's how i can describe it. I dont know, i just dont know. That's how i feel. This is too much, it's so much that it cannot be so much, i cant grasp it.
We go for another walk. I dont feel my legs at all, i dont even know how im walking. I see two guys in bicycles on the street coming towards us, only to realize when they pass us thay they are actually walking. I can hear them saying something bad about but then i realize it's just my imagination. I dont see a lot of visuals outside because its too dark. We get back home.
NOW IM IN THE ZONE. This is mindblowing. Im in La LA land, but things are not as confusing anymore. I am more fucked up that ever, but i feel like my mind is wearing glasses because things are so clear. I kinda lost sense of reality but i know exactly what's going on. How can that be?? How can i be so out if it, so fucked up, but so clear? I am not stumbling, my face doesnt look all fucked up, im not slurring words, i can even type. But my mind is gone. It blew. It's going counter clockwise and really fast.
Me and my bf start talking about it. It's amazing, the music is on and i feel the music like an electric current going through the whole house, my body and then out of my body and into my boyfriend's body. He knows exactly what im talking about. We have a current going through us. Comes out of me and into him, out of him and into me. It doesnt stop. I cant finish my sentences sometimes because that thought just goes so fast through my mind that i lose it before another million thoughts come rushing in. But it;s ok, it's not scary anymore. And i dont need to finish my sentences because my bf understands. We talk and laugh about it and cannot understand how this feeling can be possible. So powerful.
He puts Daft Punk: Interstella 5555 in the computer. We start watching it and go into our own little worlds. He is really watching the video. I am lloking at it and FEELING the music through my body and thinking so much. So instrospective. But my thought seem to be in a loop, they always end up being about the same thing. About LSD. I think about it and the reason we r doing and the hippies that have done it, and what can you and should u do on it. I think about how rolling is so much easier than this, but this is so much more rewarding. Sometimes it gets a little difficult, but everytime i turn things even more around, it feels OH SO GOOD...because im actually working on it. Sometimes it feels exausting, yes. But still so wonderful.
I feel hugged, embraced by some force. It feels cozy and electric. What is this electricity,this current everywhere? I dont know ,but it's my favorite part. It's flowing through the whole room, it looks amazing, it feels amazing.
Sometimes i try to change my train of thought because i keep thinking about the same thing, like a loop. Stop thinking about the drug and what to do with it, try to pay attention to the tv and just feel it. But those thoughts come back and i just let them because i dont wanna force anything. I just wish i could let go more, but it;s too hard because my mind is not really understanding this, this is all too new.
At about 2:00 am i come down a little. Im still tripping, but it's not as powerful. I kinda dont know what to do with myself, i wanna do so many things. I wanna lay in bed, i wanna go outside and lay in the grass and look at flowers, i wanna dance, i wanna sit...i really wanna do those things but i just cant. I just sit there and get lost in my own mind, still feeling all that energy. I start feeling a little unfomfortable at times, because i feel so much, i want to do those things so much but i just cant move.
I look at the time and think, i wish it was later, i think i had enough, this is too much. But i know that's just gonna make things worse so i gather all the mind energy i still have and keep flowing with it. Once i do that, it feels amazing. But i gotta work hard on this to feel amazing.
At about 3 am, i go lay in bed. Ohhh yes, my bed feels so cozy and good. I think "should i be dancing or doing more that what im doing, i need to get more out of this drug"...but i realize i shoud just do what i wanna do, which is lay in bed cause my mind is so exausted. I close my eyes to try to rest them, and i see beautiful trails that go with the music that i can hear from the living room. I open my eyes and look at my closet and an electricity flow is going through it, with the music. That flow comes out and just engulfs the room, like a constellation in space. It's nice. It's relaxing. Very beautiful. I wish i could endure more and get more out of it, but im just so tired. I try to think of reality, but my mind still wont let me. Shit. It's not over yet. But im too tired so i take a xanax and fall very nicely into sleep. My mind is so exausted that i dont even have dreams.
The next day i feel normal. A little slow from the xanax. But i feel very peaceful. So different from mdma. I feel like i didnt do anything the night before. My mind feels a little numb, like i cant feel to many emotions, i guess cause it had an overload the night before. But that's ok, it actually feels good, it feels like my mind is resting. Me and my bf talk about the experience, and it feels amazing to talk to him about it. Come to think, he is the only person right now i would feel comfortable doing LSd with. Anyone else, i would freak out and think they are judging me. It show me how close i feel to him. And it's a true feeling, unlike MDMA where all the feeling are fake.
I realize that during out trip, all our feelings were real. We were never overly emotional like we are when we roll. Sometimes we talked, sometimes we were alone and the times we said "i love u" or kissed and just as normal as we would do on a normal day. I loved that.
Well...sorry for the long report. I dont know if i explained my trip how it really was, but it;s impossible to put into words the way i felt. It's a completely differemt world, a completely different feeling that i never knew existed. And it was very scary to fe something i never felt before, something u didnt know could be possible. But once you let go and accept the feeling, it's amazing. It's difficult, but amazing. Im not gonna lie and say it was 100% good times. Some times were bliss. Some times were a little difficult. Some times, specially on the come up, very scary and confusing, and hard to keep urself from "losing it". But the times that were bliss were oh so worth it. I cant describe it, so wonderful.
I thought LSD was all about visuals, i was so wrong. Visual are like a side effect of LSD.
It's not a party drug or a social drug. I cant wait to do it in nature because during my trip i kept wishing i was laying on the grass with the sun in my face and flowers around me.
It will be at least 3 months before i try it again, this is not something u can just do, i gotta prepare my mind again for what is to come since it can be very exausting.
But now that i know how it feels, im hoping my come up will be a little easier, where i can get into the zone a little faster instead of staying in that confused and chaotic state for such a long time before i actually got "in the zone". I cant wait to see where my mind will take me next time.
substancecode_lsd
explevel_firsttime
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Acid is a daytime drug imo. Pick a sunny day and go for it. Glad you got past the initial queazy fear and made something of it.
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but i understand why he doesnt want to so its ok because his story was soooo sad